On Thu, 9/1/16,
zolaluckystar@... [JoyofSatan666] <
[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: "The Deluded"
To:
[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Thursday, September 1, 2016, 2:15 AM
Satansdemons, hey,
thanks for writing this: Satan has allowed things to
transpire the
way they have, so only a certain kind, a "select
few" will
be chosen to be those who are "with".
That's totally
ironic to me as I had it hammered into my head from a young
age that
I was a second or even third class person, worthless, with
nothing
special to offer and I should be ashamed to be white. And
because of
this, I was doomed to always be alone. HARDLY any kind of
select
anything! THAT was the programming I got to struggle with,
not Xian
programming. Just other things that tortured me from a very
young
age. I won't get into details but it made me a very,
very sad person
most of my life. It really fucked up my life. Though I found
life has improved a great deal since finding Satan, I still
have periods of intense sadness. And when it tries to come
over me is
when I feel like the unimaginable opportunity and beauty you
speak
of, while I CAN help fight for it and I DO, will be for
someone else.
Not me. I'll be left out, tossed away as always
(Don't get me wrong
I don't think this 24/7 ok so don't give me a
lecture).
Same
as you Adam, I was always the lone wolf, forced to go it
alone
because I was the strange outcast from the sheeple
surrounding me. I
was the wolf. That's how I saw myself. I was a wolf and
they were
sheeple. I mostly disdained them too, though I WAS lonely.
I've had
to live my entire life alone. Outcast during the days in
school and
with parents who ignored me I got zero emotional support
from them or
attention. Instead imagining I had a Father who was a God
and HE
would be there someday. I also imagined an invisible
companion who
guided and guarded me, I'd talk to Him. Cry to Him at
night. I looked
to the stars and wished I came from out there. I mostly felt
like I
DID come from somewhere other than Earth - I remember
watching
Charles marry Lady Diana live on TV and while everyone else
was
ooohing and awwhing over the grand spectacle I was in my
head curling
my lip thinking who the FUCK are these people and who says
they are
better than me? What makes them 'royal'? (turns out
they aren't - as
I have found at JOS)
And
somehow these sheeple seemed to sense
it too, that I was somehow fundamentally different from them
because
I was always outcast. I got the hairy eyeball and people
kept their distance. I was told I was intimidating. I used
to tell myself fantasy stories all the
time; constantly daydreaming, one was that I was actually
the
daughter of a king; I just didn't know it and someday
instead of the
ugly duckling I'd be a swan....what a surprise it was,
to discover I
literally AM related to a Superbeing, a God from Orion, the
God of
Gods, Satan! King of the Earth! I actually have his blood in
my veins! Talk about my dreams come
true!
So...maybe I was
chosen by Satan to be here too
HAIL
SATAN!!
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