This is self sabotage on an entirely different level, you allowed your emotions to dictate your responses to others. Instead of just taking their perspective of whatever they were saying you decided to impulsively respond in the manner in which you did? Such a waste, you had the opportunity to change your life and the advancement of your soul at an unprecedented level, no exaggeration. This was your chance and you blew it over lack of self control, i hope you look back at this as a lesson one day and realize how disastrous for you this truly is.