Question #664: Was I Pedophilia When I Was 11?

[AskSatanOperator]

Hello to all. I am a young 14 years old and I am a Spiritual Satanist from Turkey. I have a problem, a thought or an obsession I don't know but I feel so bad and I feel stress when I think it, I always ask myself: Am I Pedophilia or not? And I ask myself: Gods/ess will punish me due to that or not?

Because when I was 11, I wondered the child p*** and searched it in internet. But I didn't find any video because as you know these are illegal videos. When I was 11, I was thinking I will find the kids like me and enjoy watching them. Probably I wouldnt enjoy if the kids are very smaller than me, I would enjoy only 9-10-11 probably but I don't know I always ask a question like that to myself: "If I watched it when I am 11, would I enjoy 4-5-6 years old or not?. I am 14 now and I only find attractive 13-14 but rarely I find attractive 11-12 years old. Under 11 is impossible to find attractive for me. By the way, I don't watch that disgusting jewish pornography anymore. I know harms of porn.

I am asking to you, am I pedophilia? Probably, I am not but that problem is an obsession in my brain. I believe, you will help to me to end that fucking obsession or a fucking thought.

Stay with Father Satan, and always thanks to the Father Satan. He knows I am not a pedophilia but I can't be sure than that due to that I ask to you. Hail Satan!

 

[Sokar]

A pedophile is a fully grown adult who is attracted to children. You were not an adult 3 years ago, and you are not an adult now. Children being attracted to other children of the same age or a couple of years younger is pretty normal. The same with teenagers being attracted to eachother. If 6-7 years later you find that you are attracted to 11 year olds it means that there is something wrong with you, probably a spiritual imbalance which you will need to fix by working on it. But not now, it is pretty normal.

 

[Gaiseric]

Cleanse yourself, do aura of protection and do a lot of meditation on yourself and your emotions around this topic. Your feelings about this are irrational, as you can tell, and so you need to fully understand it to be able to dismiss it.

I assure you, you aren't a pedophile, so don't worry about that. Continue on with your advancement and remember that you are strong.

 

[Aquarius]

Eh, I'm writing this just so that you can understand that this kind of thing may happen. When I was a kid I did search for teenagers online instead of adults, I'm not gonna write what I searched because that may not be suitable to a public forum, but I did do that. The problem would be doing that when you're an adult.

 

[Rroco88]

As the others have said, you cannot be considered a pedophile. But I wanna add something, and that is: do not watch porn because it is detrimental to your brain. Neither with adults or with teenagers. It is bad for you and can create sexual problems later.