PLEASE HELP ME..

[Tody666]

It doesn't take much cleverness to know that you are deep in shit...

Yes I know. I'm very thankful that you made reply mercury. I know what I need to do.. honestly at this point it's mind vs soul. Because my soul WANTS,NEEDS AND CRAVES food (meditations). But my mind is still playing tricks on my one day this one day that and here I'm again at the point 0. I don't mind to start over.. it's just makes my angry after everything I've build up lost in 1 month period... but that okay I will make it, I will prove to myself that I really can make this right and reach my full potential in this lifetime..

To reply slyscorpion it's not like xian bullshit but I don't know I just start imagine how would father feel if he came into room and see his son doing lines of cocaine for example.. it would crush his heart to see that and etc. So after I do "things" I start imagine how somebody from my GD or something watching me from the side and see me doing these things and I'm very intuitive and emotional person so when I imagine this I just become even more sad.. But I think I need to stop doing that and focus on what needs to be done and when time comes I will talk with GD or something what happend back then and analize it together..

But thank you for any future reply's and help..

HS.

 

[Head Guardian Blitzkreig]

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If you really want to focus your efforts:

Do Sun square for transmuting natal Neptune energies, start Munka this 23rd specifically for drugs, drinking, and porn.
Then, on a Capricorn moon, start a Nauthiz working for discipline, consistency, and endurance. You can program this towards your schedule, or against any vices. Daily void is also crucial here.

You were clean before, you can do it again. This time, you follow it up with Munka to permanently destroy and remove this behavior from your soul. This Munka needs to be continued at least 90 days, possibly more.
Additionally, Sun energy transmuting your Natal Neptune will make it so it doesn't express through drugs, but through positive things like meditation.

You have to be persistent in these workings, as your karma will try to work against you. That is probably what happened with the Ansuz working. This is where discipline comes into play. Also, do as much in your favor as you can. Get away from the degenerate city, delete all drug contacts, get into a support group, improve your health so you don't feel as bad and relapse, etc.

You can do it, but you have perseverance in your efforts here. Don't worry about the last Ansuz working or whatever. Start again, and this time you will get a full 40 day working in, at least.

 

[Head Guardian Blitzkreig]

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Just to emphasize: This repetitive relapse you experienced is the nature of karma. Therefore, you have to be doing tons and tons of Munka to remove this from you forever. Your situation is not hopeless; you were clean for long enough to crank out multiple Munka workings, therefore you can certainly beat this problem.

Date:
This 23rd has the moon waning in Pisces, perfect for ending shit karma.
Plan a big Munka working for then, for example 90x or 216x Munka, whatever you can handle.

Affirmation:
"The energy of Munka has now and permanently completely removed any desires, influences, or negative karma associated with drug use, drinking, negative sexual expression, and any and all other self-destructive or escapist tendencies. This energy works in a manner that is completely healthy and positive for me." (x9)

Visualizations: The white-silver energy of Munka moving through you and purifying you.
Visualize something symbolic for each of these: drugs, drinking, negative sexual expression, and the self-destruction/escapism being destroyed. Perhaps 4 big weights falling off your body and then crumbling into dust and disappearing.
Then, visualize yourself as completely white and finally clean and free. Also smile while visualizing this, knowing you are successful and in a much better place then before.

Feel free to modify the affirmation based on how you are most comfortable. Just make sure to hit the key points of addressing each negative item, and doing so in its entirety, as well as in a positive manner.

 

[Tody666]

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Just to emphasize: This repetitive relapse you experienced is the nature of karma. Therefore, you have to be doing tons and tons of Munka to remove this from you forever. Your situation is not hopeless; you were clean for long enough to crank out multiple Munka workings, therefore you can certainly beat this problem.

Date:
This 23rd has the moon waning in Pisces, perfect for ending shit karma.
Plan a big Munka working for then, for example 90x or 216x Munka, whatever you can handle.

Affirmation:
"The energy of Munka has now and permanently completely removed any desires, influences, or negative karma associated with drug use, drinking, negative sexual expression, and any and all other self-destructive or escapist tendencies. This energy works in a manner that is completely healthy and positive for me." (x9)

Visualizations: The white-silver energy of Munka moving through you and purifying you.
Visualize something symbolic for each of these: drugs, drinking, negative sexual expression, and the self-destruction/escapism being destroyed. Perhaps 4 big weights falling off your body and then crumbling into dust and disappearing.
Then, visualize yourself as completely white and finally clean and free. Also smile while visualizing this, knowing you are successful and in a much better place then before.

Feel free to modify the affirmation based on how you are most comfortable. Just make sure to hit the key points of addressing each negative item, and doing so in its entirety, as well as in a positive manner.

THANK YOU!
I will see about 90x rep. Maybe 40x Because when I started Ansuz working I only manage to do 27x with all other stuff like aop,Ritual,yoga and so on.. But now I started with 18x for atleast 40 days.. okay I will search how to do munka thing. and also I've made note in my calander on 2022 august 16. to write how my life changed in one year after making my soul free or atleast very close to that..

I love you all and I'm very thankful for your kind words and help..... I hope we will meet all Zevism one day and talk about everything like literally everything....

 

[Head Guardian Blitzkreig]

THANK YOU!
I will see about 90x rep. Maybe 40x Because when I started Ansuz working I only manage to do 27x with all other stuff like aop,Ritual,yoga and so on.. But now I started with 18x for atleast 40 days.. okay I will search how to do munka thing. and also I've made note in my calander on 2022 august 16. to write how my life changed in one year after making my soul free or atleast very close to that..

I love you all and I'm very thankful for your kind words and help..... I hope we will meet all Zevism one day and talk about everything like literally everything....

No problem.

It should be clear now that solving this karma is the foremost obstacle to your advancement, therefore you should do as much as you can handle in regards to the reps of the energy. You should cut back on your routine where possible to allow for this, and do the Munka as the first item on your routine.

Munka relates to the moon, and is pronounced MOOON-YAH-KKKAAH.

Of course we will all meet, eventually. We have to win our fight first, of course.

 

[Rational Satanist]

Munka relates to the moon, and is pronounced MOOON-YAH-KKKAAH.

No, because Munka is Sanskrit and the Moon in Sanskrit is Chandra.

 

[Head Guardian Blitzkreig]

Munka relates to the moon, and is pronounced MOOON-YAH-KKKAAH.

No, because Munka is Sanskrit and the Moon in Sanskrit is Chandra.

Ahh ok. I think I found the answer then. Munka is the imperative form of the word Muncati, meaning something like remove, release, give up.

Source thread: https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?t=12361
Source article: https://www.wisdomlib.org/definition/muncati