What to do when it's too late?

[kieithnightmare0]

I want to keep meditating and doing RTR's but I keep hearing that I'm gonna die if I try to do those things... I'm pretty sure thuis is not the enemy saying these things to me, as I fucked up really badly (won't go into details). But I want to improve myself and I don't want to stay as I am. But without Satanic protection.. I can very well die.

Is there any advice on this situation? I can't stand the thought of not meditating and living like a goy or dying... but I keep making the same mistakes over and over and I can't seem to find a way around that. I want to, but now I can't it seems..

 

[babyb00m]

Ignore the negative thoughts. That is the enemy trying to deter you from meditating and becoming a threat to them. A favorite tactic that enemy entities like to use is sticking thoughtforms to you that cause negative thoughts on repeat. You need to clean you aura and build a very strong aura of protection everyday. Neglecting to clean your aura allows negative energy to stick to you and cause problems like anxiety, depression, bad luck, disease, and difficulty with meditation. Also, we are in a spiritual war here and you need a strong aura of protection. Neglecting to protect yourself will allow those curses to sap your motivation and eventually ruin your life.

Aura Cleaning and Aura of Protection
http://josministries.prophpbb.com/topic16800.html

Returning Curses Part 1
http://josministries.prophpbb.com/topic18161.html

Returning Curses Part 2
http://josministries.prophpbb.com/topic18431.html