So i was and officialy still am an jehova witness but i need help because i dont know what to do.;-;

[Grewyd]

I live and know jehova witnesses almost all my life.I wont waste your time with my whole story.

In short.I started to doubt my faith first between 2014-2017 and i got diagnosed with schizophrenia back then i had first encounter with joyofSatan site but back ten i was only thinking about enslaving him for my own sake i know arrogance through the roof i even thought that today and i got punished for that already and i learned my lesson.To be honest i never was doubting anything in christianity because i never give 100% to analyse anything i wasnt paying attention to any bible study for all my 28 year old life and i was studying bible with them from when i was 7years old and got baptised at 2013 at age of 17 yet somehow it still burned up in my mind like hot iron rod and change all my live in favor od christianity.So what happened you will ask?I had contact with pornography since 4 years old and i battle addiction to masturbation since then to this day and i thought god will never love me and he do not helps me because of that but time went by and i said to myself ,,im gonna work hard to earn gods love" so i did i tried hard i become preacher and after a year i got baptised but i didnt feel any better basicaly i became non active since early 2014 just before gaining 18 years old at 14.04.2014(funny number coincidence right?).I was not active since then till like 3 moths agoo when i started preaching again and working on building jehova witness congregation meeting halls because i thought that God doesnt give me his spirit because i wasnt fully commited but nothing changed again.Even after i had 56 days of full abstinention during stay in mental hospital nothing changed but then i started to grow stronger in logical thinking and i was sharing my bible understanding and i started to see that the governing body in my organisation was mistaken in many analyses of bible and they were inconsistent with their arguments.In one place they use some argument but when i tried to use same way of thinking to other scriptures i just looked like a heretic.But the most important thing that make bighes difference that when i was using my new found inteligence to justify bible in favour of jehova witnesses everyone started to see it and i felt each time i was preparing for our meetings i was literaly feeling like my spritual energy was drained like i had some kind of parasite.And that was it and now im sure its me that have problem or there is something wrong with this organisation.

I just wanna make it clear my whole life i was believing that Satan and Demons are evil and cruel so its insane hard for me to not fear them and to trust them.But when i began to check stuff on JoyofSatan site then some of bible scriptures started to adds up.On example the part when Adam said that Ewe is ,,finally bone from my bones" and since i know now that first wife of Adam was Lilith then it makes finally sense.

Im terrobly sorry for my writing,grammar and english but i have huge memory problems and struggle real hard to focus so please have some mercy.
And right now i never was so miserableni fell in a hole of doubting everything and its still hard for me to face reality that most if not all stuff i learned might be pure lies.

I really need some help and guidance but i dont want to praise Satan official until im mentaly,physicaly and spiritualy healthy eunough to face enemies.Because i live in christian country(Poland) and im surrunded by christians from everywhere and if im not carefull enough( i live with parents,yea i know a looser) i will be forced to go back to mental hospital where i will be forced to take pills that do not help with anything since i take them and that is from 2017.

Any advice for me have a value of gold right now.

 

[TheWhiteGiant]

I live and know jehova witnesses almost all my life.I wont waste your time with my whole story.

In short.I started to doubt my faith first between 2014-2017 and i got diagnosed with schizophrenia back then i had first encounter with joyofSatan site but back ten i was only thinking about enslaving him for my own sake i know arrogance through the roof i even thought that today and i got punished for that already and i learned my lesson.To be honest i never was doubting anything in christianity because i never give 100% to analyse anything i wasnt paying attention to any bible study for all my 28 year old life and i was studying bible with them from when i was 7years old and got baptised at 2013 at age of 17 yet somehow it still burned up in my mind like hot iron rod and change all my live in favor od christianity.So what happened you will ask?I had contact with pornography since 4 years old and i battle addiction to masturbation since then to this day and i thought god will never love me and he do not helps me because of that but time went by and i said to myself ,,im gonna work hard to earn gods love" so i did i tried hard i become preacher and after a year i got baptised but i didnt feel any better basicaly i became non active since early 2014 just before gaining 18 years old at 14.04.2014(funny number coincidence right?).I was not active since then till like 3 moths agoo when i started preaching again and working on building jehova witness congregation meeting halls because i thought that God doesnt give me his spirit because i wasnt fully commited but nothing changed again.Even after i had 56 days of full abstinention during stay in mental hospital nothing changed but then i started to grow stronger in logical thinking and i was sharing my bible understanding and i started to see that the governing body in my organisation was mistaken in many analyses of bible and they were inconsistent with their arguments.In one place they use some argument but when i tried to use same way of thinking to other scriptures i just looked like a heretic.But the most important thing that make bighes difference that when i was using my new found inteligence to justify bible in favour of jehova witnesses everyone started to see it and i felt each time i was preparing for our meetings i was literaly feeling like my spritual energy was drained like i had some kind of parasite.And that was it and now im sure its me that have problem or there is something wrong with this organisation.

I just wanna make it clear my whole life i was believing that Satan and Demons are evil and cruel so its insane hard for me to not fear them and to trust them.But when i began to check stuff on JoyofSatan site then some of bible scriptures started to adds up.On example the part when Adam said that Ewe is ,,finally bone from my bones" and since i know now that first wife of Adam was Lilith then it makes finally sense.

Im terrobly sorry for my writing,grammar and english but i have huge memory problems and struggle real hard to focus so please have some mercy.
And right now i never was so miserableni fell in a hole of doubting everything and its still hard for me to face reality that most if not all stuff i learned might be pure lies.

I really need some help and guidance but i dont want to praise Satan official until im mentaly,physicaly and spiritualy healthy eunough to face enemies.Because i live in christian country(Poland) and im surrunded by christians from everywhere and if im not carefull enough( i live with parents,yea i know a looser) i will be forced to go back to mental hospital where i will be forced to take pills that do not help with anything since i take them and that is from 2017.

Any advice for me have a value of gold right now.

Hello.

You are right to acknowledge the evil lies that is xianity (christianity but we put X on christ), and you do not need to suffer.

study the website more and more. then you must do the dedication ritual: https://satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/SATANIC.html

After that you must perform meditations everyday for 40 days based on this guideline, and, after that you can either keep doing the same meditations until you reach a higher level, or change the timing a bit but try not to go too far beyond your level, and do not be lazy. Meditation at most takes an hour or two of the whole day, if even that.

Heres the link to the 40 day meditation program: https://satanslibrary.org/hp_hooded_cobra_40_day_meditation_program.pdf

Satan and the Demons are not evil scary creatures, they are very ancient gods and goddesses. much more ancient than any abrahamic jewish "religion".

I highly suggest you disconnect from the life of a jehovas witness and christianity, or islam. Try to do it very secretly however. and NEVER reveal your beliefs to ANYONE. Even if you trust them with your whole life. You never know how a human can betray you. Especially when you live in such a dangerous country.

Make sure to use a very good VPN service when you are surfing the Joy of Satan.

 

[NinRick]

Since coming to Satan, I have seen 2 Women who are possessed by Angels. They tell them that they are Gods already, and inflict a vast amount of suffering, and insanity upon their victims. You need to leave that asap.

 

[Rroco88]

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Welcome to our forums

It's really good that you have seen the lies, and are willing to learn. The forums are opened for questions and people here will guide you to answers.

You can start reading the Joy of Satan website, as well as Exposing Christianity, you can find both here: https://satanisgod.org/

Also as another member said here before, do the dedication and start meditation programs (the 40 days program is best for beginners), to spiritually advance, which is the one of the main goals in Satanism, becoming a better version of yourself.

And you do not have to prase Satan "officially" to people around you. Most people don't tell their families and close ones that they are satanists, to avoid unnecessary fights. Because your religion is up to YOU, it's your own decision and no one else's, what religion you follow. And if you're worried about enemies, soon as you do the dedication the Gods will protect you as long as it's necessary while you meditate and advance.

Also one more thing, try as much as possible to not reveal personal info about you such as your birthday and location, because even if it is a satanists forum, anyone can make an account. And the Internet will be the Internet, never a fully safe place.

It's maybe a lot of information coming to you right now, so again, feel open to ask us questions

 

[tandt]

Come to Father Satan and heal your self.
Xianity destroys and you are about to make a very positive decision in joining us.

For now make sure you read the JOS site thoroughly and if you have questions feel free to ask here, we will guide you. But dedicate as soon as possible and start meditation as soon as possible

 

[phi3.14infinity]

Please read the posts about Christianity in my signature