I actually just did mine tonight.
My only advice is not to use an exact-o-knife blade, because you won't
bleed at all. And feel like a moron for cutting and hurting yourself
and getting nothing. Ended up having to cut in the crook of my elbow
to get anything at all. And then when I burned it, I was kind of
disappointed. Nothing really seemed to change. The whole "cutting
myself all over trying to bleed at least a little" kind of threw off
the mood. And then I meditated, which was about the same as always,
and one the candle was out, I took the bowl outside to put the ashes
in my rose garden. And as soon as I stepped outside, it was really
cold, but this wind blew right at me-- it was warm and moist and
generally comforting. I don't really know how to explain it, but it
was sort of like... the womb, if that makes sense? Warm, safe,
gentile, caring... and then when I poured the ashes, it sort of
dissipated, and I was cold again. Like being born again. Like being
forgiven for my past mistakes, including my exact-o-knife screw up. x.x
Hail Satan!
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[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "plushieluvur" <gingposhad@... wrote:
Im planning on doingmine very soon, I was just wondering what other's
experiances were so I kinda know what to expect.=]
