this is retarded i can't even play a game without my energy being hi

[deathkillxx]

does anybody know what could cause the nerves to limit and drop in functionality in according to spirutal energy levels

i can not even play my favorite game which im normally good at without dieing twice in 2 min

i can't even get my hands to press the button so my guy will jump over the spikes when i want him to

my body feels like it has spots all over the nerves where stuff is stuck to them

its not a dirty aura

it something that has been put in my body so that if i do not power certain thing with spiritual power only then these parts of me will shut down

sort of like tons of energy locks covering my nerves my brain pathways my chakras
everything

i also often myself unable to think or even get my body to do stuff like some part of me that should be there is not even there

earlier last night my astral form was behaving like it has had its lungs ripped out it was behaving like it was sufficating or having trouble breathing

and it felt like a huge chunk of me has been torn out
what gives

i have all these materail problems that are coming from just a busted part of my energy

also part of me has been rigged so it can not do anything without the help of a certain energy type some demons did come by and provide such special energy and all of a sudden i was functioning perfectly

but after a few short min something in me drained all the energy they gave me but for that period of time i was feeling great and working fine

but these demons or whatever they are

soon after i went to sleep i had a good dream like i was sent to train somewhere (very helpful) then after it dreams of being tied of and held down and sealed so i can 't wake up

it was not sleep paralysis cause i was able to fight back in my sleep to an extent they kept giving me this stuff that was like a poison and sedative so i would have trouble fighting back it figures

the min i side with enki everybody starts trying to beat the tar out of me it always fucking happens i side with xian demons beat on me

i side with enki angels and demons beat on me

is there any side i can join without everyone trying to kill me

at this rate i will only learn one thing and that enki and god are both evil and thats not true but thats the message these spirits are teaching me
and i know enki is not a bad guy i met him hes a nice guy

but i also know some of the beings who work for him are do not seem to be fully trained in the art of kindness and understanding

(after all alot of demons are built to fight to guard others right)

 

[meleddie666]

could there be people praying over you?

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "deathkillxx" <deathkillxx@... wrote:

does anybody know what could cause the nerves to limit and drop in functionality in according to spirutal energy levels

i can not even play my favorite game which im normally good at without dieing twice in 2 min

i can't even get my hands to press the button so my guy will jump over the spikes when i want him to

my body feels like it has spots all over the nerves where stuff is stuck to them

its not a dirty aura

it something that has been put in my body so that if i do not power certain thing with spiritual power only then these parts of me will shut down

sort of like tons of energy locks covering my nerves my brain pathways my chakras
everything

i also often myself unable to think or even get my body to do stuff like some part of me that should be there is not even there

earlier last night my astral form was behaving like it has had its lungs ripped out it was behaving like it was sufficating or having trouble breathing

and it felt like a huge chunk of me has been torn out
what gives

i have all these materail problems that are coming from just a busted part of my energy

also part of me has been rigged so it can not do anything without the help of a certain energy type some demons did come by and provide such special energy and all of a sudden i was functioning perfectly

but after a few short min something in me drained all the energy they gave me but for that period of time i was feeling great and working fine

but these demons or whatever they are

soon after i went to sleep i had a good dream like i was sent to train somewhere (very helpful) then after it dreams of being tied of and held down and sealed so i can 't wake up

it was not sleep paralysis cause i was able to fight back in my sleep to an extent they kept giving me this stuff that was like a poison and sedative so i would have trouble fighting back it figures

the min i side with enki everybody starts trying to beat the tar out of me it always fucking happens i side with xian demons beat on me

i side with enki angels and demons beat on me

is there any side i can join without everyone trying to kill me

at this rate i will only learn one thing and that enki and god are both evil and thats not true but thats the message these spirits are teaching me
and i know enki is not a bad guy i met him hes a nice guy

but i also know some of the beings who work for him are do not seem to be fully trained in the art of kindness and understanding

(after all alot of demons are built to fight to guard others right)

 

[ancientsoulm8]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "deathkillxx" <deathkillxx@... wrote:

does anybody know what could cause the nerves to limit and drop in functionality in according to spirutal energy levels

i can not even play my favorite game which im normally good at without dieing twice in 2 min

i can't even get my hands to press the button so my guy will jump over the spikes when i want him to

my body feels like it has spots all over the nerves where stuff is stuck to them

its not a dirty aura

it something that has been put in my body so that if i do not power certain thing with spiritual power only then these parts of me will shut down

sort of like tons of energy locks covering my nerves my brain pathways my chakras
everything

i also often myself unable to think or even get my body to do stuff like some part of me that should be there is not even there

earlier last night my astral form was behaving like it has had its lungs ripped out it was behaving like it was sufficating or having trouble breathing

and it felt like a huge chunk of me has been torn out
what gives

i have all these materail problems that are coming from just a busted part of my energy

also part of me has been rigged so it can not do anything without the help of a certain energy type some demons did come by and provide such special energy and all of a sudden i was functioning perfectly

but after a few short min something in me drained all the energy they gave me but for that period of time i was feeling great and working fine

but these demons or whatever they are

soon after i went to sleep i had a good dream like i was sent to train somewhere (very helpful) then after it dreams of being tied of and held down and sealed so i can 't wake up

it was not sleep paralysis cause i was able to fight back in my sleep to an extent they kept giving me this stuff that was like a poison and sedative so i would have trouble fighting back it figures

the min i side with enki everybody starts trying to beat the tar out of me it always fucking happens i side with xian demons beat on me

i side with enki angels and demons beat on me

is there any side i can join without everyone trying to kill me

at this rate i will only learn one thing and that enki and god are both evil and thats not true but thats the message these spirits are teaching me
and i know enki is not a bad guy i met him hes a nice guy

but i also know some of the beings who work for him are do not seem to be fully trained in the art of kindness and understanding

(after all alot of demons are built to fight to guard others right)

There are always going to be ups and downs as we travel down the left path that is just a no brainer....but we always come out of it stronger and much much wiser in the end....so don't lose hope!


Unfortunately its not always going to be a cakewalk when u are a spiritual satanist but I always stick w Enki cause he always helps me
with any problem that I do face...the Xian God would just let me drown in misery......Hail Satan!!!!!!!!!

 

[Cat Fish]

  Have you been rushing too much? You could be overstraining yourself.  Take time to relax and let your energy flow through you. Try to slowly unlock the knots in your system. move your body parts with the blocks carefully and think of release. If you focused too much on certain parts of your body you can cause problems on yourself. Have you noticed anything else odd? Any highly severe headaches?   Mostly I don't think it is anything to serious. But if you had not had the time to relax and feel how your energy naturally flows through your body you may be over the limit.   Try using magic. Try to feel what happens around/in your body when you do. If something feels wrong then that may help you find the problem and you can try to fix it.    Idk what the rest mean. Often the human mind blocks what it cannot handle. If the body is not used to a certain amount then it will try to stop it.   Hope this makes sense and is of some help. Hail Satan!  - whisper and breathe...  
From: ancientsoulm8 <mysweettot@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Wednesday, September 16, 2009 12:36:18 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: this is retarded i can't even play a game without my energy being high

 

--- In JoyofSatan666@ yahoogroups. com, "deathkillxx" <deathkillxx@ ... wrote:

does anybody know what could cause the nerves to limit and drop in functionality in according to spirutal energy levels

i can not even play my favorite game which im normally good at without dieing twice in 2 min

i can't even get my hands to press the button so my guy will jump over the spikes when i want him to

my body feels like it has spots all over the nerves where stuff is stuck to them

its not a dirty aura

it something that has been put in my body so that if i do not power certain thing with spiritual power only then these parts of me will shut down

sort of like tons of energy locks covering my nerves my brain pathways my chakras
everything

i also often myself unable to think or even get my body to do stuff like some part of me that should be there is not even there

earlier last night my astral form was behaving like it has had its lungs ripped out it was behaving like it was sufficating or having trouble breathing

and it felt like a huge chunk of me has been torn out
what gives

i have all these materail problems that are coming from just a busted part of my energy

also part of me has been rigged so it can not do anything without the help of a certain energy type some demons did come by and provide such special energy and all of a sudden i was functioning perfectly

but after a few short min something in me drained all the energy they gave me but for that period of time i was feeling great and working fine

but these demons or whatever they are

soon after i went to sleep i had a good dream like i was sent to train somewhere (very helpful) then after it dreams of being tied of and held down and sealed so i can 't wake up

it was not sleep paralysis cause i was able to fight back in my sleep to an extent they kept giving me this stuff that was like a poison and sedative so i would have trouble fighting back it figures

the min i side with enki everybody starts trying to beat the tar out of me it always fucking happens i side with xian demons beat on me

i side with enki angels and demons beat on me

is there any side i can join without everyone trying to kill me

at this rate i will only learn one thing and that enki and god are both evil and thats not true but thats the message these spirits are teaching me
and i know enki is not a bad guy i met him hes a nice guy

but i also know some of the beings who work for him are do not seem to be fully trained in the art of kindness and understanding

(after all alot of demons are built to fight to guard others right)


There are always going to be ups and downs as we travel down the left path that is just a no brainer....but we always come out of it stronger and much much wiser in the end....so don't lose hope!

Unfortunately its not always going to be a cakewalk when u are a spiritual satanist but I always stick w Enki cause he always helps me
with any problem that I do face...the Xian God would just let me drown in misery...... Hail Satan!!!!!!! !!

 

[early.mary]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "deathkillxx" <deathkillxx@... wrote:

does anybody know what could cause the nerves to limit and drop in functionality in according to spirutal energy levels

i can not even play my favorite game which im normally good at without dieing twice in 2 min

i can't even get my hands to press the button so my guy will jump over the spikes when i want him to

my body feels like it has spots all over the nerves where stuff is stuck to them

its not a dirty aura

it something that has been put in my body so that if i do not power certain thing with spiritual power only then these parts of me will shut down

sort of like tons of energy locks covering my nerves my brain pathways my chakras
everything

i also often myself unable to think or even get my body to do stuff like some part of me that should be there is not even there

earlier last night my astral form was behaving like it has had its lungs ripped out it was behaving like it was sufficating or having trouble breathing

and it felt like a huge chunk of me has been torn out
what gives

i have all these materail problems that are coming from just a busted part of my energy

also part of me has been rigged so it can not do anything without the help of a certain energy type some demons did come by and provide such special energy and all of a sudden i was functioning perfectly

but after a few short min something in me drained all the energy they gave me but for that period of time i was feeling great and working fine

but these demons or whatever they are

soon after i went to sleep i had a good dream like i was sent to train somewhere (very helpful) then after it dreams of being tied of and held down and sealed so i can 't wake up

it was not sleep paralysis cause i was able to fight back in my sleep to an extent they kept giving me this stuff that was like a poison and sedative so i would have trouble fighting back it figures

the min i side with enki everybody starts trying to beat the tar out of me it always fucking happens i side with xian demons beat on me

i side with enki angels and demons beat on me

is there any side i can join without everyone trying to kill me

at this rate i will only learn one thing and that enki and god are both evil and thats not true but thats the message these spirits are teaching me
and i know enki is not a bad guy i met him hes a nice guy

but i also know some of the beings who work for him are do not seem to be fully trained in the art of kindness and understanding

(after all alot of demons are built to fight to guard others right)

First off EA's demons are trying to help you-according to your post. Now according to your post it sounds like you have a psychic vampire near you-family, friends, ect check the jos site for a check list. your dream indicates that angels are trying to get you to go back to "God" though this is a good thing cause it means that you are a threat to them-keep up the good work. As for the locks on your body this means that its time to do some serious meditations. you can meditate on each of the locks and See them opening just like your chakras-which it is since there are a hell of a lot of chakras on our bodys. Hit these locks with orgasmic energy which should help keep them unlocked perminetly. Keep asking Demons for help just make sure that they come to you from Father cause there are imposters-gone thru that ,not good. Best of luck to you and you will become stronger due to this.

Hail Father Satan

 

[Jonathan Lee]

New Email names for you!
Get the Email name you've always wanted on the new @ymail and @rocketmail.
Hurry before someone else does!

 

[ollie]

You should try and clean your aura once a day like on the JoS site and cast banishing spells on the room where you sleep this should keep out any negative energies or if you think it is a physical person then you could try to create a thought form who could guard the entrance to the room and cause people who enter it to be instilled with fear and leave or something to stop people coming in while you sleep.

Hope these help if you need any more help i will be glad to advice feel free to contact me.

"To the brave belong everything!!"
HAIL SATAN!!

 

[Way_Seeker6661]

Hey..

I didn't read the other replies, but I think you may be the victim of psychic vampirism. The fact that you're sometimes unable to think and just don't feel like yourself, and that you can temporarily overcome these problems with a boost of energy only to have something drain it out of you, sounds to me like vampirism. I have a similair problem, though not as severe. This can be done intentionally or can happen "accidently" by xtians praying for you etc. In my case, an energy structure was put into my spine, to drain my energies, dull my mind, make me doubt myself etc. Be strong, focus the mind, ask Father for help. It may be someone you live with, as with me. In this case you need as much time as possible away from that person. Also, if you can identify the attacker, there will be a weakness of some sort on your part that allowed them to take hold. This is a personal issue and YOU must work through it in the end.
Good luck, I hope you come right..

 

[hells_dragon_warrior]

Don't let it beat you, do what you have to do to get it done! Eliminate all possibilities! If you think it might be a psychic vampire then there are meditations to eliminate them from draining your energy, if you think it could be an enemy grey then do what you need to do to kill it. If you are getting attacked like this then the enemy knows you are of great importance to the true creator of humanity, do not let the enemy strip you of your pride, and do not give up. Beat it. There is no doubt and no fear when one is full of knowledge, Know were this is all coming from, and then eliminate it. Do a ritual asking the assistance of a Demon who destroys enemy spirits, or ask that your GD assist you in beating this. Enki is not evil, nobody would even be hear if it wasn't for Enki saving us from elimination by the enemy gods! I don't know if this will help you at all, but anyone can do amazing things, and some people have harder obstacles in life, but only the Satanists have the gift given to us by ENki, use it, use all you have learn't and overcome this! If you do this and still no luck which I'm sure won't happen because I believe you will overcome it, message me personally and I will help you!

*DO WHAT MUST BE DONE* HS/88
*HAIL SATAN & THE GODS OF HELL*

*HELLS WARRIOR*

 

[lightofthedawn69]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hells_dragon_warrior" <hellz_army75@... wrote:

Don't let it beat you, do what you have to do to get it done! Eliminate all possibilities! If you think it might be a psychic vampire then there are meditations to eliminate them from draining your energy, if you think it could be an enemy grey then do what you need to do to kill it. If you are getting attacked like this then the enemy knows you are of great importance to the true creator of humanity, do not let the enemy strip you of your pride, and do not give up. Beat it. There is no doubt and no fear when one is full of knowledge, Know were this is all coming from, and then eliminate it. Do a ritual asking the assistance of a Demon who destroys enemy spirits, or ask that your GD assist you in beating this. Enki is not evil, nobody would even be hear if it wasn't for Enki saving us from elimination by the enemy gods! I don't know if this will help you at all, but anyone can do amazing things, and some people have harder obstacles in life, but only the Satanists have the gift given to us by ENki, use it, use all you have learn't and overcome this! If you do this and still no luck which I'm sure won't happen because I believe you will overcome it, message me personally and I will help you!

*DO WHAT MUST BE DONE* HS/88
*HAIL SATAN & THE GODS OF HELL*

*HELLS WARRIOR*

i also have a new problem now my parents are the only ones who make money in this family (actually my dad) he is an ass and will pay money for stuff he wants and needs but will refuse to pay money for what i need and want
and because his actions i lost services on my end
he bought a new box for the tv to watch the channel he comes on (he is a hunter he got his own air time on some hunting show )
well he paid money for a channel we do not usually get
now because of this a channel we already had to begin with was switched over to digital because his box ties into the digital network that we do not normally use
this is the thing
my dad can now tell me i cant watch my shows when he can watch his
im fuckin 23
he should have no right
i already have enough card to play that can shut the entire family down but right now until i get my drivers liscnee doing something like reporting my dad for what he has done (insurance fraud financial nutritional and psychiatric negligence he does alot of crime related stuff he is not even aware of)

now my dad pretty much holds the power to tell me what to do deny me of anything i could get tell my mom to not pay for certain things and he can get and obtain whatever he fuckin wants because he wants it not because he needs it

im getting to the point where i am wanting to kill him and the entire family i get so angry i come pretty damn close to trying to find a gun to shot him me the dog and my mom so we all die together and suffer the same fate (yes i become nearly downright evil when im mad i toss aside logic and become willing to destroy or defy anything and anyone regardless of rules )

anyway i have even more problem now on top of the energy inbalance thing and spirits having a hard time talking to me i got my dad to deal with threats of eviction which cause me to give threats of death in return (trust me im the type of person who is normally nice but becomes a total evil bastard when upset id shot a cop and kill a mother to be if they did me wrong hence this trait is why i often hate myself)

anyway a dad who has cost me the only channel on tv i have that gives my crappy life a little meaning
he can tell me what i can and can not buy simply bvecause he owns thge house and eveyrthing in it and since i cant go nowhere without a car i cant do shit i cant get a car without a drivers liscence cant get the liscen without a job cant get a job without a way to go to the worksite on time without this i have no money to become independnt and my parents are not doing enough they do plenty for their desires my mom goes to church spends lots of money on it thinks shes doing the right thing my dad takes trips out of the state spends lot on gas and guns and bullets hunting drinking beer
what do i get

a house arrest situation with my family refusing me all kinds of stuff and me a prisoner in my own home having no way to do anything about it without their help

my parents always use the card that is this in a nutshell (you are grown man now you can do things on your own we do not have to pay anything for you we are not responsible for you blah blah blah (yes everyone im ranting just let me get it over with then ill calm down and be wiling to be nice again im just venting )

my parents are right
i am grown man but only physical wise my skills are still that of a young child and my mind is still at the age of a young teenager all my material traits mental and physical are still years back lagging behind the age of my body my spiritual skills however are another story those themselves i have not been able to fully unlock yet but i know they strong the past showing of how much trouble both demons and angels have had with me without me even doing anything proves i have something going for me

and anyway long story short my dad got his way and because he called comcast asked to be given access to a digital channel we do not normally get
the cable componay decided to switch all the major popular channels that are being pahsed over to digital into the digital netwokr
this means
my dad got his channel while it cost me mine when i did not have to pay anything to begin with to watch it now they took it anyway

stuff being taken because of my dad,my rights being denied, spiritual energy problems, being stuck in this stupid house all day because of heat and no where to go but walk around the neighborhood , lack of transportation, no way to get a job and live up to it , no say in what i can buy, what i can obtain to eat, no say in what i can drink,

thats pretty much my life right now and its making me angry enough to want to call the cops report my family for fraud malnutriin past abuse and all this other stuff nad pretty much ruin the entire family then commit suicide

right now that fate is looking pretty good to me then after i die ill prob do something to try to screw with the old angel that dropped me in this world that my plan for life and life after death unless i can change the way my life is now
my parents always seem to tell you
we will buy you what you need
then they always turn right around and say
no i don't think you need that
when i complain they say

get a job earn money on your own (im like how i don't have a car and no nearby place to earn money that does not get me coming in sweating and stinking on the job site)
they also use the
you do not always get what you want in life be happy you got this far
(im like this far is not enough i have to keep going in order to survive)
lol my parents think once they die they go to heaven for a long peaceful rest and do not ever have to come bak to this world again
they such fools and think god is well you get the picture you could shove a article full of occult knowledge in their face and they would say
thats bullshit

non of that is real the only force that is real is god and no one else can do anything but him (i swear i would love to learn how to possess my parents and beat the shit out of the angels that prob keep an eye on them)

they wont listen
anyway this rant not gonna yield any useful or informative stuff at this point so im just gonna send it

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jos moderator feel free to delete this post its not one of my best i just in a bad mood thats all


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when you have ignorance as the force in your way blocking your every path in life how do you break thru the front line?

hail enki

 

[seekingtofindtruth]

I am truly sorry to hear about the situation you are in. Parents (unfortunately) can sometimes be the largest source of our misery. Most important, please remember, YOUR LIFE DOES MATTER TO SATAN (not yelling at you, just stressing a point). Don't ever forget that, nor ever give up on that fact.

While I do not know how things are set up where you live, do you have any access to friends that might be willing to give you a lift to and from a job? Are you in a setting where you could walk to one? Even if it is McD's at least that would be some form of an income. In addition, have you thought about doing a possible banishing and then a protection meditation to help keep out the xtian influences? Even try a meditation to possibly "bind" your parents from interfering with you may help. There is also the money meditation on the JoS site that might help you as well.

If you don't mind me suggesting, concerning your anger, you might want to think about a different means of releasing it. Such as music, poetry, writing, painting, etc., but doing it in honor of Satan and the Demons. Some beautiful and inspiring things have come from people's anger. Perhaps that might be a way that you can vent while still working to achieve your freedom. It may even pay off in the long run by getting your work published or displayed.

There is a lot of good that can come from your emotions. Once you get free from them (your family), you can enjoy the notion walking out the door that you never have to look back if you don't want to. That in itself is liberating.

Anyway, I hope I have helped you a little. I just couldn't read your post and not respond.

Hail Satan always!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "lightofthedawn69" <lightofthedawn69@... wrote:

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hells_dragon_warrior" <hellz_army75@ wrote:

Don't let it beat you, do what you have to do to get it done! Eliminate all possibilities! If you think it might be a psychic vampire then there are meditations to eliminate them from draining your energy, if you think it could be an enemy grey then do what you need to do to kill it. If you are getting attacked like this then the enemy knows you are of great importance to the true creator of humanity, do not let the enemy strip you of your pride, and do not give up. Beat it. There is no doubt and no fear when one is full of knowledge, Know were this is all coming from, and then eliminate it. Do a ritual asking the assistance of a Demon who destroys enemy spirits, or ask that your GD assist you in beating this. Enki is not evil, nobody would even be hear if it wasn't for Enki saving us from elimination by the enemy gods! I don't know if this will help you at all, but anyone can do amazing things, and some people have harder obstacles in life, but only the Satanists have the gift given to us by ENki, use it, use all you have learn't and overcome this! If you do this and still no luck which I'm sure won't happen because I believe you will overcome it, message me personally and I will help you!

*DO WHAT MUST BE DONE* HS/88
*HAIL SATAN & THE GODS OF HELL*

*HELLS WARRIOR*

i also have a new problem now my parents are the only ones who make money in this family (actually my dad) he is an ass and will pay money for stuff he wants and needs but will refuse to pay money for what i need and want
and because his actions i lost services on my end
he bought a new box for the tv to watch the channel he comes on (he is a hunter he got his own air time on some hunting show )
well he paid money for a channel we do not usually get
now because of this a channel we already had to begin with was switched over to digital because his box ties into the digital network that we do not normally use
this is the thing
my dad can now tell me i cant watch my shows when he can watch his
im fuckin 23
he should have no right
i already have enough card to play that can shut the entire family down but right now until i get my drivers liscnee doing something like reporting my dad for what he has done (insurance fraud financial nutritional and psychiatric negligence he does alot of crime related stuff he is not even aware of)

now my dad pretty much holds the power to tell me what to do deny me of anything i could get tell my mom to not pay for certain things and he can get and obtain whatever he fuckin wants because he wants it not because he needs it

im getting to the point where i am wanting to kill him and the entire family i get so angry i come pretty damn close to trying to find a gun to shot him me the dog and my mom so we all die together and suffer the same fate (yes i become nearly downright evil when im mad i toss aside logic and become willing to destroy or defy anything and anyone regardless of rules )

anyway i have even more problem now on top of the energy inbalance thing and spirits having a hard time talking to me i got my dad to deal with threats of eviction which cause me to give threats of death in return (trust me im the type of person who is normally nice but becomes a total evil bastard when upset id shot a cop and kill a mother to be if they did me wrong hence this trait is why i often hate myself)

anyway a dad who has cost me the only channel on tv i have that gives my crappy life a little meaning
he can tell me what i can and can not buy simply bvecause he owns thge house and eveyrthing in it and since i cant go nowhere without a car i cant do shit i cant get a car without a drivers liscence cant get the liscen without a job cant get a job without a way to go to the worksite on time without this i have no money to become independnt and my parents are not doing enough they do plenty for their desires my mom goes to church spends lots of money on it thinks shes doing the right thing my dad takes trips out of the state spends lot on gas and guns and bullets hunting drinking beer
what do i get

a house arrest situation with my family refusing me all kinds of stuff and me a prisoner in my own home having no way to do anything about it without their help

my parents always use the card that is this in a nutshell (you are grown man now you can do things on your own we do not have to pay anything for you we are not responsible for you blah blah blah (yes everyone im ranting just let me get it over with then ill calm down and be wiling to be nice again im just venting )

my parents are right
i am grown man but only physical wise my skills are still that of a young child and my mind is still at the age of a young teenager all my material traits mental and physical are still years back lagging behind the age of my body my spiritual skills however are another story those themselves i have not been able to fully unlock yet but i know they strong the past showing of how much trouble both demons and angels have had with me without me even doing anything proves i have something going for me

and anyway long story short my dad got his way and because he called comcast asked to be given access to a digital channel we do not normally get
the cable componay decided to switch all the major popular channels that are being pahsed over to digital into the digital netwokr
this means
my dad got his channel while it cost me mine when i did not have to pay anything to begin with to watch it now they took it anyway

stuff being taken because of my dad,my rights being denied, spiritual energy problems, being stuck in this stupid house all day because of heat and no where to go but walk around the neighborhood , lack of transportation, no way to get a job and live up to it , no say in what i can buy, what i can obtain to eat, no say in what i can drink,

thats pretty much my life right now and its making me angry enough to want to call the cops report my family for fraud malnutriin past abuse and all this other stuff nad pretty much ruin the entire family then commit suicide

right now that fate is looking pretty good to me then after i die ill prob do something to try to screw with the old angel that dropped me in this world that my plan for life and life after death unless i can change the way my life is now
my parents always seem to tell you
we will buy you what you need
then they always turn right around and say
no i don't think you need that
when i complain they say

get a job earn money on your own (im like how i don't have a car and no nearby place to earn money that does not get me coming in sweating and stinking on the job site)
they also use the
you do not always get what you want in life be happy you got this far
(im like this far is not enough i have to keep going in order to survive)
lol my parents think once they die they go to heaven for a long peaceful rest and do not ever have to come bak to this world again
they such fools and think god is well you get the picture you could shove a article full of occult knowledge in their face and they would say
thats bullshit

non of that is real the only force that is real is god and no one else can do anything but him (i swear i would love to learn how to possess my parents and beat the shit out of the angels that prob keep an eye on them)

they wont listen
anyway this rant not gonna yield any useful or informative stuff at this point so im just gonna send it

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jos moderator feel free to delete this post its not one of my best i just in a bad mood thats all


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when you have ignorance as the force in your way blocking your every path in life how do you break thru the front line?

hail enki