Skeptical These Days

[hungryjohn59]

I can't help but be a little skeptical these days about not just Satanism, but all religious beliefs.

I'm not saying this to get people mad at me, but out of a genuine sense of confusion. I mean, when you look at all the different beliefs out there, with everyone saying their religion is the only true one, things can get just a bit confusing. Even in a recent search of Satanic groups, I found over a thousand all claiming to be the only ones that follow Father Satan's teachings.

Adding to that, at nearly 50 years of age, I have never felt, seen, or heard the presence of any being other than human or animal. Nothing spiritual in any way,shape or form.

So it makes me wonder; Am I cursed by all the Gods? Just ignored perhaps? Or perhaps I'm just fooling myself by believing in something outside myself? Do others ever feel the way I do? Do others have the same doubts and concerns as myself?

I guess what I'm really asking is, if there truly a God of any kind, why is it that after all my years of prayer and meditation, I have never had even a fleeting bit of contact with any God, Demon,or anything else you wish to list. It's gotten to be quite a bit frustrating for me.

 

[Magus Immortalis]

Maybe you need to meditate more and work on your clairaudient and clairvoyant (minor) chakras.It's more then likely that the Gods have sent signs, helped you out many times, and this flew over your head. Keeping a journal of all good things that have happened to you since you dedicated to Lord Satan is the work of Lord Satan and your GDs.Could also be you need to step up your game and participate in spiritual warfare. Those who care for Lord Satan's cause and take action towards it, the Gods make time for.
What meditations have you been doing all these years? The ones from JOS? Your soul should have been so opened by now that you would have sensed the Gods, unless you have not been working on your meditation program and advancing it, and therefore advancing yourself.

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Sent: Saturday, August 31, 2013 1:14:41 AM
Subject: Skeptical These Days

  I can't help but be a little skeptical these days about not just Satanism, but all religious beliefs.

I'm not saying this to get people mad at me, but out of a genuine sense of confusion. I mean, when you look at all the different beliefs out there, with everyone saying their religion is the only true one, things can get just a bit confusing. Even in a recent search of Satanic groups, I found over a thousand all claiming to be the only ones that follow Father Satan's teachings.

Adding to that, at nearly 50 years of age, I have never felt, seen, or heard the presence of any being other than human or animal. Nothing spiritual in any way,shape or form.

So it makes me wonder; Am I cursed by all the Gods? Just ignored perhaps? Or perhaps I'm just fooling myself by believing in something outside myself? Do others ever feel the way I do? Do others have the same doubts and concerns as myself?

I guess what I'm really asking is, if there truly a God of any kind, why is it that after all my years of prayer and meditation, I have never had even a fleeting bit of contact with any God, Demon,or anything else you wish to list. It's gotten to be quite a bit frustrating for me.