Wow I didn't think this topic would be approved I was beginning to lose hope, but pretty unhelpful answers to me unfortunately. I'm not going to do the rtr for various reasons and also doing a ritual that would effect things on a global scale would not channel this, something more local that I could see I caused and enjoy would work. Perhaps using the Hagl or Thurisaz rune but of course I have to separate energy from myself, but thanks for at least suggesting a spiritual solution Dahaarkhan. To Soaring Eagle 666 I don't want to waste time on any forum I was looking for spiritual solution. Yes I am speaking to the gods about this and my partner but I hoped I could get something here.
Also mods I know its supposed to be anonymous but I am fine with revealing it is me.