I had been away from my path for months. I had forgot Father Satan,i was distracted by xian girl. O.o I had fallen in love with her. I'm very regret now. I was very happy. Now i cannot forget her :( I want to come back. I feel Ashame infront of Father Satan:( because i had promised him(before my dedication) that i will all be yours after if he help me to compelete something that i needed to complete and he fullfilled my wish in the next early morning that i had asked for in night. I wasn' t dedicated at that time. Even though He fullfilled my wish because i had trust in him. Those days i was very drawn to him. I dont know if father left me or no. I'm not sure if he would accept me or not Because he is not listening me:( I want Father Satan but i cannot forget that girl i don't know what to do now .
I'm very down. I want my those days back and i really want very much to forget her like i never knew her. I need to talk somebody too.

