What Should I Do? Is This Healthy?

[Head Guardian Blitzkreig]

Hello everyone,

I have a strong desire to hurt people. During sexual excitement, I talk to Satan and express my wishes to harm or send hexes or harm. Is this healthy? Am I being directed somewhere and does this mean anything? I hunger for all temptations of the flesh, and I hunger for control over people, I desire to manipulate and charm people, coerce them and bewitch them. What is happening to me?
I've basically gotten a strong desire 'to be lethal', but in a way that is concerning to me? I have been watching much about Dahmer, John Wayne Gacy etc and feel like I'm becoming something new entirely. Please don't be concerned by this I'm not a troll, I am being serious.

Kinda confused, like really confused. No offence intended

-Baphomentii

Yes, this is not healthy. Look at how our planetary energies operate to get an example of "normal".

For example, the home sign of Venus is in Libra, which suggests the default basis for love is one where you have a very romantic balance between partners, where each gives to another mutually.

What you describe sounds like a negative Plutonian influence. This can be transmuted into something positive, where you become a strongly positive transformative force on people's lives. Maybe you charm them into leading a better lifestyle, rather than coercing them into something destructive.

Another example of this is with Mars and Aries, where one needs to learn to wield this energies for constructive efforts. Instead of using one's Aries energies for selfish bullying, this would instead be turned into a drive to be a champion for your people.

You can use a soul freeing working to directly transmute negative desires or aspects of your soul, as well as the normal aspects of our path, like cleaning and empowering our soul.

People like Dahmer are examples of people whose Plutonian energies spiraled into a disaster. You should not influence yourself with him at all.

 

[Baphometii]

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Hello everyone,

I have a strong desire to hurt people. During sexual excitement, I talk to Satan and express my wishes to harm or send hexes or harm. Is this healthy? Am I being directed somewhere and does this mean anything? I hunger for all temptations of the flesh, and I hunger for control over people, I desire to manipulate and charm people, coerce them and bewitch them. What is happening to me?
I've basically gotten a strong desire 'to be lethal', but in a way that is concerning to me? I have been watching much about Dahmer, John Wayne Gacy etc and feel like I'm becoming something new entirely. Please don't be concerned by this I'm not a troll, I am being serious.

Kinda confused, like really confused. No offence intended

-Baphomentii

Yes, this is not healthy. Look at how our planetary energies operate to get an example of "normal".

For example, the home sign of Venus is in Libra, which suggests the default basis for love is one where you have a very romantic balance between partners, where each gives to another mutually.

What you describe sounds like a negative Plutonian influence. This can be transmuted into something positive, where you become a strongly positive transformative force on people's lives. Maybe you charm them into leading a better lifestyle, rather than coercing them into something destructive.

Another example of this is with Mars and Aries, where one needs to learn to wield this energies for constructive efforts. Instead of using one's Aries energies for selfish bullying, this would instead be turned into a drive to be a champion for your people.

You can use a soul freeing working to directly transmute negative desires or aspects of your soul, as well as the normal aspects of our path, like cleaning and empowering our soul.

People like Dahmer are examples of people whose Plutonian energies spiraled into a disaster. You should not influence yourself with him at all.

Thank you for this, a part of me knows I am quite a freak, and to be honest, It's concerning that others have seen it like that too. Wow.....okay, yeah I need to do something about this. Thanks again

 

[Head Guardian Blitzkreig]

Thank you for this, a part of me knows I am quite a freak, and to be honest, It's concerning that others have seen it like that too. Wow.....okay, yeah I need to do something about this. Thanks again

This is not about denigrating yourself or anything, just recognizing where you can improve. Everyone has negative karma of some sort, but just different. Instead of aggression, someone could be overly fearful or sensitive about something, for example.

As far as what steps to take, you can start with the process described here: https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=76661

 

[Sunny]

These are bad thoughts. To get rid of them, you have to ignore them, forget them and replace them with normal thoughts.

For example, it is normal to be angry with enemies, but negative emotions also hurt the one who feels them if prolonged.

 

[Priest - Alexandros Iowno]

Go and practice a real sport, contact sport. Receive a few punches, then settle your uneducated impulses with discipline and respect for humans. You need to be educated by real fighters.

A monkey with a gun is lethal as well, I would bet without it, is also lethal. Past the Bollywood shocking ego pampering effect, there is only an upwards of good qualities to drive from this with effort and wisdom.

You can learn to be a warrior, with solid principles and mental ground, healthy body and capable to protect or have a career where your ability (needs development as you only have an emotional response to entertainment) of this kind can be put to use, again for protection or in sport for competition.

Stop watching low life criminals, and do watch sport or other good role models. Anyone is capable and is lethal, the only aspect that this catches you is the emotional shock from this that creates dopamine and wonder for you. In other words you misunderstand these things by watching idealized purposeful content, reality is different.

 

[CaspianTheDreamer]

I used to always feel extremely agitated and very furious and violent all the time. Turns out it was because of some hang up. Maybe it has to do with a certain trauma you endure.
Do some soul cleaning.