Arno Dorian said:
Is there any spiritual being that I can get help for this. I want it to be instant .
No matter how worse the situation gets, ending it is never the answer. Of course, its easy for me to say this but only you know how hard is it right now.
The feeling of wanting to end it is a phase caused by the situation, emphasis on the word phase. I have gone through this experience of wanting to end my life because of a situation. My reason over ending it was pathetic and idiotic.
Coming back to point, what I have learned is that its a phase. In this phase, rather than thinking that your circumstances are causing you to want to end your life, there's still an extra unreasonable part of you that wants to end it regardless of circumstances. At some point, circumstances just end up becoming an excuse for wanting to end your life.
Now that we have established the fact that its a phase, what could be the solution ?
Well, we human beings pass over a phase or go through a phase. So, for now, just hold and observe. Void meditation is
very important for you now.
Only doing it 5 min in the morning and at night should help you tremendously in passing through this phase.
Just observe what you feel now. Observe your feelings but don't feed on it or into it. Just observe.
I recommend you to put your hands away from your keyboard or smartphone and just sit still to observe what you feel from a third person perspective.
After you have done this, you would end up thinking, wait why am I so focused on just wanting to end my life but not on finding actual solutions to my problems ?
Why am I feeling this way ? What is exactly causing me to feel this way ?
This is where enemies come into the spotlight. They could have a big hand in making you dwell on these unreasonable illogical feelings and emotions that if looked after rationally, ends up becoming pointless for the purposes they could/intended by filthy disgusting reptiles to have served.
Because after you recover and get back on your feet after passing through this 'phase', you would want to hit your head with your palm and think 'Damn! What was I thinking ?'
After you pass through this phase, you would realise the stupidity of ending your most precious life because of circumstances.
With a very strong emphasis, I recommend you to do void meditation with utmost discipline. At least 5 min in the morning and in night will help a lot.
We are separated by thousands of miles but I still consider you to be a family. Each and every other Satanist here is a family to the other regardless of distance. Care and love can never be separated by distance if there is a will. Even if you are confused about your true family and can't meet them, till you actually do, you will always have us caring and looking after you in your hard times like we are doing right now. You are a fellow brother to me, an assassin if you will, figting in the dark(doing rtr's) to serve light.
Arno Dorian said:
But wait a minute, who said we could meet ?
If you say that you can meet your true family then no one needs to say anything more, anymore, be it fate,money problems,virus, astrology or any other person or circumstances.
Till you have sufficient ability or opportunity to meet them, focus on advancing your soul first. You shouldn't dwell on things that are out of your control so having expectations right now is pointless about who your family is or what their origin is. After all its out of your control and dwelling on it will only waste time. You will find it out when the time comes and till then don't worry about it.
If its about healing then scour through the healing section in Satanic Witchcraft page. Read each and every word from start to end with full attention.
Financial situation, here I can't say much. Doing money spells or Satanic squares should help. Of course, you already know this.
In conclusion, the feeling of wanting to end your life is in the end a feeling which fades with time. Till then be consistent with your void meditations. If you sit down and think rationally putting aside unnecessary things, you will find that there will always be a solution to your problems.
Take care.
Do not hesitate to quote me or any other members if you have any other questions or concerns.