what is happening to me

[papa k]

over the past few months i feel as if my person is deteriorating ive become progressively emotionally.....twisted i guess you could say i keep goin in and out of depression which usually doesnt happen as often as it has been also im feeling less of satans energy im becoming week and im really afraid to say but im more suicidal than ive ever been im a complete wreck and i have no idea why can someone please help me and give me the best advice to beat this off this isnt me i want to be my stable self with our father by my side like it should be and for the first time....i actually am afraid im really loosing hope in life and everything around me please i need help what can i do any advice or thoughts of what might be happening are appreciated

 

[Al Reyes]

bro,you are being attacked by the enemy.i know this because i too was there i felt depressed and like just an empty peace of shit with no emotions and i was so lazy to meditate and was having suicidal thoughts because none of my magick was working.it took me a while to find out i was being attacked but i eventually pulled through with help from other brothers and sisters.anyways what you have to do is relax clear your mind then cleanse your aura for atleast 20 min. then place an aura of pertective white/gold energy over your aura.the reason why you feel like this is probably because someone is praying for you,or you havent cleansed your aura or meditated,or you have a reptilian or grey trying to stop you from meditating by making you feel that way.if you feel that it might be one of these then also add this to your meditations,visualize a pure whitegold fire like aura over you and affirm it with "i am deflecting any negative energy that is coming to me".now bro you need to be strong dont let these fukin parasites bring you down you become the predator not the prey. the most important thing here is NEVER STOP MEDITATING thats what there goal is.i dont know how advanced you are in your meditations but watever you do dont stop meditating thats like giving in to the enemy. they want you to be hopeless because as you advance your soul your a threat to them.i could go on and on but ill post some links to what you need to do to retaliate and pertect yourself.now those two must be done eachday to get rid of what you have.hope this helps bro.http://www.666blacksun.com/Protection.html http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... aning.html HAIL SATAN!


From: papa k <xevilxlustx@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Friday, September 16, 2011 7:04 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] what is happening to me

  over the past few months i feel as if my person is deteriorating ive become progressively emotionally.....twisted i guess you could say i keep goin in and out of depression which usually doesnt happen as often as it has been also im feeling less of satans energy im becoming week and im really afraid to say but im more suicidal than ive ever been im a complete wreck and i have no idea why can someone please help me and give me the best advice to beat this off this isnt me i want to be my stable self with our father by my side like it should be and for the first time....i actually am afraid im really loosing hope in life and everything around me please i need help what can i do any advice or thoughts of what might be happening are appreciated

 

[papa k]

well 1. im not advanced in meditations by any means i actually read all posts under i suck and i really connected with the author on many levels i want new and inexperienced didnt what to expect if anything but further more i didnt know where to start like what chakra to work on first 2 i figured its an attack i didnt want to admit it but i knew/know it is what it is but what/who is causing it i dont know but what really gave away that i was under attack were thoughts of turning against father and thoughts that father or other demons were behind the attack which we all know they would never do to their own kind but the previous mentioned post (i suck) gave me a lot of insight on where to start and i thank you for coming to my aid i love father more than anything i was forced into catholicism when i was a child but i was strong enough to see through the lies and not buy into that heinous bullshit and ill be damned if i go back i will also review the links you sent me again i thank you very much i dont know how much time i have left but i think time should be on my side im actually feeling my strength come back as i type this so i think somehow subconsciously im able to beat of the attacker...for how long though is the question but it looks as if i have a battle to be fought and won so i shall be away for sometime again and i appologize for my extended absences from forums but once i regain my full strength and ive fully dealt with this i will be sure to report back with the details =) this is my test of strength i hope for myself the best of luck i love you all and i shall return and if there is any rituals that can be done by any of you for "reinforcement" or "additional protection" please please lend any assistance keep me in your hearts and keep me in your prayers i love my family as much as i love father HAIL SATAN!

I SHALL RETURN VIKTORIOUS

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Al Reyes <alreyes57@... wrote:

bro,you are being attacked by the enemy.i know this because i too was there i felt depressed and like just an empty peace of shit with no emotions and i was so lazy to meditate and was having suicidal thoughts because none of my magick was working.it took me a while to find out i was being attacked but i eventually pulled through with help from other brothers and sisters.anyways what you have to do is relax clear your mind then cleanse your aura for atleast 20 min. then place an aura of pertective white/gold energy over your aura.the reason why you feel like this is probably because someone is praying for you,or you havent cleansed your aura or meditated,or you have a reptilian or grey trying to stop you from meditating by making you feel that way.if you feel that it might be one of these then also add this to your meditations,visualize a pure whitegold fire like aura over you and affirm it with "i am deflecting any negative energy that is coming to
me".now bro you need to be strong dont let these fukin parasites bring you down you become the predator not the prey. the most important thing here is NEVER STOP MEDITATING thats what there goal is.i dont know how advanced you are in your meditations but watever you do dont stop meditating thats like giving in to the enemy. they want you to be hopeless because as you advance your soul your a threat to them.i could go on and on but ill post some links to what you need to do to retaliate and pertect yourself.now those two must be done eachday to get rid of what you have.hope this helps bro.
http://www.666blacksun.com/Protection.html
 http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... aning.html
 
HAIL SATAN!




________________________________
From: papa k <xevilxlustx@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Friday, September 16, 2011 7:04 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] what is happening to me


 
over the past few months i feel as if my person is deteriorating ive become progressively emotionally.....twisted i guess you could say i keep goin in and out of depression which usually doesnt happen as often as it has been also im feeling less of satans energy im becoming week and im really afraid to say but im more suicidal than ive ever been im a complete wreck and i have no idea why can someone please help me and give me the best advice to beat this off this isnt me i want to be my stable self with our father by my side like it should be and for the first time....i actually am afraid im really loosing hope in life and everything around me please i need help what can i do any advice or thoughts of what might be happening are appreciated

 

[David1]

are you cleansing?

are you cleansing your chakras?

are you meditating?

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "papa k" <xevilxlustx@... wrote:

over the past few months i feel as if my person is deteriorating ive become progressively emotionally.....twisted i guess you could say i keep goin in and out of depression which usually doesnt happen as often as it has been also im feeling less of satans energy im becoming week and im really afraid to say but im more suicidal than ive ever been im a complete wreck and i have no idea why can someone please help me and give me the best advice to beat this off this isnt me i want to be my stable self with our father by my side like it should be and for the first time....i actually am afraid im really loosing hope in life and everything around me please i need help what can i do any advice or thoughts of what might be happening are appreciated

 

[papa k]

well like i stated previously i made an attempt to meditate and open my chakras but i really didnt know what i was doing or how to go about opening my chakras i went on the jos site to find out what and how i need to do this but i wasnt sure which chakra to start on first or if the order of opening chakras really mattered is there really any proper order in opening the chakras

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "David" <garimevil@... wrote:

are you cleansing?

are you cleansing your chakras?

are you meditating?



--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "papa k" <xevilxlustx@ wrote:

over the past few months i feel as if my person is deteriorating ive become progressively emotionally.....twisted i guess you could say i keep goin in and out of depression which usually doesnt happen as often as it has been also im feeling less of satans energy im becoming week and im really afraid to say but im more suicidal than ive ever been im a complete wreck and i have no idea why can someone please help me and give me the best advice to beat this off this isnt me i want to be my stable self with our father by my side like it should be and for the first time....i actually am afraid im really loosing hope in life and everything around me please i need help what can i do any advice or thoughts of what might be happening are appreciated

 

[Sami Abbas]

Order is VERY important, start with the Third Eye. Follow the layout on the JoS. Read the writing on the Awakening Meditations page. And go slow on yourself. Remember, you are brand new to meditation. High Priest Vovim's Baghie has a sermon on this subject, I don't know the link for it (sorry). And don't hesitate to ask questions here!!! (just make sure they aren't stupid or on the JoS lol!!)

http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... akras.html

http://vovimbaghie.cz.cc/

Hope I helped!!

HAIL SATAN!!!
Hail the Almighty Gods of Duat!!
Sami

On 17 Sep 2011, at 20:50, "papa k" <xevilxlustx@... wrote:

  well like i stated previously i made an attempt to meditate and open my chakras but i really didnt know what i was doing or how to go about opening my chakras i went on the jos site to find out what and how i need to do this but i wasnt sure which chakra to start on first or if the order of opening chakras really mattered is there really any proper order in opening the chakras

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "David" <garimevil@... wrote:

are you cleansing?

are you cleansing your chakras?

are you meditating?



--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "papa k" <xevilxlustx@ wrote:

over the past few months i feel as if my person is deteriorating ive become progressively emotionally.....twisted i guess you could say i keep goin in and out of depression which usually doesnt happen as often as it has been also im feeling less of satans energy im becoming week and im really afraid to say but im more suicidal than ive ever been im a complete wreck and i have no idea why can someone please help me and give me the best advice to beat this off this isnt me i want to be my stable self with our father by my side like it should be and for the first time....i actually am afraid im really loosing hope in life and everything around me please i need help what can i do any advice or thoughts of what might be happening are appreciated

 

[papa k]

thanks =) that indeed was very helpful lol and of course haha i generally check the site and if i still feel confused or if i dont feel my questions have been answered there i bring them here but thanks for the tip

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Sami Abbas <samiabbas66@... wrote:

Order is VERY important, start with the Third Eye. Follow the layout on the JoS. Read the writing on the Awakening Meditations page. And go slow on yourself. Remember, you are brand new to meditation. High Priest Vovim's Baghie has a sermon on this subject, I don't know the link for it (sorry). And don't hesitate to ask questions here!!! (just make sure they aren't stupid or on the JoS lol!!)


http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... akras.html


http://vovimbaghie.cz.cc/


Hope I helped!!


HAIL SATAN!!!

Hail the Almighty Gods of Duat!!

Sami

On 17 Sep 2011, at 20:50, "papa k" <xevilxlustx@... wrote:

well like i stated previously i made an attempt to meditate and open my chakras but i really didnt know what i was doing or how to go about opening my chakras i went on the jos site to find out what and how i need to do this but i wasnt sure which chakra to start on first or if the order of opening chakras really mattered is there really any proper order in opening the chakras

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "David" <garimevil@ wrote:

are you cleansing?

are you cleansing your chakras?

are you meditating?



--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "papa k" <xevilxlustx@ wrote:

over the past few months i feel as if my person is deteriorating ive become progressively emotionally.....twisted i guess you could say i keep goin in and out of depression which usually doesnt happen as often as it has been also im feeling less of satans energy im becoming week and im really afraid to say but im more suicidal than ive ever been im a complete wreck and i have no idea why can someone please help me and give me the best advice to beat this off this isnt me i want to be my stable self with our father by my side like it should be and for the first time....i actually am afraid im really loosing hope in life and everything around me please i need help what can i do any advice or thoughts of what might be happening are appreciated

 

[Sami Abbas]

Any time !!!!!!!!!

HAIL SATAN!!!
Hail the Almighty Gods of Duat!!
Sami

On 18 Sep 2011, at 20:57, "papa k" <xevilxlustx@... wrote:

  thanks =) that indeed was very helpful lol and of course haha i generally check the site and if i still feel confused or if i dont feel my questions have been answered there i bring them here but thanks for the tip

--- [/IMG][email protected][/email][/url], Sami Abbas <samiabbas66@... wrote:

Order is VERY important, start with the Third Eye. Follow the layout on the JoS. Read the writing on the Awakening Meditations page. And go slow on yourself. Remember, you are brand new to meditation. High Priest Vovim's Baghie has a sermon on this subject, I don't know the link for it (sorry). And don't hesitate to ask questions here!!! (just make sure they aren't stupid or on the JoS lol!!)


http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... akras.html


http://vovimbaghie.cz.cc/


Hope I helped!!


HAIL SATAN!!!

Hail the Almighty Gods of Duat!!

Sami

On 17 Sep 2011, at 20:50, "papa k" <xevilxlustx@... wrote:

well like i stated previously i made an attempt to meditate and open my chakras but i really didnt know what i was doing or how to go about opening my chakras i went on the jos site to find out what and how i need to do this but i wasnt sure which chakra to start on first or if the order of opening chakras really mattered is there really any proper order in opening the chakras

--- [/IMG][email protected][/email][/url], "David" <garimevil@ wrote:

are you cleansing?

are you cleansing your chakras?

are you meditating?



--- [/IMG][email protected][/email][/url], "papa k" <xevilxlustx@ wrote:

over the past few months i feel as if my person is deteriorating ive become progressively emotionally.....twisted i guess you could say i keep goin in and out of depression which usually doesnt happen as often as it has been also im feeling less of satans energy im becoming week and im really afraid to say but im more suicidal than ive ever been im a complete wreck and i have no idea why can someone please help me and give me the best advice to beat this off this isnt me i want to be my stable self with our father by my side like it should be and for the first time....i actually am afraid im really loosing hope in life and everything around me please i need help what can i do any advice or thoughts of what might be happening are appreciated

 

[Al Reyes]

im sure you will bro,if i could do it you can do it too.just remember father is always there to pertect you aswell as your guardian for aslong as you are dedicated to him the most they can do is scare you but they cant kill you because the moment they pop there scronny heads your guardian will rush to your aid and slaughter them. do not give fear to those cowards.be strong and dont give in to laziness that was my mistake there still tryin but hardly.they will more than likely give up once they know that nothing theyve tried can stop you.i know youll win just by doing those links i sent you on the bottom you will.also if you dont know where to start try that link on the bottom,thats where i started and that training program is amazing.well take care bro i know you can pull through with this. all of satans children are strong and smart unlike pathetic christians that suck the pedafile jehovas dick and lets his dick think for them and control them haha. http://www.666blacksun.com/Spiritual_Wa ... ining.htmlHAIL SATAN!


From: papa k <xevilxlustx@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Saturday, September 17, 2011 1:42 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: what is happening to me

  well 1. im not advanced in meditations by any means i actually read all posts under i suck and i really connected with the author on many levels i want new and inexperienced didnt what to expect if anything but further more i didnt know where to start like what chakra to work on first 2 i figured its an attack i didnt want to admit it but i knew/know it is what it is but what/who is causing it i dont know but what really gave away that i was under attack were thoughts of turning against father and thoughts that father or other demons were behind the attack which we all know they would never do to their own kind but the previous mentioned post (i suck) gave me a lot of insight on where to start and i thank you for coming to my aid i love father more than anything i was forced into catholicism when i was a child but i was strong enough to see through the lies and not buy into that heinous bullshit and ill be damned if i go back i will also review the links you sent me again i thank you very much i dont know how much time i have left but i think time should be on my side im actually feeling my strength come back as i type this so i think somehow subconsciously im able to beat of the attacker...for how long though is the question but it looks as if i have a battle to be fought and won so i shall be away for sometime again and i appologize for my extended absences from forums but once i regain my full strength and ive fully dealt with this i will be sure to report back with the details =) this is my test of strength i hope for myself the best of luck i love you all and i shall return and if there is any rituals that can be done by any of you for "reinforcement" or "additional protection" please please lend any assistance keep me in your hearts and keep me in your prayers i love my family as much as i love father HAIL SATAN!

I SHALL RETURN VIKTORIOUS

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Al Reyes <alreyes57@... wrote:

bro,you are being attacked by the enemy.i know this because i too was there i felt depressed and like just an empty peace of shit with no emotions and i was so lazy to meditate and was having suicidal thoughts because none of my magick was working.it took me a while to find out i was being attacked but i eventually pulled through with help from other brothers and sisters.anyways what you have to do is relax clear your mind then cleanse your aura for atleast 20 min. then place an aura of pertective white/gold energy over your aura.the reason why you feel like this is probably because someone is praying for you,or you havent cleansed your aura or meditated,or you have a reptilian or grey trying to stop you from meditating by making you feel that way.if you feel that it might be one of these then also add this to your meditations,visualize a pure whitegold fire like aura over you and affirm it with "i am deflecting any negative energy that is coming to
me".now bro you need to be strong dont let these fukin parasites bring you down you become the predator not the prey. the most important thing here is NEVER STOP MEDITATING thats what there goal is.i dont know how advanced you are in your meditations but watever you do dont stop meditating thats like giving in to the enemy. they want you to be hopeless because as you advance your soul your a threat to them.i could go on and on but ill post some links to what you need to do to retaliate and pertect yourself.now those two must be done eachday to get rid of what you have.hope this helps bro.
http://www.666blacksun.com/Protection.html
 http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... aning.html
 
HAIL SATAN!




________________________________
From: papa k <xevilxlustx@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Friday, September 16, 2011 7:04 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] what is happening to me


 
over the past few months i feel as if my person is deteriorating ive become progressively emotionally.....twisted i guess you could say i keep goin in and out of depression which usually doesnt happen as often as it has been also im feeling less of satans energy im becoming week and im really afraid to say but im more suicidal than ive ever been im a complete wreck and i have no idea why can someone please help me and give me the best advice to beat this off this isnt me i want to be my stable self with our father by my side like it should be and for the first time....i actually am afraid im really loosing hope in life and everything around me please i need help what can i do any advice or thoughts of what might be happening are appreciated

 

[papa k]

hahahahahahaha freaking hilarious thats was awesome XD you guys are all awesome i love your support and all the help ive received i thank you all very much

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Al Reyes <alreyes57@... wrote:

im sure you will bro,if i could do it you can do it too.just remember father is always there to pertect you aswell as your guardian for aslong as you are dedicated to him the most they can do is scare you but they cant kill you because the moment they pop there scronny heads your guardian will rush to your aid and slaughter them. do not give fear to those cowards.be strong and dont give in to laziness that was my mistake there still tryin but hardly.they will more than likely give up once they know that nothing theyve tried can stop you.i know youll win just by doing those links i sent you on the bottom you will.also if you dont know where to start try that link on the bottom,thats where i started and that training program is amazing.well take care bro i know you can pull through with this. all of satans children are strong and smart unlike pathetic christians that suck the pedafile jehovas dick and lets his dick think for them and control them haha.
 http://www.666blacksun.com/Spiritual_Wa ... ining.html
HAIL SATAN!




________________________________
From: papa k <xevilxlustx@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Saturday, September 17, 2011 1:42 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: what is happening to me


 
well 1. im not advanced in meditations by any means i actually read all posts under i suck and i really connected with the author on many levels i want new and inexperienced didnt what to expect if anything but further more i didnt know where to start like what chakra to work on first 2 i figured its an attack i didnt want to admit it but i knew/know it is what it is but what/who is causing it i dont know but what really gave away that i was under attack were thoughts of turning against father and thoughts that father or other demons were behind the attack which we all know they would never do to their own kind but the previous mentioned post (i suck) gave me a lot of insight on where to start and i thank you for coming to my aid i love father more than anything i was forced into catholicism when i was a child but i was strong enough to see through the lies and not buy into that heinous bullshit and ill be damned if i go back i will also review the links
you sent me again i thank you very much i dont know how much time i have left but i think time should be on my side im actually feeling my strength come back as i type this so i think somehow subconsciously im able to beat of the attacker...for how long though is the question but it looks as if i have a battle to be fought and won so i shall be away for sometime again and i appologize for my extended absences from forums but once i regain my full strength and ive fully dealt with this i will be sure to report back with the details =) this is my test of strength i hope for myself the best of luck i love you all and i shall return and if there is any rituals that can be done by any of you for "reinforcement" or "additional protection" please please lend any assistance keep me in your hearts and keep me in your prayers i love my family as much as i love father HAIL SATAN!

I SHALL RETURN VIKTORIOUS

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Al Reyes <alreyes57@ wrote:

bro,you are being attacked by the enemy.i know this because i too was there i felt depressed and like just an empty peace of shit with no emotions and i was so lazy to meditate and was having suicidal thoughts because none of my magick was working.it took me a while to find out i was being attacked but i eventually pulled through with help from other brothers and sisters.anyways what you have to do is relax clear your mind then cleanse your aura for atleast 20 min. then place an aura of pertective white/gold energy over your aura.the reason why you feel like this is probably because someone is praying for you,or you havent cleansed your aura or meditated,or you have a reptilian or grey trying to stop you from meditating by making you feel that way.if you feel that it might be one of these then also add this to your meditations,visualize a pure whitegold fire like aura over you and affirm it with "i am deflecting any negative energy that is coming to
me".now bro you need to be strong dont let these fukin parasites bring you down you become the predator not the prey. the most important thing here is NEVER STOP MEDITATING thats what there goal is.i dont know how advanced you are in your meditations but watever you do dont stop meditating thats like giving in to the enemy. they want you to be hopeless because as you advance your soul your a threat to them.i could go on and on but ill post some links to what you need to do to retaliate and pertect yourself.now those two must be done eachday to get rid of what you have.hope this helps bro.
http://www.666blacksun.com/Protection.html
 http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... aning.html
 
HAIL SATAN!




________________________________
From: papa k <xevilxlustx@
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Friday, September 16, 2011 7:04 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] what is happening to me


 
over the past few months i feel as if my person is deteriorating ive become progressively emotionally.....twisted i guess you could say i keep goin in and out of depression which usually doesnt happen as often as it has been also im feeling less of satans energy im becoming week and im really afraid to say but im more suicidal than ive ever been im a complete wreck and i have no idea why can someone please help me and give me the best advice to beat this off this isnt me i want to be my stable self with our father by my side like it should be and for the first time....i actually am afraid im really loosing hope in life and everything around me please i need help what can i do any advice or thoughts of what might be happening are appreciated