Regarding this topic.
Sometimes I feel too far gone towards any of this. Especially due to multiple Saturnian current transits that kills vitality and libido.
But other than that. There seems for me no possibility to enjoy sex in a muslim environment. Only way I can have a female partner and sex that won't give us both ptsd is marriage only. Girls don't want sex before marriage either. That can be punishable by death easily or hatred, bullying, blackmail. They also think its immoral and the worst sin a human being can do and they don't deserve to live if they do it.
When female touching a male's hand is considered a sin and many females here don't shake hands. Then sex... no way lol.
I think the only way I can have some freedom regarding this is by travelling far away. Which would take years, money, skill and effort. I am ambitious and want to travel one day.
But right now my sexual life is no different than taking a piss and squeezing a worthless one out with disgusting porn.
Especially since I have such shit karma, trauma, experiences towards relationships and the environment and the women are all the same. All of them have multiple disorders, trust issues, negative experiences and trauma. Avoiding it all is perfect (Not really but what other choice do I have...) for me rn. And it's not like there's anyone interesting to begin with.
I need healing, advancing, money, moving, and much more. For now there's no option but worthless porn it seems. My "organs" so desentisized they don't feel like they exist. I don't want them too either. Having a boner is more of a burden than anything else these days.
Sad thing that's the whole generation. They even have cruel guilt and pisslamic drive denial on top of it.