Don't...fucking...rely...on...other...people. Rely on yourself. You empower yourself, you enhance yourself, and you are supposed to learn the texts yourself, lest a prick, shill, or Yehubor destroys or corrupts them. Make your own works and tools to use. Does someone else do the Void and other meditations for you? Does someone else pass your exams for you, go to work for you, breathe for you...?! Do it yourself - that's why it's called DiY! Just like the advert for Wickes says, "it's got our name on it", sign your own life work, and just like the advert for B'n'Q says, "You can do it when you B'n'Q it", B yourself 'n' Q-uit relying on others. (These are both DiY hardware shops, by the way - DiY; do it yourself! Get a sense of pride, achievement, accomplishment, do your own thing and things..., and let those who are worthless or worse rot away.)