Mychal Wells
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--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Mychal Wells <mychal_d0h3rty@... wrote:
I'm starting to get worried here. Nothing works for me. I don't feel anything. I have tried the opening of the third eye; I didn't feel a thing, I did the vibration thing for four consecutive days in a row and then tried to meditate (I don't even know if I'm doing that right) on it to get it going, but I never felt anything. Not so much as a thrum.
I did the dedication ritual, and I know that some say they felt some good vibes afterwards, but I didn't feel anything, not even a chill. And recently I tried the summoning ritual, as expected, nada. And I tried, really, I did. I did the ritual five times in a row, just to try and be sure that it wasn't for a lack of trying.
I am, so, tired of not getting this. I want to get it, dammit. I want to be able to feel and see the things that I read about on here, but it seems like nothing can go right for me. I have a dead-end job, I'm trying to go to school at the same time and debt is pilling up on me. My grandfather is practically on his death bed; my mothers health is spiralling out of control. Why?.....Why can't I get this?
I've read pretty much all the information on the JOS website. I made sure to read it thuroughly to make sure I didn't miss anything when doing these rituals, and meditations. Maybe my problem is visualization. I'm telling you, I couldn't visualize a dot to save my life, let alone a complicated sigil. Is that what my problem is?
And going into a trance? Forget it! I tried, but again, If I can't visualize a dot, then I surely can't visualize a sigil, and if I can't visualize a sigil, then what on earth would make anybody believe that I could visualize, MYSELF, climbing down a ladder? Or even a feather floating through the air? I want to be good at this, I want to advance. But it feels like everything is against me.
Please, I'm begging here. Someone, anyone, your information would be greatly appreciated.
Hail Satan
--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Mychal Wells <mychal_d0h3rty@... wrote:
I'm starting to get worried here. Nothing works for me. I don't feel anything. I have tried the opening of the third eye; I didn't feel a thing, I did the vibration thing for four consecutive days in a row and then tried to meditate (I don't even know if I'm doing that right) on it to get it going, but I never felt anything. Not so much as a thrum.
I did the dedication ritual, and I know that some say they felt some good vibes afterwards, but I didn't feel anything, not even a chill. And recently I tried the summoning ritual, as expected, nada. And I tried, really, I did. I did the ritual five times in a row, just to try and be sure that it wasn't for a lack of trying.
I am, so, tired of not getting this. I want to get it, dammit. I want to be able to feel and see the things that I read about on here, but it seems like nothing can go right for me. I have a dead-end job, I'm trying to go to school at the same time and debt is pilling up on me. My grandfather is practically on his death bed; my mothers health is spiralling out of control. Why?.....Why can't I get this?
I've read pretty much all the information on the JOS website. I made sure to read it thuroughly to make sure I didn't miss anything when doing these rituals, and meditations. Maybe my problem is visualization. I'm telling you, I couldn't visualize a dot to save my life, let alone a complicated sigil. Is that what my problem is?
And going into a trance? Forget it! I tried, but again, If I can't visualize a dot, then I surely can't visualize a sigil, and if I can't visualize a sigil, then what on earth would make anybody believe that I could visualize, MYSELF, climbing down a ladder? Or even a feather floating through the air? I want to be good at this, I want to advance. But it feels like everything is against me.
Please, I'm begging here. Someone, anyone, your information would be greatly appreciated.
Hail Satan
From: Mychal Wells <mychal_d0h3rty@...
To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]
Sent: Wednesday, January 18, 2012 10:21 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Please someone answer
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--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Mychal Wells <mychal_d0h3rty@... wrote:
I'm starting to get worried here. Nothing works for me. I don't feel anything. I have tried the opening of the third eye; I didn't feel a thing, I did the vibration thing for four consecutive days in a row and then tried to meditate (I don't even know if I'm doing that right) on it to get it going, but I never felt anything. Not so much as a thrum.
I did the dedication ritual, and I know that some say they felt some good vibes afterwards, but I didn't feel anything, not even a chill. And recently I tried the summoning ritual, as expected, nada. And I tried, really, I did. I did the ritual five times in a row, just to try and be sure that it wasn't for a lack of trying.
I am, so, tired of not getting this. I want to get it, dammit. I want to be able to feel and see the things that I read about on here, but it seems like nothing can go right for me. I have a dead-end job, I'm trying to go to school at the same time and debt is pilling up on me. My grandfather is practically on his death bed; my mothers health is spiralling out of control. Why?.....Why can't I get this?
I've read pretty much all the information on the JOS website. I made sure to read it thuroughly to make sure I didn't miss anything when doing these rituals, and meditations. Maybe my problem is visualization. I'm telling you, I couldn't visualize a dot to save my life, let alone a complicated sigil. Is that what my problem is?
And going into a trance? Forget it! I tried, but again, If I can't visualize a dot, then I surely can't visualize a sigil, and if I can't visualize a sigil, then what on earth would make anybody believe that I could visualize, MYSELF, climbing down a ladder? Or even a feather floating through the air? I want to be good at this, I want to advance. But it feels like everything is against me.
Please, I'm begging here. Someone, anyone, your information would be greatly appreciated.
Hail Satan
"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Shaitan