The crying urge or almost crying during interaction with a Deity

[ΑΝΑΣΤΑΣΙΣ]

During a summoning, focusing on or interacting with a Deity. If one almost cry or get strong feeling to cry. What emotion is this ? Since obviously its not sadness.. in which category that falls? What causes this?

 

[Astralnaut88]

Whenever Father Zeus visited me I always felt tragic energy about him which feels like a mixture and balance of Jupiter/Neptune. I had a mattress that had two puddles of tear stains from one visit from father Zeus almost 2 decades ago before things got serious and couldn't communicate directly as often. Orbital communications if different in that they don't imbue you with their energy.

Many other gods can give off a similar complex of energies, like the spectral bands of stars in the sense that they give off very specific frequencies, but it could also be extreme gratitude that you are in the company of a diety.

 

[Hs666]

During a summoning, focusing on or interacting with a Deity. If one almost cry or get strong feeling to cry. What emotion is this ? Since obviously its not sadness.. in which category that falls? What causes this?

Emotional release. Especially when symbols are used, such as the seals of the Gods.

This stimulates one's own psyche, including the collective psyche, where these effects can be experienced.

 

[coral__]

During a summoning, focusing on or interacting with a Deity. If one almost cry or get strong feeling to cry. What emotion is this ? Since obviously its not sadness.. in which category that falls? What causes this?

In my experience, is a strange yet indescribable joy.
I feel so safe and seen that I can't help but let go whatever is holding me back

Getting in touch with Their energy and seeing Them or feeling Their presence it's something that makes me cry too.
Don't worry about it as it's totally normal!

 

[Khem Nefermed]

I've had this plenty of times.
It is feeling the love of the Gods, and the feeling is lifechanging. I don't think anyone who felt this will abandon the path.

I've felt this with Father Zeus, in deep meditation of His sigil, a knowing and sensation that God is always within me, with me and all around me. It is like being held by water in the middle of an ocean, floating.

I also felt this with Mother Astarte, a motherly love and energy that I gravely lacked in my childhood.

For some that are dealing with guilt and change, this can also feel like it is scolding, but never in a negative or harmful way.
When meditating on Mother Astarte's sigil, I was and still am brought to unbelievably ugly tears in meditation, knowing the mistakes I made in life and the trauma that brought me to some very dark places, of which my closest friends here know about.
But the tears weren't of guilt, they were of knowing there was a side of me that is beyond the circumstances that brought me to make those mistakes. A sense of accountability comes, and drives you to genuinely make a change for the better, with no pointless guilt tripping.

 

[krysalis88]

The first times that I felt Father Zeus, I would feel a very happy feeling and suddenly start laughing that I couldn't keep my focus lol.
It was such a joy to feel it that I couldn't believe that He (and Them) would be so warming and welcoming.
My struggles with sadness deep within and hatred towards the world (at that point I wasn't believing in people anymore) used to make me ask He if I could ever have such a 'big heart' as His. For so much awful things to have happened in the world, I used to question why even then He would still be with us? Why after so much slander, so much unreasonable hate, could a Father still believe in His children? It was the first time I ever felt such Godly love towards me, never felt anything genuine from other 'religions' out there.

I don't remember if it was before or after my dedication, but I had a vision (or a dream?) of a huge stone/wooden double doors at a very dark place. I was scared of it, but as I tried to open it from the outside, I managed to do so and saw a blond guy, as if he was cheering me up and then I felt that 'see, it isn't that scary'. After reading some sermons, I wonder if Janus was Him? But I can't remember if He was outside or inside, that happened for quite a time.