Should I rededicate?

[mason666yeahx]

To be honest I was more dedicated to satan before I did the actual ritual. When I first discovered the truth I was willing to fight for him. I felt his energy and it made me strong and confident. But was always nervous to do the ritual. 
I did it anyway, but the main reason was for the protection to advance in my meditations, if I can be honest I did the ritual for allot of selfish reasons, thinking it would suddenly improve my life. Since the moment I did it I felt awful. I felt like I was going mad. Started thinking I ' sold my soul to the devil ' 
In the end I did a reverse ritual stating I renounce satan lucifer in hoping this feeling would leave me. I stopped all meditations, and left satanism completely for a while, and even repented. 
After a few weeks i started to get back into satanism a bit, just studying things. Then all of a sudden I started to realise more than what I knew before. To me personally satan is actually everything to me, his not just the God of humanity, his the God of the universe, he is the one true God that represents our nature and the nature of the universe. I can't explain it. I think I'm finally dropping this xian concept of satan. Enki-Ptah-EA-Lucifer-Melek Taus are all one of the same being and spirit that have been made into the devil in the bible. 
I want to return I've made a mistake, do I need to do the ritual again?
Hail Enki! The one true God!

 

[brandonsimms666]

You don't need to rededicate. You need to continue your meditations and find your relationship with father Satan. I'm in a similar boat. But my wrongs are not doing my meditations. Which I am going to be trying my best at. Remember the tree. The fruits are the benifites from your meditations. If you want to do better. Do it. Responsibility to the responsible.