The Astral Dedication was not enough?

[iorost]

I dedicated through the astral due to cowardice of the aftermath of the dedication being discovered or stumbled upon by neighbors and family. It was a few months ago and I believe that it just didn't get observed by the Gods and Enki. Either that, or they want the formality of a blood, physical dedication. I did the astral dedication while semi-meditating but still visualizing. Although, I had to open my eyes because my mind has been so damaged by years of marijuana and caffeine abuse that I couldn't remember what I wrote out (I personalized the dedication). I took the time to imagine the temple and construct it there on the spot and can still remember what it looks like despite never seeing it in dreams and still unable to astral project. the few times I tried and almost got it, the excitement of hearing the deafening tone distracted me. that and I couldn't get only but my head out of my body because there was a blockage in my heart chakra or something preventing my soul down from it getting out.

The reason I believe my astral dedication did not work is because what began my journey to Satan was an episode of sleep paralysis in which I saw two greys and an enemy nordic woman turning my aura black and draining me while I felt intense fear. this was before I ever found JoS or learned of auras and the astral and whatnot. As I've progressed though since discovering the website, I've used the protection, cleansing meditations and also the Algiz rune. But I feel, as I'm also trying to learn lucid dreaming to access the astral, that these three parasites are not gone and things have gotten more hostile since I've actually come to terms with the reality of Enki and the Gods protecting us from the Greys enslaving most men. More hostile since I've been meditating frequently, in otherwords.

For one, I believe I'm a natural empath. I don't know if it's just the other people when I go to work at a local coop, but every time I do my mind CANNOT STOP thinking negative thought, mainly thoughts of abandoning everyone who loves me, especially my wife, in the pursuit of random sex and other materialistic shit. Most disturbing though is that after having quit weed entirely, and nearly completely abandoning alcohol, on top of regular meditating my dreams have become more vivid. Whenever I am having a bright, sunny happy dream something disturbing happens. Or just any dream really. Normally it involves the dream going from something happy or mind blowingly prophetic to greys attacking me in some way, or creepy human characters that, when confronted with semi-lucidity in which I ask of their names, their only response is something nonsensical.

For instance I had a series of ten lucid dreams and an old man came into a few of them and interrupted them. He had just no eyes, they were black voids. I asked if he was Satan and as I said it he screamed the name very evilly and said he did not like being called that, and insisted on an inpronouncable name. Recently, a ginger woman came into a nice dream of me moving (which I'm trying to do now with no luck as my current residency is too dark and depressing) and pretty much kicked me out of my dream after turning it into a fearful encounter. I confronted her with semi lucidity and asked her name...it was Goat Shewilllikeit.

There's been a bunch of random coincidences in real life also, but this post is already too long to list it. What do you guys think, was the astral dedication a newbie just barely getting out of a pathetic drug habit not enough? I am willing now more so than ever to spill my blood for Enki, in fact regardless of any responses I probably will Monday just to end the constant nightmares! thank you to anyone willing to read that and help. Hail Satan!

 

[hailbelphagor]

The dedication ritual doesn't necessarily stop the attacks. The enemy is doing their best to try scaring you away from spiritual power. They'll still keep trying to attack you.

But as you grow you'll also start to understand how weak and feeble these little things are. Soon, as long as you keep growing, you'll laugh at them in their pathetic attempts.

They hate being laughed at.

If you want to, just remember to ask any of these encounters if they are of Satan. Call to him for help and they usually flee.

Hail Father Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "iorost" <iorost@... wrote:

I dedicated through the astral due to cowardice of the aftermath of the dedication being discovered or stumbled upon by neighbors and family. It was a few months ago and I believe that it just didn't get observed by the Gods and Enki. Either that, or they want the formality of a blood, physical dedication. I did the astral dedication while semi-meditating but still visualizing. Although, I had to open my eyes because my mind has been so damaged by years of marijuana and caffeine abuse that I couldn't remember what I wrote out (I personalized the dedication). I took the time to imagine the temple and construct it there on the spot and can still remember what it looks like despite never seeing it in dreams and still unable to astral project. the few times I tried and almost got it, the excitement of hearing the deafening tone distracted me. that and I couldn't get only but my head out of my body because there was a blockage in my heart chakra or something preventing my soul down from it getting out.

The reason I believe my astral dedication did not work is because what began my journey to Satan was an episode of sleep paralysis in which I saw two greys and an enemy nordic woman turning my aura black and draining me while I felt intense fear. this was before I ever found JoS or learned of auras and the astral and whatnot. As I've progressed though since discovering the website, I've used the protection, cleansing meditations and also the Algiz rune. But I feel, as I'm also trying to learn lucid dreaming to access the astral, that these three parasites are not gone and things have gotten more hostile since I've actually come to terms with the reality of Enki and the Gods protecting us from the Greys enslaving most men. More hostile since I've been meditating frequently, in otherwords.

For one, I believe I'm a natural empath. I don't know if it's just the other people when I go to work at a local coop, but every time I do my mind CANNOT STOP thinking negative thought, mainly thoughts of abandoning everyone who loves me, especially my wife, in the pursuit of random sex and other materialistic shit. Most disturbing though is that after having quit weed entirely, and nearly completely abandoning alcohol, on top of regular meditating my dreams have become more vivid. Whenever I am having a bright, sunny happy dream something disturbing happens. Or just any dream really. Normally it involves the dream going from something happy or mind blowingly prophetic to greys attacking me in some way, or creepy human characters that, when confronted with semi-lucidity in which I ask of their names, their only response is something nonsensical.

For instance I had a series of ten lucid dreams and an old man came into a few of them and interrupted them. He had just no eyes, they were black voids. I asked if he was Satan and as I said it he screamed the name very evilly and said he did not like being called that, and insisted on an inpronouncable name. Recently, a ginger woman came into a nice dream of me moving (which I'm trying to do now with no luck as my current residency is too dark and depressing) and pretty much kicked me out of my dream after turning it into a fearful encounter. I confronted her with semi lucidity and asked her name...it was Goat Shewilllikeit.

There's been a bunch of random coincidences in real life also, but this post is already too long to list it. What do you guys think, was the astral dedication a newbie just barely getting out of a pathetic drug habit not enough? I am willing now more so than ever to spill my blood for Enki, in fact regardless of any responses I probably will Monday just to end the constant nightmares! thank you to anyone willing to read that and help. Hail Satan!

 

[Eduardo]

I have a question.

How can you clean and repair your mind after too much weed smoking???

Man, you should try Sedona Method, it may help.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "iorost" <iorost@... wrote:

I dedicated through the astral due to cowardice of the aftermath of the dedication being discovered or stumbled upon by neighbors and family. It was a few months ago and I believe that it just didn't get observed by the Gods and Enki. Either that, or they want the formality of a blood, physical dedication. I did the astral dedication while semi-meditating but still visualizing. Although, I had to open my eyes because my mind has been so damaged by years of marijuana and caffeine abuse that I couldn't remember what I wrote out (I personalized the dedication). I took the time to imagine the temple and construct it there on the spot and can still remember what it looks like despite never seeing it in dreams and still unable to astral project. the few times I tried and almost got it, the excitement of hearing the deafening tone distracted me. that and I couldn't get only but my head out of my body because there was a blockage in my heart chakra or something preventing my soul down from it getting out.

The reason I believe my astral dedication did not work is because what began my journey to Satan was an episode of sleep paralysis in which I saw two greys and an enemy nordic woman turning my aura black and draining me while I felt intense fear. this was before I ever found JoS or learned of auras and the astral and whatnot. As I've progressed though since discovering the website, I've used the protection, cleansing meditations and also the Algiz rune. But I feel, as I'm also trying to learn lucid dreaming to access the astral, that these three parasites are not gone and things have gotten more hostile since I've actually come to terms with the reality of Enki and the Gods protecting us from the Greys enslaving most men. More hostile since I've been meditating frequently, in otherwords.

For one, I believe I'm a natural empath. I don't know if it's just the other people when I go to work at a local coop, but every time I do my mind CANNOT STOP thinking negative thought, mainly thoughts of abandoning everyone who loves me, especially my wife, in the pursuit of random sex and other materialistic shit. Most disturbing though is that after having quit weed entirely, and nearly completely abandoning alcohol, on top of regular meditating my dreams have become more vivid. Whenever I am having a bright, sunny happy dream something disturbing happens. Or just any dream really. Normally it involves the dream going from something happy or mind blowingly prophetic to greys attacking me in some way, or creepy human characters that, when confronted with semi-lucidity in which I ask of their names, their only response is something nonsensical.

For instance I had a series of ten lucid dreams and an old man came into a few of them and interrupted them. He had just no eyes, they were black voids. I asked if he was Satan and as I said it he screamed the name very evilly and said he did not like being called that, and insisted on an inpronouncable name. Recently, a ginger woman came into a nice dream of me moving (which I'm trying to do now with no luck as my current residency is too dark and depressing) and pretty much kicked me out of my dream after turning it into a fearful encounter. I confronted her with semi lucidity and asked her name...it was Goat Shewilllikeit.

There's been a bunch of random coincidences in real life also, but this post is already too long to list it. What do you guys think, was the astral dedication a newbie just barely getting out of a pathetic drug habit not enough? I am willing now more so than ever to spill my blood for Enki, in fact regardless of any responses I probably will Monday just to end the constant nightmares! thank you to anyone willing to read that and help. Hail Satan!

 

[R D]

Basically you need to calm down and think that things are going much better for you.

What i mean is that Father Satan did hear and you should not have any doubt on that and now that you are quitting drugs and alcohol and at the same time becoming a Satanist that cares for meditation etc, you are becoming a threat and of course greys do not need more threats so they are trying to get you out of the "game" the only way they can, by terrifying you so that you leave Satanism or think that our Father does not love you etc.
The only thing you should do now is continue reading on Jos website anything you think that will help you especially things for beginners at least till you advance more and at the same time keep a good meditation program that goes along with your daily schedule so that you do not have to alter every now and then.
HAIL SATAN!

 

[shantikami]

Just remember that, now that you are dedicated, they cannot win against you. They can act as scary or gross or disturbing as they want, but they cannot touch you. It seems clear to me that they are quite upset with your advancement, and are pulling out all sorts of tricks to get you cowed. Keep pushing past them, keep working; don't let their games distract you.

Plus, in dreams, it always helps me when I remember that (as a lucid dreamer) dreams are my turf. I don't care what powers the enemy supposedly has; I will always be stronger. The more lucid I am, the stronger I get.

Someone here mentioned they are scared of cats, and are actually cowards. I think that dreaming of giant cats would be fun...watch them all run away!

I hope this is helpful and useful for you.

with eternal love and devotion to Satan
with honor and respect to the gods of Duat

Katy

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "iorost" <iorost@... wrote:

I dedicated through the astral due to cowardice of the aftermath of the dedication being discovered or stumbled upon by neighbors and family. It was a few months ago and I believe that it just didn't get observed by the Gods and Enki. Either that, or they want the formality of a blood, physical dedication. I did the astral dedication while semi-meditating but still visualizing. Although, I had to open my eyes because my mind has been so damaged by years of marijuana and caffeine abuse that I couldn't remember what I wrote out (I personalized the dedication). I took the time to imagine the temple and construct it there on the spot and can still remember what it looks like despite never seeing it in dreams and still unable to astral project. the few times I tried and almost got it, the excitement of hearing the deafening tone distracted me. that and I couldn't get only but my head out of my body because there was a blockage in my heart chakra or something preventing my soul down from it getting out.

The reason I believe my astral dedication did not work is because what began my journey to Satan was an episode of sleep paralysis in which I saw two greys and an enemy nordic woman turning my aura black and draining me while I felt intense fear. this was before I ever found JoS or learned of auras and the astral and whatnot. As I've progressed though since discovering the website, I've used the protection, cleansing meditations and also the Algiz rune. But I feel, as I'm also trying to learn lucid dreaming to access the astral, that these three parasites are not gone and things have gotten more hostile since I've actually come to terms with the reality of Enki and the Gods protecting us from the Greys enslaving most men. More hostile since I've been meditating frequently, in otherwords.

For one, I believe I'm a natural empath. I don't know if it's just the other people when I go to work at a local coop, but every time I do my mind CANNOT STOP thinking negative thought, mainly thoughts of abandoning everyone who loves me, especially my wife, in the pursuit of random sex and other materialistic shit. Most disturbing though is that after having quit weed entirely, and nearly completely abandoning alcohol, on top of regular meditating my dreams have become more vivid. Whenever I am having a bright, sunny happy dream something disturbing happens. Or just any dream really. Normally it involves the dream going from something happy or mind blowingly prophetic to greys attacking me in some way, or creepy human characters that, when confronted with semi-lucidity in which I ask of their names, their only response is something nonsensical.

For instance I had a series of ten lucid dreams and an old man came into a few of them and interrupted them. He had just no eyes, they were black voids. I asked if he was Satan and as I said it he screamed the name very evilly and said he did not like being called that, and insisted on an inpronouncable name. Recently, a ginger woman came into a nice dream of me moving (which I'm trying to do now with no luck as my current residency is too dark and depressing) and pretty much kicked me out of my dream after turning it into a fearful encounter. I confronted her with semi lucidity and asked her name...it was Goat Shewilllikeit.

There's been a bunch of random coincidences in real life also, but this post is already too long to list it. What do you guys think, was the astral dedication a newbie just barely getting out of a pathetic drug habit not enough? I am willing now more so than ever to spill my blood for Enki, in fact regardless of any responses I probably will Monday just to end the constant nightmares! thank you to anyone willing to read that and help. Hail Satan!