What happens when you poke a tiger with sticks...

[firebird894]

Went to the doc today thinking it was the flu... and he dosn't think so. I have had strange illness on and off for a few years now and he might be finally getting to the bottom of it, I can't really remember what normal feels like... you get used to things over time it seems normal but I know it's not. Depression, fatigue strange rashes, upset stomachs, nervous symptoms, asthma sinusitis ear ache, dizziness sudden weakness in the legs, allergies, funny heart beats list goes on and on. Well he thinks I have glandular fever or tonislitis right now as acute thing, but I had a test last year that showed something else... doctor then dismissed it as nothing but I am getting checked again. As I walked out the door he said to me this bug has been used or turned into bio weapons and it's a nasty thing but he will do his best to fix me. I thought 'bio weapons? what?'

It is called mycoplasma, there are several types that can make you sick and it's a nasty little sucker it can hide away in your cells for decades like an infiltrator! and on and off it flares up and makes you sick. It can spread anywhere in the body and has been linked to a long list of major chronic diseases. I came home and googled it I found one article that said the allies tried to make it into a weapon to use against the Germans and Japanese, and it has been unleashed on most countries already. A lot of people are silent carriers and don't know they have it. Best test is a PCR blood test but it dosn't always show up, it can also hide in spinal fluid and other body fluids. It has been around a very long time but never was it as dangerous and horrible and able to do so much damage in the body as the newer strains of today.

I tested positive for it last year but tests said it was in active so they did nothing and I just forgot about it, but my doctor thinks it can still cause other problems just by existing in the body so I have another enemy to fight if it is.

I will not be doing any group rituals for a while until I am well and fit again. I need to get myself healthy again and sane I don't want to deplete myself any further and I don't feel I have enough to put out. I will keep doing what I can in other ways to fight, like notes in books, flyers what I can do that way and wear my ring with pride and keep working on myself. I have a ritual I wanted to create for animals I would still like to create the ritual but I am sad I may not be able to put much energy into it I still want to do something. But when I am well... I have a list a very long list and I AM getting well I feel much better today

I have had a grey fog in my aura for some time, I didn't know what it was or why I couldn't shift it, just areas no matter what I tried would not light up around me, especially behind me to the right side of me. I would try and try to see white light there and it just wouldn't do it I could see it everywhere else. Perhaps this is why.

I started the SA TA NA MA mantra this morning I will keep it up, i went back through JOS newsletters to older ones I hadn't read and found more mantras.

I might be down but I will never quit I swear if and when I do die if I do not complete the magnum opus in this life I want to get as far as I can and as strong as I can so if I find myself a spirit in the astral if I can find anyway there to hunt down the enemy still and do any damage I bloody will!!!! Something happens to a person who has had the shit kicked out of them too many times and been held down too long... a similar effect to a coiled spring, or a boiling kettle with the lid on, or a caged tiger thats been neglected and poked with sticks.
I am the tiger in that cage and when I get out the fuckers had better run. Whoever has been fucking with my head this week had better run as I have no intention of remaining ill and I am still dangerous. I will be even more dangerous for what they have been doing to me keep poking me and see what fucking happens. If I succeed in one thing in all my lifetimes I want to be their worst fucking nightmare if that is all I can ever do, I want to destroy every last peice of them astral, physical all of it.

See everyday I get a little bit stronger inside and the more they do to me the angrier and more dangerous I get I am a ticking time bomb for these bastards. Maybe their biggest mistake with me has been hurting who I love, that is a death sentence, hurt my loved ones not a good idea.

I hope they are reading this, not taking me seriously is a big mistake every day these scumbags are getting weaker and ... after all I have seen and suffered my fear is gone now. They don't scare me anymore. I have cried all the tears I can ever cry and been as low inside as a person can get. I have an open offer to show up to my face and take me one on one anytime, anywhere and face me, look me in the eye and fight me and they are yet to accept my invitation. No its always the cowards way... in the dark, while I am sleeping, sick or after horrible mental, emotional and spiritual attacks. FUCKING PUSSIES have no balls, no honour and no pride. They tried to paralyse me in my bed once and it didn't work I broke it MYSELF and what? they RAN AWAY oh of course they did once I could sit up and defend myself... they fuck right off out of here. Won't even show their faces or give their names. A nameless faceless 'enemy' that sneaks around in the dark like a rat in the sewer.

SEWER rats and pond scum have more honour and worth than you fuckers will ever know.

And if they have done anything to harm a single soul I have loved and lost to the other world from my nanna to my dogs they had better hope Satan and all the Gods of hell get them first because they do not want to run into me.
Oh fuck I am pissed off, I am sweating right now and ready to fight something, sick or not I am over my past few days torment and I am so angry.

For the enemy cunts who have been mocking me and telling me I am shit and Satan hates me... I have a picture! You will love it I will upload it later before I frame it to put above my altar my fellow Satanists I also feel will really love to see it as it is yet more physical proof of Satan and his presnece he amazes me everyday. But this is a real kicker, I don't know how he did this but it read...

666
666
666

you can kick me down a thousand times a thousand lifetimes and if the only body part I can raise from the dirt is a single finger you can guess which one it will be

I feel better now Stay strong everybody!

HAIL SATAN!!!!!
HAIL THE GODS OF HELL!!!!!
HAIL HITLER AND THE GERMANS WHO GAVE PROTECTION TO ANIMALS!!!!!