Re: dvice about my love working

[Daniel Botha]

My friendie, to me it seems like you're in a sexuality delema that you need to straight out by yourself. It seems to me that your family might not agree with your orientation but this is your life and you choose who you want and like.Why don't you ask Father to bring you a beautiful boy upon your way and judge for yourself whether its what you like and be with. There is no way to be scared of your sexuality and lifestyle. Except yourself as a gay young man and ask for what you want about them. You are a free loving person and you have no idea how much joy and love can come out of a same sex relationship. Keep on asking Father and see what he will do for you. Also don't start fucking around like some do for pleasure and money. Get into a loving partnership by asking Father. He will surely help you since he knows who you are and what you need and desire.- which is love.Good luck and I hope you find peace, love and the most beautiful one out there. They will be placed in your path.

On 2 Jul 2017 18:52, "decipimurspecierecti@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

  Greetings,

I'm a man and I thought I was straight. But for a few days now I've been seriously questionning that. I have started to be turned on by trans women and even some beautiful men. I came from a homophobic background before becoming SS (I became accepting after becoming SS tho). I'm pretty sure I had some repressed feelings from my background like when I was a child I loved cross dressing (even considered being a girl) but it wouldn't be fine in my family. Anyway It's kinda troubling for me now I guess. I'm still in my early twenties btw.

 I am also in the process of doing a gebo working (started 6 days ago). The affirmation is : "in a healthy and positive manner I am permanently attracting a female lover that is perfect for me in every regards". Now since I started this I kinda feel weird as I explained. I also regret putting in "female" lover maybe it won't be right for me in the long run ? Should I cut the word during my work ? is that gonna screw the whole thing ? Also my chart shows dispositions to hmm family life and being very nurturing and caring so Im kinda puzzled at the moment. I have tons of water and lack fire basically.

With straight women as a straight man (what I thought I was) my experiences were always a disaster so I kinda gave up on a sexual life I for years. When I say disaster its loosing or not having erections at all / not wanting to have sex / not being attracted by these women. I mean they were cute but... I don't know I kinda prefer cuddling or touching people I guess ? Maybe because Im on the empath side. Which also have always made me hate big crowds and especially stressed ones like exam crowds = I would feel dying whenever I entered one
I'm just confused atm. I focus myself on RTR and concrete stuff to not loose my mind I guess... because now I'm getting turned on by beautiful men, trans women and especilly big D's...