Question #1745: Suicide

[Egon]

Stop caring about the opinion of people, it is not worthy reincarnating, forgetting everything you know that could help you, and reliving the same karma. Care about yourself and fixing yourself with meditation in THIS life:

Deep Cleaning: https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=57615

Soul cleaning page and also check the Returning Curses part at the bottom: https://www.joyofsatan.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Aura_Cleaning.html

The Ritual for Abrasax may help with getting your thoughts together: https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=24&t=76092

The Ritual for Valefor has to do with healing energies: https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=77132

You can try this yoga session with mantras but instead of the given mantras, do Suryae for each chakra and the aura: https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=227&p=97721#p97721
(Suggention: 12 for each chakra then 27 on the aura, as this sums up to the 111 of the Sun)

 

[Epiphany]

The problem is, the people around you only understand when you're dead . Then they go "why didn't s/he tell it to us" no shit when we tell it to the people around us, they proceed to ignore or downplay it... They only realize the full length and importance after the person is dead, when there cannot be nothing done. It is a sad paradox which I am going through. Besides, my gd hasn't even shown him/herself yet for some reason. How can we make them realize?

I know what you're saying. This is normal for the headspace you're in, and not fully appreciating things until their absence is part of human nature.

If you feel like you aren't understood, you may need to work on your throat chakra. At the same time, there are some things that are too personal to be understood by others, especially if you have a deep inner world. It's hard but you do eventually come to understand and accept that the inner world and the outer world can't come completely together, and you learn to live with certain boundaries.

 

[ΆΡΗΣ ΠΟΛΥΜΑΧΟΣ]

It is not about the people around you, it is about yourself. Look out for yourself first, your evolution.
You have to center yourself and find a somewhat independent way of dealing with others.

Others may seem to have better and happier lives and circumstances than us, but it is mostly an illusion,
don't forget that most people love show and fakeness.