Some questions and some worries

[nissangtr32]

hi!
I am a 19-year-old young man who recently had an entrance ceremony.

I want to have a relationship with my father, Satan.
I want to but I'm worried
I can not do it.

because I have intrusive thought , obsessive (or subconsciously do) that a particular person is dying or is dying.

i afraid of harming others with such thoughts during the ritual

I know my father is a good man.
but im Fear of causing undesirable harm to others

and before i some doing,(eating, enjoying habits)
having intrusive thought.

Examples: the idea of killing and eating the gods before eating (Father Satan, other gods), the idea that eating this food will kill someone, the idea that doing something will harm someone or insult the gods (Father Satan), etc. .

Is this thought an insult to Father Satan?

And as I said before, if I have
intrusive thought ,obsessive
during my ritual, will it harm others? (Is it okay if I don't request?)

 

[GoldenxChild1]

Ignore these types of thoughts and continue anyway. If you haven't had the chance, read all of the joyofsatan.org and begin a meditation routine. I recommend HPC's 40 day program which can be found here - https://satanslibrary.org/index.html