What was your worldview before committing to Satan?

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I was a Christian before this...

What about you? And why were you that way?

And of course, I know none of you regret the decision.

I was an atheist on the verge of nihilism.

I was raised in a very strange branch off of christianity but was never really into it, I was mostly into politics and mainstream conservatism(cringe), which later became populism under the "philosophy" of nick fuentes(not recommended). I valued christianity mainly in its treatment of women and for upholding "traditional gender roles" as at the time I was a MGTOW incel. Me and my friend used to mock women by saying they ruined the world because Eve ate the apple(now its the opposite lmao), redpilling people on women hitting "the wall" at 30, and of course the average repeal the 19th meme. Needless to say after I got a demoness and Lilith of all goddesses(too perfect) as my guardian that shit wasn't tolerated for much longer lol.

There is a lot more and perhaps I'll do a testimonial someday but now is not the time.

I was a Christian before this...

What about you? And why were you that way?

I was an Occultist. I was always fascinated with hidden/suppressed knowledge, uncovering hidden powers of the mind and questioning everything mainstream. I came to ToZ searching for more esoteric knowledge on Google (in the days when Google didn't censor ToZ and ToZ appeared as top search result in many searches) and I soon found that the knowledge on ToZ is much superior to what I have known. Only the name "Satan" troubled me at first, so I ignored everything about Satan and Demons and focused on studying and practicing the power meditations and magick on the site. But since I wasn't closed minded, I kept reading and after I learned and realized that Satan isn't related to "evil", I dedicated myself.

I was a teen with no purpose with ahead a life of degeneracy and decadence.

I saw only drugs, junk food, constant spiritual harassment, gossip, bullying, physical violence, sadness, misery, pain, loneliness, countless deceptions, poverty, weakness, highest level stupidity of myself, all these things was constant and of course suffering, while time by time catching myself by saying this to myself with panic and despair “everything will be alright.” How I was even able trought all this have a kind of worldview, if any?

I had no clue why this was happening to me, others not either, nobody was knowing why is like that and everybody was happy, making no mistakes and lucky, had money and everything. When I was happy, everybody was sad and angry, when everybody was happy me was sad. Only worldview I had was this blind phrase “everything will be alright.”

Because of all this I was put into psychiatric hospital by force for not short period of time, and after they let me out, everything was even worse… “friends” attitudes, suspiciousness and I can go on all fucking day.

But… I was noticing that when I was alone I was moving forward somehow.., very lightly but it was enough, for me to understand what is important, without other people later I started to move forward very fast, when I met them in “smal break times from being alone” they couldn’t recognise me, every time I felt stronger.

Without any reason I gave my soul to our Beloved Father Zeus, and I didn’t asked anything, I just gave, I was read In HPS Pythia’s sermons that you have to know what you want, I didn’t cared that, I had nothing to loose. And I started to do strange and powerful rituals out of my heart spontaneously I never did before, I think this is how I invited or accepted Gods in my life. At those times I almost had no consciousness, somehow unconciously I managed to get on this path.

Getting back on track so I thank for I always in the background of all that misery, I silently was reading Temple of Zeus,
I’m glad everything is in the past and that now I catch myself telling to myself with the big Joy that “everything is good.”

HAIL ZEUS!

By the time when I was 12 I had completely rejected christianity and became a radical atheist anti-christian.

I was always anti Christian. But I at one point valued many wrong things in life. I also had tendency to be a liar and I was arrogant. Cleaning my chakras helped a lot. And the final Ritual.

Before all this i was a christian, but had an intense fascination with witchcraft,I also unfortunately used some of the seals, cause some witchcraft sites had them on it, which those seals got me nowhere,but I was a christian an I was going to control a demon like solomon, which I know now probably would have gotten me killed or worse, I would have become a full christard,I'm glad things turned out how they did though, I got to know my Guardian Daemon an ToZ,Satan in a way guided me to him once I gave up on those crappy seals,

I loved reading through the replies! It's so diverse yet so relatable on many different levels.

Like many of you, I grew up in a Christard/conservative home and was indoctrinated every Sunday. I only gave into the reptillian collective's "love" for a few short days (during camps) where for a whole week you are taught nothing but stories of the bible. We did outdoor activities/games, had songs and every night had these musical prayer worship things. One time we did this mass-baptism in a swimming pool and as we waited in a circle for the "un"holy diving board with our feet in the water. We all could feel swirling motions and we could feel and hear sonorous bangs of this thing our cabin leader called "the holy spirit", which seemed to spread a fake collective love now that I think of it in retrospect.

As soon as I'd leave somehow I'd revert back instantly to rationality, thinking about the witch hunts and all the "weird" people that were slaughtered by this so called benevolent thing and its followers. The flip literally was like the lifting of a spell.

Every time we drove there I would listen to black metal and hate g-d. I was secretly gay and I hated the idea of resting all my hopes and life on something that isn't tangible. I'd been let down enough by my actual parents and went into foster care very young. My homosexuality was something I never disclosed until I was 16. I was a weird kid and mostly into arts.

I was about 13 when I was into black metal but before that it was mostly The Offspring, Nirvana, Slayer, Metallica, Sabbath, etc. I had always had a fascination with everything dark/morbid like horror movies, unexplained mysteries and ghost stories. I think a part of this was a rebellious spirit I had. I got interested in the occult around 16 and wanted to do magic. Nothing I found online clicked for me (Wiccan crap, Thelema, etc) when I one day found the ToZ. I was completely enthralled as every word pierced me like a long-forgotten truth and everything just clicked.

I dedicated a few weeks after and was a full on Zevist. Months into it I've felt love from Satan I never felt anywhere else and I saw him once when (for no apparent reason) I suddenly became fully awake at 3 AM (Satan's hour) and I saw his radiating and glowing presence at the foot of my bed, wearing white sleeveless robes with the collar in a v-shape parted at his chest. He had medium-long parted blonde hair and he was simply beautiful, smiling and gazing at me with such love as though he saw nothing but goodness in me. He was there for only a few seconds and this is the biggest reason I'll never leave this path. At the time I didn't know what Satan looked like and I was still pretty ignorant. The picture I later found on the ToZ blew my mind.

After school I started working full time and going to college. It's here I was 24-7 in 3D land and I fell off the band-wagon big time; partying, smoking pot, joining a hippy mindset of peace and love. (Kill 'em with love I used to say). I started getting into organic food and that's when I woke up, realizing how the governments are trying to basically kill everyone.

The one thing I couldn't shake from my parent's lessons was the idea of treating everyone with respect. If someone is rude, assume they are having struggles and don't judge them at face value. Rather, get to know the reasons 'why' and seek to understand them through empathy and understanding. If that fails, leave the situation and don't dwell on it. Rather have hope you made some impact, no matter how small.

After a point in my more recent years I've realized that this is a fools errand and we should choose our battles more wisely rather than giving ourselves willingly to others, because people latch onto that for self validity. Logically it seems like it would be an ideal world if we could change others so easily, but instead I found it's better to plant seeds in them by inspiring them ask questions and think open-mindedly, like "here's a strange coincidence, but who knows..."

We shouldn't make it a struggle in ourselves to placate others. I decided that I will be myself and if someone doesn't like it they are small minded and not worth my time.

It's a tough go because I was born Virgo and I'm very empathetic naturally. The path to self discovery in Zevism is arduous and I think it could've started early for me without my realizing it. Such is Satan's power and reach over us. It took me such a long and round-about way to come to the right conclusions regarding Zevism.

If anyone on these forums ever complains "why doesn't Satan just finish his work on the world" I'd tell them he is through us and he's working very hard. Could you imagine the chaos the world would be in if Satan imposed his path on the world overnight? This would lead to pandemonium. Satan is truly brilliant and amazing. These things can't be overstated.

I'm sorry for the long read there. Thank you Pythia, Zevios Metathronos, BlackDragon666 and (the one with the A, sorry I forgot :eek: ... Al lucificas or something), our guardians and all the others.

HAIL ZEUS! :D

Ever since I remember and started having coherent thoughts I was a Zevist. As a child I didn't know how to call or define it. As a young adult I was keeping it all to myself feeling rather unhappy there aren't others who think and feel like me. When it appeared I was consoled to an extent that something true like the ToZ exists. Now I feel calm and with more strength of conviction than ever. Being stupid and self destructive wasn't easy to overcome an left its scars but here we are, a bit less so every day. Working to be more and contribute more is the only option. Being blinded by hate is dangerous but considering what they've done to us quite understandable. I trust no one but our gods and maybe it leads to being slightly paranoid. Thank you Pythia for all the wisdom and inspiration and Cobra thank you for your leadership, understanding and instilling hope in very dark moments. Thank you everyone else for helping me grow. We are getting there, it's only a matter of time. Let's push harder, reclaim what has been stolen and rebuild this world.

I didn't really care about almost anything, I didn't care about almost anything, I just "existed". My view was not compatible with what I have now. I was ignorant, I didn't understand higher phenomena (or just didn't want to), I didn't engage with Spirituality, and I led a negative lifestyle.