diaynochecraig
New member
- Joined
- May 14, 2012
- Messages
- 2
I've been doing the square for Mercury for about three weeks. But last night I kept experiencing snaps in consciousness and mental voids before, after, and even right in the middle of vibrating individual mantras.
I'd find myself still locked in the meditation position (Indian style but without the legs crossed) whenever I'd regain awareness. And some time seems to pass when this happens, only to find I was only out for a few secs at times.
Or long time seems to have passed some times but only a couple minutes in fact.
And sometimes when I have no temporal awareness at all upon coming back from the black-out (it's not a white-out), I find that some time actually has passed.
So time was taken up and I had had 20 more recitations of the mantra to vibrate and it was 23:59pm. I finished it within the next 30 minutes, but it was already today.
The work is canceled out I take it? I didn't intentionally skip a day; I just lost track (precise count) and finished 30min past midnight. Has the magickal process really been interrupted?
What to do now, I wonder. Should I not say the mantra anymore till the next time Mercury is strong or exalted?
And- I thought my breathing or energetic breathing was fine and that I wasn't holding my breath or forcing the breath out or forcing the vibration- that said,
Does anyone know why I was experiencing snaps in awareness?
It happens so often when I meditate, repeat affirmations, and now (apparently) when I vibrate runes or mantras.
Looking for insight as to why I'm always fading/phasing in-and-out of consciousness when I do spiritual exercises??
I'd find myself still locked in the meditation position (Indian style but without the legs crossed) whenever I'd regain awareness. And some time seems to pass when this happens, only to find I was only out for a few secs at times.
Or long time seems to have passed some times but only a couple minutes in fact.
And sometimes when I have no temporal awareness at all upon coming back from the black-out (it's not a white-out), I find that some time actually has passed.
So time was taken up and I had had 20 more recitations of the mantra to vibrate and it was 23:59pm. I finished it within the next 30 minutes, but it was already today.
The work is canceled out I take it? I didn't intentionally skip a day; I just lost track (precise count) and finished 30min past midnight. Has the magickal process really been interrupted?
What to do now, I wonder. Should I not say the mantra anymore till the next time Mercury is strong or exalted?
And- I thought my breathing or energetic breathing was fine and that I wasn't holding my breath or forcing the breath out or forcing the vibration- that said,
Does anyone know why I was experiencing snaps in awareness?
It happens so often when I meditate, repeat affirmations, and now (apparently) when I vibrate runes or mantras.
Looking for insight as to why I'm always fading/phasing in-and-out of consciousness when I do spiritual exercises??
