Satanisnature
New member
I discovered spiritual satanism a couple months ago and I've been doing good with meditations but it just doesn't seem like I'm getting the full potential or feeling of what is described. To start off, I just turned 19 and I still live at home with my dad who is a jew and a big christian. I don't want to vent here but it seems no matter how good I do in school I'm always the one who is responsible for every mistake in the household. On top of this my granddad is also a devout christian who lives with us and shares a room right down the hall from me in my house. He reads his bible daily and recites bible verses out loud, Some days he even wears a jewish hat or whatever they are called. They don't know I'm a SS but they do know that I reject all teachings of the bible and even as a kid almost every sunday I refused to go to church, Just standing in one makes me feel weak and unhappy. Some times I do meditations or try to do RTR's but my mind wanders off and I feel tired and unfocused.
Are they affecting me, and if so what should I do right now other than leaving to protect myself.
Are they affecting me, and if so what should I do right now other than leaving to protect myself.