why cant i just be happy with myself.

[nevinbennetch]

I love a boy. But he is what I hate at the end of the day. I feel like I love this boy in the strongest possible way, I have had crushes before and stuff like that but it aches how I love him. It's not physical appearance because well he just is not what I would normally look for. I don't even know if there is a reason I can give as to why I feel like this about him. I feel this way even though, he is a Christian, not gay, and I am fairly sure he likes someone else. I don't want to like him because I couldn't imagine the pain of losing him in the afterlife and I hate the cause of all of this, angels, and I become so angry that I feel like I have been sunburned severely. Then I fall sad and broken because I can't simply grap the angels and do as I please to them for making me hurt like this, at least not yet. I don't even know what I am asking for I just need guidance, I guess that is what I need.

 

[Brian Gibbons]

<td val[/IMG]Our heart know no bounds when it comes to love.I have been with many that did not believe the way I did and hate to tell you but it will never work.You can't build any kind of a lasting relationship if they don't except what you believe.I am telling you from years of trying.But when you find someone who does it is so amazing to share rituals holidays and even meditations with the one you love.My wife and I discuss Satan and the Gods for hours and it is so worth the wait.IMO you will not be happy if they are not one of us.


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From: nevinbennetch <nevinbennetch@...;
To: <[email protected];
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] why cant i just be happy with myself.
Sent: Sat, Oct 20, 2012 4:02:26 AM

<td val[/IMG]   I love a boy. But he is what I hate at the end of the day. I feel like I love this boy in the strongest possible way, I have had crushes before and stuff like that but it aches how I love him. It's not physical appearance because well he just is not what I would normally look for. I don't even know if there is a reason I can give as to why I feel like this about him. I feel this way even though, he is a Christian, not gay, and I am fairly sure he likes someone else. I don't want to like him because I couldn't imagine the pain of losing him in the afterlife and I hate the cause of all of this, angels, and I become so angry that I feel like I have been sunburned severely. Then I fall sad and broken because I can't simply grap the angels and do as I please to them for making me hurt like this, at least not yet. I don't even know what I am asking for I just need guidance, I guess that is what I need.

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[Daniel Carstens]

I was trying to get "close" with a very fine Hispanic women that I met at the workplace. I messed up by talking about something I'm perplexed by, the subconscious mind. The next day I was hanging out with her, and she talked to me about her seeing Jesus. She also told me about her conversations with Jesus, and the "bliss" that Jesus gave her. I could've standed up and started a ongoing argument and started the room "on fire" with My Passion. But I stopped that person from coming out of me and left. You will never be happy with a person without. A hard thing that I am still learning to come to terms with this. I don't have any sources for this. But hopefully if you apply yourself to your passions, success and happiness will find you.(love) I hope anyway.
Hail Satan!



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On Sat, Oct 20, 2012 6:08 PM PDT Brian Gibbons wrote:

Our heart know no bounds when it comes to love.I have been with many that did not believe the way I did and hate to tell you but it will never work.You can't build any kind of a lasting relationship if they don't except what you believe.I am telling you from years of trying.But when you find someone who does it is so amazing to share rituals holidays and even meditations with the one you love.My wife and I discuss Satan and the Gods for hours and it is so worth the wait.IMO you will not be happy if they are not one of us.


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[Brian Gibbons]

<td val[/IMG]The secret is I never gave up that I would one day find my soul mate.As I said I kissed a lot of frogs in the process but I never gave up no matter how many times I fuck up or got hurt or even hurt others.But it wasn't until I found Satan that my life started making sense.


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From: Daniel Carstens <carstensd13@...;
To: <[email protected];
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] why cant i just be happy with myself.
Sent: Sun, Oct 21, 2012 7:03:31 AM

<td val[/IMG]  
I was trying to get "close" with a very fine Hispanic women that I met at the workplace. I messed up by talking about something I'm perplexed by, the subconscious mind. The next day I was hanging out with her, and she talked to me about her seeing Jesus. She also told me about her conversations with Jesus, and the "bliss" that Jesus gave her. I could've standed up and started a ongoing argument and started the room "on fire" with My Passion. But I stopped that person from coming out of me and left. You will never be happy with a person without. A hard thing that I am still learning to come to terms with this. I don't have any sources for this. But hopefully if you apply yourself to your passions, success and happiness will find you.(love) I hope anyway.
Hail Satan!

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On Sat, Oct 20, 2012 6:08 PM PDT Brian Gibbons wrote:

Our heart know no bounds when it comes to love.I have been with many that did not believe the way I did and hate to tell you but it will never work.You can't build any kind of a lasting relationship if they don't except what you believe.I am telling you from years of trying.But when you find someone who does it is so amazing to share rituals holidays and even meditations with the one you love.My wife and I discuss Satan and the Gods for hours and it is so worth the wait.IMO you will not be happy if they are not one of us.


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On Mon, Oct 22, 2012 10:51 PM CEST Brian Gibbons wrote:

The secret is I never gave up that I would one day find my soul mate.As I said I kissed a lot of frogs in the process but I never gave up no matter how many times I fuck up or got hurt or even hurt others.But it wasn't until I found Satan that my life started making sense.


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