littlesttitan
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Hey there everyone 
. I'm here to hopefully help some of you. I've been deeling with a lot of problems like me wanting to have a child but feeling like i shouldnt spread on my bad genes and know it, kill myself but knowing how much i would hurt the people around me, pretty much total worthlessness and feeling that nothing goes good in my life, like so many others have atleast 1 redeeming thing about their like and i just take all the shit. I'm making this post to hopefully help some of you who may have these problems or similair ones. Theres no way i can share my strength with any of you and you'd actually feel it. I've had a lot of problems with just imagining things that arent really happening in the past XD but i can give some advise.
Through the countless times i contemplated death i always ended up getting through it all and finding comfort with mother and father. Lilith shows me that its not so bad and makes me feel all warm and cry :3, and Lord Enki gives me the spirit to carry on, stay strong, and go further beyond anyones expectations to improve myself. Lilith=Love and Satan=Strength for me in my worst of times. Don't get fooled by any enemy entities acting as they are one of our glorious Gods. I get how you could believe that, in certain circumstances i even made myself beleive that. I invited evil "creatures" into my life and mind before because i thought i had nothing left to loose, NOTE: please don't do that, it only hurts you whether it be imediately or it sticks on you if you dont clean your aura daily.
My tip to gaining the strength to carry on in any situation is to shape an ideal future in your mind NO MATTER HOW IMPOSSIBLE OR FANTASY IT MIGHT SEEM. You can get there in time, my NEAR future now is having no friends and working a job i don't like at all. Im not complaining either, DON'T think that you deserve less, don't act like something you know you isnt working for you is great in any way. Get what you want no matter what. Also, many others might have an amazing life and all these people who care about them, money, loads of free time etc. But you can obtain that all too sometime, and beyond. Only the ones who know what it is to suffer and take the long, hard road can have control of either side. To stop suffering, you must know suffering on any reasonable degree.
As im still mentaly growing as a young human i don't know the answers to every mental problem, but please atleast take some i said here into consideration. Talk to the Gods for help, even if you cant hear anything back try to open up your sensitivity to emotions and you can absorb thier will and thoughts, answers will come in time. PLEASE nobody kill yourself. "If your not dead yet, theres always a chance for a better future".
I'de be totally open to talking with any of you on here that would like a one on one chat, but im not sure how safe it is to give that information out on here even with all the communications RTRs done in the past *--*. If anyone can clarify me on that, much appriciated. May the Gods of humanity bless all of you. I hope only the best for you all. REMEMBER- Carry on though everything no matter how hard it will get, and face your problems head on. The great adolf Hitler wasnt a person who just accepted things he didnt like, he fought hard through them. Many of our Gods are stronger now and can help use more, but only with some help from you in return. Put some real power into those final RTRs. How fast you can do the RTR isnt a big factor if your trying to fucking speed run it and put weak power into it and mispronounce a looot of words. Take time with it, it'll only add on about 5 more minutes even with energy meditations. Gday to everyone and may you all stay strong in this storm of a war right now
- Miss Kien
. I'm here to hopefully help some of you. I've been deeling with a lot of problems like me wanting to have a child but feeling like i shouldnt spread on my bad genes and know it, kill myself but knowing how much i would hurt the people around me, pretty much total worthlessness and feeling that nothing goes good in my life, like so many others have atleast 1 redeeming thing about their like and i just take all the shit. I'm making this post to hopefully help some of you who may have these problems or similair ones. Theres no way i can share my strength with any of you and you'd actually feel it. I've had a lot of problems with just imagining things that arent really happening in the past XD but i can give some advise. Through the countless times i contemplated death i always ended up getting through it all and finding comfort with mother and father. Lilith shows me that its not so bad and makes me feel all warm and cry :3, and Lord Enki gives me the spirit to carry on, stay strong, and go further beyond anyones expectations to improve myself. Lilith=Love and Satan=Strength for me in my worst of times. Don't get fooled by any enemy entities acting as they are one of our glorious Gods. I get how you could believe that, in certain circumstances i even made myself beleive that. I invited evil "creatures" into my life and mind before because i thought i had nothing left to loose, NOTE: please don't do that, it only hurts you whether it be imediately or it sticks on you if you dont clean your aura daily.
My tip to gaining the strength to carry on in any situation is to shape an ideal future in your mind NO MATTER HOW IMPOSSIBLE OR FANTASY IT MIGHT SEEM. You can get there in time, my NEAR future now is having no friends and working a job i don't like at all. Im not complaining either, DON'T think that you deserve less, don't act like something you know you isnt working for you is great in any way. Get what you want no matter what. Also, many others might have an amazing life and all these people who care about them, money, loads of free time etc. But you can obtain that all too sometime, and beyond. Only the ones who know what it is to suffer and take the long, hard road can have control of either side. To stop suffering, you must know suffering on any reasonable degree.
As im still mentaly growing as a young human i don't know the answers to every mental problem, but please atleast take some i said here into consideration. Talk to the Gods for help, even if you cant hear anything back try to open up your sensitivity to emotions and you can absorb thier will and thoughts, answers will come in time. PLEASE nobody kill yourself. "If your not dead yet, theres always a chance for a better future".
I'de be totally open to talking with any of you on here that would like a one on one chat, but im not sure how safe it is to give that information out on here even with all the communications RTRs done in the past *--*. If anyone can clarify me on that, much appriciated. May the Gods of humanity bless all of you. I hope only the best for you all. REMEMBER- Carry on though everything no matter how hard it will get, and face your problems head on. The great adolf Hitler wasnt a person who just accepted things he didnt like, he fought hard through them. Many of our Gods are stronger now and can help use more, but only with some help from you in return. Put some real power into those final RTRs. How fast you can do the RTR isnt a big factor if your trying to fucking speed run it and put weak power into it and mispronounce a looot of words. Take time with it, it'll only add on about 5 more minutes even with energy meditations. Gday to everyone and may you all stay strong in this storm of a war right now
- Miss Kien
