Strange Feeling since last year

[braedynrutherford]

hi everyone, im wondering about strange feelings ive been getting for the past year, they feel strange and pulsing, in the middle of a pulse i would feel a tingling and i wouldnt be able to focus, i would feel tingly and kind of detached from everything and i would either feel my body alot stronger or hardly at all, and also so i dot have to make another post (this might seem crazy to some). i have a birthmark that looks like a paw print and whenever i get *REALLY* angry and during the poulses it happens, i go kind of uuuuhh... whats the word... animal like? not sure of a word but its happened all my life and then when these pulse things started last year it happens during them, during these animal like moments i dont feel pain and i go into like a defence mode and the worst thing that happened during this is when i bit a kid in prep, and i mean i really bit him HARD, and a scary thing is at the time when i was in this mode thing, i didnt care!
All my life i have felt like an animal in some ways i can run on all fours as fast as with my legs i can growl like a dog i can roar like some kind of animal and my jaw is really strong and im stronger than people up to about 5-6 years older than me, i feel like a freak most of the time and i get teased alot, im wondering now that ive written this and put it together im wondering am i a kid that should be kept away from people? like those people in those crazy homes? =( now that ive put it together for the first time im not sure what to think of myself please someone answer me and tell me whats wrong with me! i swear im just letting it out and im not lieing people have been calling me a freak and teasing me my whole life because of what i do.

hail Satan and the true gods of old

 

[xtensitymusic]

Sounds like the flight of fight instinct all humans have.... When in intense situations adrenaline starts to pump.... and adrenaline can make you feel no pain which is how some people are able to do such things as lifting cars with 1 hand when in such modes...

I can't explain the urge to want to run on all 4s(watching too many wearwolf movies ?).... But the no pain and anger can be a result from impulsiveness that stems off intense anger which can lead to lots of adrenaline.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "braedynrutherford" <braedos@... wrote:

hi everyone, im wondering about strange feelings ive been getting for the past year, they feel strange and pulsing, in the middle of a pulse i would feel a tingling and i wouldnt be able to focus, i would feel tingly and kind of detached from everything and i would either feel my body alot stronger or hardly at all, and also so i dot have to make another post (this might seem crazy to some). i have a birthmark that looks like a paw print and whenever i get *REALLY* angry and during the poulses it happens, i go kind of uuuuhh... whats the word... animal like? not sure of a word but its happened all my life and then when these pulse things started last year it happens during them, during these animal like moments i dont feel pain and i go into like a defence mode and the worst thing that happened during this is when i bit a kid in prep, and i mean i really bit him HARD, and a scary thing is at the time when i was in this mode thing, i didnt care!
All my life i have felt like an animal in some ways i can run on all fours as fast as with my legs i can growl like a dog i can roar like some kind of animal and my jaw is really strong and im stronger than people up to about 5-6 years older than me, i feel like a freak most of the time and i get teased alot, im wondering now that ive written this and put it together im wondering am i a kid that should be kept away from people? like those people in those crazy homes? =( now that ive put it together for the first time im not sure what to think of myself please someone answer me and tell me whats wrong with me! i swear im just letting it out and im not lieing people have been calling me a freak and teasing me my whole life because of what i do.

hail Satan and the true gods of old

 

[braedynrutherford]

thnx for reply, id thaught it was adrenalin untill last year when i started getting that strange pulsing feling and i get them sometimes without being angry, but yea i get what you mean by the adrenalin, lol running on all fours has been with me since i was about 3, thanks for resolving some of my life lol

Hail Satan And The True Gods Of Old!!!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "xtensitymusic" <xtensitymusic@... wrote:

Sounds like the flight of fight instinct all humans have.... When in intense situations adrenaline starts to pump.... and adrenaline can make you feel no pain which is how some people are able to do such things as lifting cars with 1 hand when in such modes...

I can't explain the urge to want to run on all 4s(watching too many wearwolf movies ?).... But the no pain and anger can be a result from impulsiveness that stems off intense anger which can lead to lots of adrenaline.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "braedynrutherford" <braedos@ wrote:

hi everyone, im wondering about strange feelings ive been getting for the past year, they feel strange and pulsing, in the middle of a pulse i would feel a tingling and i wouldnt be able to focus, i would feel tingly and kind of detached from everything and i would either feel my body alot stronger or hardly at all, and also so i dot have to make another post (this might seem crazy to some). i have a birthmark that looks like a paw print and whenever i get *REALLY* angry and during the poulses it happens, i go kind of uuuuhh... whats the word... animal like? not sure of a word but its happened all my life and then when these pulse things started last year it happens during them, during these animal like moments i dont feel pain and i go into like a defence mode and the worst thing that happened during this is when i bit a kid in prep, and i mean i really bit him HARD, and a scary thing is at the time when i was in this mode thing, i didnt care!
All my life i have felt like an animal in some ways i can run on all fours as fast as with my legs i can growl like a dog i can roar like some kind of animal and my jaw is really strong and im stronger than people up to about 5-6 years older than me, i feel like a freak most of the time and i get teased alot, im wondering now that ive written this and put it together im wondering am i a kid that should be kept away from people? like those people in those crazy homes? =( now that ive put it together for the first time im not sure what to think of myself please someone answer me and tell me whats wrong with me! i swear im just letting it out and im not lieing people have been calling me a freak and teasing me my whole life because of what i do.

hail Satan and the true gods of old

 

[james miller]

Be proud, us humans in our human bodies are a beast, man, and god combined. Be proud that you are a great creation of Father Satan. And fuck those people, you're you, be strong don't let the enemy or anyone for that matter bring you down in any aspect. Be strong Brother! And Grow Even Stronger!! Meditation, and eventually reaching godhead will fix your adrenaline bursts and other issues. It sounds like you may have a fire imbalance in your soul as well, so remember to invoke the elements to balance your soul when you're more adept as well. And I have nothing against biting, punching, nor using a pole arm or basic staff to rend my enemies if they befell me in this dimension, responsibility to the responsible, if someone talked shit and got what they deserved then justice was served in that case wasn't it! (the paw print mark probably looks sick too, you should post some pics)

HAIL SATAN FOREVER!!
AND PRAISE THE TRUE GODS FOREVER!!

Raven


To: [email protected]
From: xtensitymusic@...
Date: Wed, 24 Mar 2010 18:45:26 +0000
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Strange Feeling since last year

  Sounds like the flight of fight instinct all humans have.... When in intense situations adrenaline starts to pump.... and adrenaline can make you feel no pain which is how some people are able to do such things as lifting cars with 1 hand when in such modes...

I can't explain the urge to want to run on all 4s(watching too many wearwolf movies ?).... But the no pain and anger can be a result from impulsiveness that stems off intense anger which can lead to lots of adrenaline.

--- In JoyofSatan666@ yahoogroups. com, "braedynrutherford" <braedos@... wrote:

hi everyone, im wondering about strange feelings ive been getting for the past year, they feel strange and pulsing, in the middle of a pulse i would feel a tingling and i wouldnt be able to focus, i would feel tingly and kind of detached from everything and i would either feel my body alot stronger or hardly at all, and also so i dot have to make another post (this might seem crazy to some). i have a birthmark that looks like a paw print and whenever i get *REALLY* angry and during the poulses it happens, i go kind of uuuuhh... whats the word... animal like? not sure of a word but its happened all my life and then when these pulse things started last year it happens during them, during these animal like moments i dont feel pain and i go into like a defence mode and the worst thing that happened during this is when i bit a kid in prep, and i mean i really bit him HARD, and a scary thing is at the time when i was in this mode thing, i didnt care!
All my life i have felt like an animal in some ways i can run on all fours as fast as with my legs i can growl like a dog i can roar like some kind of animal and my jaw is really strong and im stronger than people up to about 5-6 years older than me, i feel like a freak most of the time and i get teased alot, im wondering now that ive written this and put it together im wondering am i a kid that should be kept away from people? like those people in those crazy homes? =( now that ive put it together for the first time im not sure what to think of myself please someone answer me and tell me whats wrong with me! i swear im just letting it out and im not lieing people have been calling me a freak and teasing me my whole life because of what i do.

hail Satan and the true gods of old

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[braedynrutherford]

thnx =) you just gave me a boost of confidence and fixed most if not my whole life lol thnx =) and ill do what you said, thnx for answering.

HAIL SATAN AND THE TRUE GODS OF OLD!!!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], james miller <jmiller4714@... wrote:


Be proud, us humans in our human bodies are a beast, man, and god combined. Be proud that you are a great creation of Father Satan. And fuck those people, you're you, be strong don't let the enemy or anyone for that matter bring you down in any aspect. Be strong Brother! And Grow Even Stronger!! Meditation, and eventually reaching godhead will fix your adrenaline bursts and other issues. It sounds like you may have a fire imbalance in your soul as well, so remember to invoke the elements to balance your soul when you're more adept as well. And I have nothing against biting, punching, nor using a pole arm or basic staff to rend my enemies if they befell me in this dimension, responsibility to the responsible, if someone talked shit and got what they deserved then justice was served in that case wasn't it! (the paw print mark probably looks sick too, you should post some pics)

HAIL SATAN FOREVER!!
AND PRAISE THE TRUE GODS FOREVER!!

Raven

To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
From: xtensitymusic@...
Date: Wed, 24 Mar 2010 18:45:26 +0000
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Strange Feeling since last year




























Sounds like the flight of fight instinct all humans have.... When in intense situations adrenaline starts to pump.... and adrenaline can make you feel no pain which is how some people are able to do such things as lifting cars with 1 hand when in such modes...



I can't explain the urge to want to run on all 4s(watching too many wearwolf movies ?).... But the no pain and anger can be a result from impulsiveness that stems off intense anger which can lead to lots of adrenaline.



--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "braedynrutherford" <braedos@ wrote:



hi everyone, im wondering about strange feelings ive been getting for the past year, they feel strange and pulsing, in the middle of a pulse i would feel a tingling and i wouldnt be able to focus, i would feel tingly and kind of detached from everything and i would either feel my body alot stronger or hardly at all, and also so i dot have to make another post (this might seem crazy to some). i have a birthmark that looks like a paw print and whenever i get *REALLY* angry and during the poulses it happens, i go kind of uuuuhh... whats the word... animal like? not sure of a word but its happened all my life and then when these pulse things started last year it happens during them, during these animal like moments i dont feel pain and i go into like a defence mode and the worst thing that happened during this is when i bit a kid in prep, and i mean i really bit him HARD, and a scary thing is at the time when i was in this mode thing, i didnt care!

All my life i have felt like an animal in some ways i can run on all fours as fast as with my legs i can growl like a dog i can roar like some kind of animal and my jaw is really strong and im stronger than people up to about 5-6 years older than me, i feel like a freak most of the time and i get teased alot, im wondering now that ive written this and put it together im wondering am i a kid that should be kept away from people? like those people in those crazy homes? =( now that ive put it together for the first time im not sure what to think of myself please someone answer me and tell me whats wrong with me! i swear im just letting it out and im not lieing people have been calling me a freak and teasing me my whole life because of what i do.



hail Satan and the true gods of old




















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