This is serious if i can clarify my mind maybe i would do everything

[andrewmonm45]

I have to talk about something seriousI had perhaps a year when I received the Catholic baptism, I do not know how bad it was for my soul and bodyNowadays I still have the insecurity to do my dedication to Enki SatanFor the reasons I present below,I am still influenced by what people around me think and what they say ingeneralI have fears as if there was some problem with the fact that the people around me are Catholic, and everything is full of Crosses of Nazarenes, does that bother our god?I do not want to change them, nor favor any negative situation like maybe intend to all to be as I am and leave the Catholic lie, for exampleI'm afraid to talk to a guardian demon because I've never done anything like this before in my life, I was scared and distant from the whole spiritual world over the years I do not know what could happenI'm still not convinced of what our gods really are, because I've never taken the first step, I feel insecure, I think of the people around me of not having issues with them and above all I do not know if I can handle the situation myselfIf I had someone instructing me, perhaps I would open my doubts and I would have done it beforeThe society paints our gods bad and I have not had the mentality enough to handle these things, they are still new for me, on the other hand I am totally alone and surrounded by people who believe in a Nazarene that probably did not even exists
Thanks and hope for everything that serves me on this i always needed someone that helps me grow upBecause of the characteristics i present, believe it or not, name it or not, its not easy have ADHD and Bipolar disorder,  Because I have lost a lot of time, energy and opportunities in life that do not ever return, that is why I need to change, my attitude is not enough, I need real change, to evolve and destroy Limitations, The Thing i most hate are limits imposed to our race 
Hail Satan

 

[Taol]

First of all: Stop telling yourself all that negative crap.

You seem afraid of the unknown. So what? Youre making an elephant out of everything and your mind is making overhours.

Stary practixcing void meditation. Every time youre scared - void. Every time youre overthinking - void.

This is one you can do WITHOUT being dedicated.

And STOP WORRYING. if you keep affirming these things so often youll only be creating these problems. Energu gets put towards making it happen and eventually enough has collected and it happens.

That has nothing to do with the enemy but with you.

A new person wont be able to get replies and such straight away. These centers need to be opened and adjusted over time. You didnt grow up to an adult in a day neither do your astral senses. They need time to adjust and work. They are not like the machines and special effects you see in movies. That stuff would KILL you if it not just does serious mental harm and make you unable to do anything for a while due to the trauma of the change.

So what is the actual problem here? If I remember it was you to whom it was said you repeated your question to us.

If you want to be here the choice is yours. If not, fine thats up to you.