Terrible situation.

[Henu the Great]

Don't mess with squares like that because you end up hurting yourself badly, especially with the Saturn square.

Perhaps the energy for this spell is better used to get breathing room by binding them and doing returning curses 1&2 and then finding means to get paid with the assistance of a money spell. That way you would be able to live on your own.

If you only focus on hurting them you end up hurting yourself too.

 

[Head Guardian Blitzkreig]

I'm at a terrible situation and i have about 3 months left maybe not even, i don't want to contact the gods and i also don't want to die, i'm thinking about doing saturn squares on them also

Do you have suggestions?

It is easier to use Ansuz and free yourself from the specific obstacles they place on you, rather than attempt to black magic them until something else happens, which may not even make life easier. Combine this with binding and doing Rituals on them, if needed.

Also, why do you feel like you might die?