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Gear88 said:
You have written a lot, but I will try to give some sort of response.
I think the point is that it doesn't matter right now exactly what mental problem you have, but just that it is a matter of grounding and trying to maintain it whilst alternative and spiritual solutions can be sought.
Although these medicines have problems and I would urge you to seek alternatives, I cannot be the one to advise you to go off them, as it could worsen your stability.
Lots of work should go to your base and lower chakras, plus physical exercise. Nauthiz should be used for a long time to strengthen this, both for grounding against schizophrenia, but also impatience and other yin-deficient symptoms.
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Meditation is about self-improvement and getting away from the types of suffering you and everyone has to deal with. So it is a matter of doing it and prospering, or not. Yes, this path is difficult, but not without fruit either, nor does it need to be 100% perfect or guided either.
The Gods have to prioritize their time and energy, and in that sense what you are doing is likely "good enough", and doesn't need to be perfect. You cannot let mental rigidity or frustration outweigh at least completing something, even if perfect.
The same similar principle applies to astrology reading, where you can get decent assessments, although it will never be perfect within all contexts. However, you combine this with your observations and you should start to get "good enough" conclusions.
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Remember that impatience = lack of yin, which is why you should use Nauthiz whenever you cite impatience or an inability to work.
Furthermore, remember that depression = lack of fire, so that is why you should be exercising, of all people, and why I highly disagree with what your friend said.
You are letting your emotions start to warp your perceptions of reality, which is understandable, but recognize that it is making you create depressing and ultimately false conclusions.
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If you have low earth, or untrained spiritual abilities, combined with low energy from not doing your meditations, then this puts you in a difficult situation and leads you to make these harsh judgements.
It is like having a character at level 1 and complaining that all the level 10 activities are too hard. Yet, if you consistently tried to do void meditation, and you consistently used Nauthiz, or you cleaned your soul to a significant extent, then most things would be easier to you. Now you would be at "level 4" and have an easier time.
That is a major point within life, which is that training and growth makes things easier, and you can furthermore use energy to make yourself actually enjoy your training, or to feel happy constantly, rather than just sometimes or not at all. For example, why are you not chanting Wunjo, or doing the breath of fire, as soon as you feel bad like this?
It is ok to rant, but you are letting yourself slip into these depressing conundrums and this snowballs your situation into something worse. You have to realize that this only makes things worse, and nobody can help you if you are basically insistent on smashing your head into a wall, and making up reasons why you should continue.
Yes, things are difficult, but there are many tools available to you, despite the obstacles you have listed here. You can complain that it might be difficult, or would take time to fix, but it is not impossible.
You had success with your previous meditations, so this should restart this, regardless of whether you had to stop because of frustrations.