AskSatanOperator
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My mother and father were never christians, and for this reason I had no attachment to god. But through my sister's influence, I came to know religion. I started to get attached to it, and actually believed what they said about it (or almost everything), and felt good things coming from somewhere.
But when I met JOS, through someone's influence, I started to review and question everything I had been told about him for a long time, open to new things and especially to JOS. I realized the countless errors that the christian religion had, but each time I studied, the more lost and anxious I felt, because something always called me to return to god and said that I was doing wrong and would regret the rest of my life. There is always something pulling me back and telling me how wrong I am.
I have had some positive experiences and feel like going deep, but this fear and horrible feeling always haunts me. Maybe because of the christian influence around me, I allow myself to take their opinions. Because I am a newbie, I was also afraid to say this publicly. I really want to give myself, Satanas and his demons a chance, but I don't know how to get this heavy feeling out of me, and I want to move on without any fear. How can I stop feeling that I am making mistakes all the time?
But when I met JOS, through someone's influence, I started to review and question everything I had been told about him for a long time, open to new things and especially to JOS. I realized the countless errors that the christian religion had, but each time I studied, the more lost and anxious I felt, because something always called me to return to god and said that I was doing wrong and would regret the rest of my life. There is always something pulling me back and telling me how wrong I am.
I have had some positive experiences and feel like going deep, but this fear and horrible feeling always haunts me. Maybe because of the christian influence around me, I allow myself to take their opinions. Because I am a newbie, I was also afraid to say this publicly. I really want to give myself, Satanas and his demons a chance, but I don't know how to get this heavy feeling out of me, and I want to move on without any fear. How can I stop feeling that I am making mistakes all the time?