Note: i am open for correction and guidance, i may be inaccurate.
The relation with Gods, is not personal,
It is interpersonal.
I personally used to think if one does X Y Z he will automatically advanced in life, in the sense that these are [ Automatic Laws ],
This is true, in the sense everyone will start refining his input in the universe, will notice that he gets an output,
I also used to think Gods are not very invested in the world, like if seing things from above, and just managing and leading the macrocosm,
However, i know now for sure, that Gods somehow, like if have a Plan that they actively are executing,
And they can Micromanage, both in the sense of helping someone personally in potent way, and also in the sense of blessing him for something perceived as small,
Also, it seems the notion of [ Advancement ] the Gods are within it,
In the sense that, if the Gods theoretically withdraw themselves from someones life, he will become blind, easily misled, or ending up with much speculations and confusions,
The Gods in advancement feel to me like the eyes we see with, it makes the path clear, and also they get [ your back ],
That being said, i am more and more convinced of the importance that one should be in very good terms with Gods, otherwise, not much will be possible,
I also noticed, the fact that Gods, are not concerned ONLY with the relation between them and the initiate,
But it is like everything is interconnected, if one is in perfect terms with Gods but shit on other people, this will not be good,
They somehow, do not take only their personal relation with initiate, but that and on top of it the relation of the initiate to existence,
Contemplating that, i came to understand, the notion of Gods vessel, and also, the Path of Godhead itself,
The Gods seem to like the one that mirrors them the most,
In the sense, of the level when one, starts doing what can serve as an [ offering to Gods in an agreement ], on his own, by his choice, and without waiting for Gods payment,
I am still saying agreements are good, but the more the above manifest unconsciously the more it signals how ones will is becoming by nature aligned with the will of the Divine,
This hint clearly at how the Gods wants allies, and independent vessels, who do not need constant nudges for every single Godly action, but can start doing more and more on their own,
The High Priest in ToZ say the Gods want us to develop, and the more we advance, the more we are expected to start taking care of ourself, instead of relying on Gods on every single trivial matter,
I got realization that this applies also to good deeds, one is expected to do them more and more, without having to get indirect or direct influence from the Gods,
I also, noticed that Gods do have [ favorites ], and this making me be more and more vigilant in the world, in refining my actions,
One can look the most average joe in the world, to the point an initiate may step on him, and that average joe may be extreme dear to the Gods,
I never read Aristotle the Odyssey etc.. i am just considering checking them, since i am surprised to find those concept many are mirrored there, like the Gods walking among people to test them and those kind of things,
I found a Myth [ this Myth word make me feel repulsed, since ´Mythology’ word has been weaponized against the Gods, framing them as Mythological figures only. ] in my culture supporting that, that people even say as being real not myths, of the Gods walking among man, and some end up acting nobly with someone they think is an animal for exampel, and it turns out it was a God manifesting in that form,
Also, in my culture, especially in villages where the native culture is more alive, guests are said to be sent by God, and they are treated in very good way,
That being said, i personally believe the relation with Gods is not personal in the literal sense,
The true deep relation with Gods is interpersonal,
Involving how one deals with the Gods, and the ones around him, which may include, ones that are dear to Gods,
I experienced those moments when i helped someone, and he on his own tell me how he just prayed before to God, which feels being the instrument, and which makes me feel how interpersonal the relation is, honoring the Gods through honorable actions toward others not just toward the Gods. I did get a Theophany instantly after such acts before. Which made me surprised, did the Gods really see this and gave me a Theophany instantly after it? I thought they ´do not see ´ such acts, and an ´instant theophany’,
i will add another experience i just recalled, that proves that Gods do see and respond,
I once, during night, felt deep urge of having a physical experience with the Gods with my eyes open, strong need, to the point i had tears in my eyes and i believe i even cried, i do not recall,
Next day, while making breakfast, they manifested in my peripheral vision, it was shocking, i speculate maybe they did something to me to make me able to witness that, since i felt my solar plexus, but not sure, maybe the opposite, my solar plexus reacted to them,
However, this event, and the event above when i experienced a Theophany directly after doing a noble act, made me know how the Gods actually are [ close to us ], and not distant.
And how the relation with Gods, is interpersonal, not personal.
I will add another experience that proves the Gods [ hear and see ],
Before updates, there was some obsession going on , for some members, thinking Gods are tied to a race, or a race is favored more than a race,
This many time made me feel repulsed, not out of inferiority complex but nobility, some presented Gods like if they are exclusive to a race and then they extend to some other low tier races, like if giving some spiritual charity to some beggars,
This many times, made me ultra revolted, and made me almost quit, since i thought will never be with Gods of another culture, even if they are the most powerful, i would rather be with the less powerful ones, in my own culture, that is how i thought, at that time i started praising Pazuzu mentally, since he is a lesser demon and some they overlook lesser Demons, so i started doing reverse of what people do, and Hoping Pazuzu is My Guardian Demon back then, thinking whoever will be with me i will do something big with him, out of revolted feelings
So i many times was on verge of quitting because of this,
I reported to the Gods, several times, and in less than a year Updates started running in ToZ, this was insane coincidence,
I was many times in their presence in deep sadness, seing how holy they are, but in same time knowing that i will end up quitting, because i cannot tolerate being some low tier Zevist [ BY DEFINITION ] because of race, and i was looking for equality from position of power not weakness,
in the sense, the ´low tier because of race ´ i was not perceiving it as truth of mine and i need therapy, but as rejection from personal opinion of Gods even if in the surface ´ they accepted me ´, but they accepted as a low tier human [ speculation based on some members opinions before updates ]
It is the subliminal rejection that i was sensing because of the race thing, and this is what made me repulsed, but in truth, my own worth is untouched,
What happened, is first a God gave me a sign, strong sign from within my own culture, very strong,
some was talking about how Gods are tied to ToZ, and if something is not in ToZ page, then it cannot be the Gods,
A God gave me a strong sign and a new information about him that does not exist in the page of ToZ, this could have solved the racial thing in my brain, but i dismissed thinking : if the sign is not mentioned in ToZ, and i experience it, then its false or coincidental, so i was reading members experiences trying to force mine to conform to them, but i was getting things outside of that expectation, and dismissing, i was thinking every single experience or revelation must be already in ToZ,
I recall for example one in the presence of a God, i started praying to him : [ Please Please Please, if you want if you want, when i start seing you, can you present yourself in my own culture, if you want please, in case you want, this is not a command , if you want, please ( while bowing out of respect to them, to make sure they do not misunderstand me this is how i thought)] i was very very cautious since i felt like trying to alter their appearance, since i thought appearances are fixed back then,
I got another strong sign, i started knowing for sure rarely who is who, the equivalent of the God in my culture, in strong ways, but i dismissed, i thought maybe coincidental,
What happened months now later, I saw them moving, and wearing my cultural clothes, in a very majestic way. In dreams they did things including my culture,
And in their appearance, and i am not exaggerating, they matched my culture, more than i personally do. To the point, this several times got me shocked, i was like : wait ? I knew they can appear from within my culture, but thats too much? They exceeded what i expected, they looked The Gods of MY CULTURE,
I know for sure now, whoever thinks the Gods are tied to some culture only, i instantly realize he is living in his own bubble, i am also not making the same mistake, and knowing that the Gods are beyond the forms i perceive,
So i am sure beyond any doubts, the Gods see and hear, are close and not distant, and they are active not passive. In the literal sense they are not just ‘up there ´ watching, they are very very active, and they are watching too,
And the relation with them is interpersonal not personal. I also perceived the alignement of ToZ with Gods, especially, HPZM alignment with Gods, with my own experiences, so i know now i do not just believe.

