kevin_burkhard
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I don't share much, but lately Jehovian entities have really been screwing with me. Not with threats, which they probably know I would just cackle off and would make them suffer in do time for (I'm not super great at the occult yet, getting there though). No instead they've chosen to mess with my subconscious like the weak losers they are.
At first it was doubt they tried creeping in, but my mind is logical so doubt was easily defeated, but it wouldn't go away and that's what raised an eye brow. Disclosure I'm a high functioning autistic so yeah things will get stuck in my mind and cycle for a bit if for anything else to make me miserable, but this felt more deliberate, but ultimately it stopped.
Now a new misery has taken it's place. Nihilism or a severe version of it where I can't stop focusing on the inevitable end of existence (can some clarify if that's a thing, cause I suspect it isn't, but would love input on this) and how ultimately everything is pointless and this has gotten to the point where it's making me depressed and interrupting my sleep.
Yet here's the kicker, if I convert back to a Judaic religion then everything will be fine. This pisses me off, they think that I'm that stupid and weak that a little depression and misery is going to make me break my oath to Satan. As if! These fucks have no honor and it sickens me. Satan and the Gods of hell have been there for me, helped me several times, they didn't intimidate me, threaten me, make me miserable, but these fucks pull these sneaky bullshit.
No worries. I'm gearing up for a counter, exorcism, cleansing (a lot of it), Aura of protection, smugging, barriers, ritual for protection, and definitely some self hypnotism to undo their damage. Just thought I'd share though. If anyone has any advise or can comment on the nature of existence ending (If it does) I'd appreciate that greatly.
Hail Satan
At first it was doubt they tried creeping in, but my mind is logical so doubt was easily defeated, but it wouldn't go away and that's what raised an eye brow. Disclosure I'm a high functioning autistic so yeah things will get stuck in my mind and cycle for a bit if for anything else to make me miserable, but this felt more deliberate, but ultimately it stopped.
Now a new misery has taken it's place. Nihilism or a severe version of it where I can't stop focusing on the inevitable end of existence (can some clarify if that's a thing, cause I suspect it isn't, but would love input on this) and how ultimately everything is pointless and this has gotten to the point where it's making me depressed and interrupting my sleep.
Yet here's the kicker, if I convert back to a Judaic religion then everything will be fine. This pisses me off, they think that I'm that stupid and weak that a little depression and misery is going to make me break my oath to Satan. As if! These fucks have no honor and it sickens me. Satan and the Gods of hell have been there for me, helped me several times, they didn't intimidate me, threaten me, make me miserable, but these fucks pull these sneaky bullshit.
No worries. I'm gearing up for a counter, exorcism, cleansing (a lot of it), Aura of protection, smugging, barriers, ritual for protection, and definitely some self hypnotism to undo their damage. Just thought I'd share though. If anyone has any advise or can comment on the nature of existence ending (If it does) I'd appreciate that greatly.
Hail Satan