Other Please, help me find my way back...

Hello,

Yet, I can’t shake the feeling that I’m already too late and that I’ll never be able to turn things around. My lack of motivation and anxiety about the future are eating me alive.

If you feel you are late now, imagine how will you feel when it is tomorrow and even later. It is a horrible feeling, I know, but time will pass regardless of what you do or don't.

I can’t feel the presence of the gods

Keep inviting them to your life and actually create room in your life that their presence can manifest. By this I mean, you can't ask something and wait for answer, you need to take action after petitioning for their presence.

The Gods don't judge you like that, nor you'll be disabled to connect to them, by them. It's only on you. Those who are not aligned with the Gods, who haven't created a vessel, a condition where connection with the Gods is possible, and they are not reaching for the Gods, than they can't. It's simply as physical laws.

That means, if you actually sculp yourself so that the Gods may dwell in you, and you invite them, then they will. If you don't, they won't, because they can't, yet they still want you to sculp yourself, not for their own good but because of yours.

This explains thoroughly how to connect with the Gods.

I'm pretty sure you are just experiencing a temporary setback and bad mood, and your emotions over exaggerate it. You are fine. Trust me. More than fine here.

Start small, start meditating, start doing some God rituals, perhaps participate in the ritual schedules. Very detailed guides on these are on the ToZ website.

Good luck, and don't forget, if you do the walking you have nothing to fear.

No one is angry. And no time for this, because you have to start walking the path. So. Here study and learn what to do:

Hello, brother. (Or sister)

We’ve all been there at some point. It’s okay to feel this way, it happens.

However it’s not okay to stay this way.

You might be young and keep oscillating between on and off.

However life will be merciless if you stay like this. You’ll find yourself 30-40 having to start again. Lots of lost opportunities, lots of stolen years.

Saturn will also mercilessly punish you, you’ll be put in situations where you need money but don’t have none, end up with lots of humiliation.

You need spiritual power but you’re powerless. You’ll think the Gods have left you, when in fact you’ve left The Gods…

If you meet a girl (for example) you love you’ll be completely powerless and have no value.

Your ambition will torture you. Your big dreams will destroy your psyche if you don’t act on them. You’ll see people moving ahead and you staying the same becoming more and more of a loser. You’ll be petty, envious, and negative.

So lock in, focus, start a routine. Take it step by step. You don’t need to be perfect immediately and let go of all or nothing mindset this is most important. Get better by 1-10% in areas of your choice daily. By a year you’ll be completely unrecognizable.

Start with the lightest pace on the beginner program here. Keep consistent and level up in a year.

Also, don’t let your ambitions and dreams be dreams! Turn them into reality. Start a business, a job save money make money. Hit the gym and MOVE. Take a step daily. No Zero Days. Don’t allow a day where you get no win from it no spiritual, physical, financial win is not allowed.

You’re not too late. The best time to start planting your tree was 10 years ago. The second best time is today! Tonight! Get started, don’t get motivated. Get started.

The best time to plant a tree was yesterday. The second best time is today.

Forgive yourself for your past, for you didn't know better, and the Gods are aware of this. And make efforts for your present, to make Them proud now, because They are surely not angry at you, but waiting for you to get back on track.

You can start doing that by sticking to meditation. Even if you start with 10-15 minutes a day for now. Get rid of any addiction you might have - here also counts social media addiction - and of things that are damaging to you, like extended seated periods, etc.

With these 2, you're already many steps ahead. The rest will come on its own. Many people already know, or they have an idea, of what they have to do, they just need confirmation or a little push.

You can come any time to ask for help on the forums and people will be here and will help you kindly with any questions you have.

May your spirit flow with ease like the rivers finding the sea of the Gods and the cosmic order.

First of all, welcome back.

I know personally when I would experience the feeling of disconnection it was always personal, usually do to programming of prior religious backgrounds. Many of these programs are built on guilt, and shame where the price to pay for transgression is ridicule, hate, the fear of being an outcast, or worse. HPZM mentions in many articles about the gods never abandoning us. They always want to see us do well.

One of the most beautiful things about our path is we have true freedom, the freedom to fail, the freedom to try again, the freedom to apply the knowledge we are offered with wisdom, or not. In all cases of action, whether it be transgression or not, there is natural consequence. Every action has a natural balancing act but this is to keep cosmic order not to punish.

A parent who sees their child fall into a path of substance abuse usually doesn’t say, “my kid is no longer worthy of my love” but rather, they hope to see them do better. They hope to see them want better for themselves, to treat their body with respect and nourish it properly.

Shifting your perspective to understanding you have not been left, but you simply looked the other way when told the stove is hot. It burns over there, you touched it and it hurt. Plain and simple. You have perspective.

With the amazing work our Clergy has done to update the ToZ website, it’s easier than ever to understand where we have gaps in our routine and find a good starting point.

Have an honest conversation with yourself, don’t swear or pledge an oath. Just give yourself the honest reflection you deserve to move on.

Have a reflection every day, be honest and move on. Don’t dwell, see what needs improving, like a system, replace what isn’t working and keep going.

You’ve got this, welcome home. We’re all here to help.

I think you're being far too hard on yourself. You've recognised your mistakes, taken responsibility and tried to make amends. At some point, you also need to allow yourself to move forward... don't be so hard on yourself.

I wouldn't assume the Gods are angry with you simply because you can no longer feel Their presence. Especially when you're struggling with anxiety and guilt, your own state of mind can affect how you experience the Gods. It's more a situation that you're closed to the Divine, not the other way around.

If I were in your position, I'd start by rebuilding some consistency. Start meditating again, praying to the Gods, even if you feel nothing at first. You can begin with the First Steps in Zevism, which offers a gradual approach to reconnecting with the Gods.

Regarding your career and studies, choose one problem you can realistically address soon, and work on it. Don't try to do everything at once. If you can't see the entire path ahead of you, try to figure out your next step only and don't measure your future against everything that went wrong in the past, you cannot let one bad moment of your life define who you are. You still have years ahead of you, and your present circumstances do not determine what you'll accomplish.

Motivation often comes after we begin taking action, rather than before. So don't wait until you feel ready to start making changes.

May the Gods guide you and give you strength!

About forgiveness:

If you'realive and breathing, its not too late. The Gods love you, they want the very best for you, always. Never forget that. Regardless of your emotions, thats an unwavering enduring TRUTH.

Just get back on track, one day at a time. Sounds like you already now what to do. Dwelling on the past and worrying help no one. Clean your aura, chakra work, yoga to move that negative energy out....etc.

Are you an initiate? Know who your Guardian is, and consult with them regularly? Meditate daily? Participate in God Rituals and other activities available on vultustemplorum.org spiritual room?

The upgrades to the temple of Zeus site recently are absolutely amazing, in such an easy to follow format, too! Just start from the beginning...back to basics, build up.

You got this, today is a new day 💪

You're never too late in this path. Don't deny yourself growth. Every achievement is carried over through lifetimes.

The Gods do not get angry like humans do. They will welcome you back always, if your heart is in the right place, which seems like it is by how you speak.

People have already given you the advice needed. Follow the new basic meditation program, step by step rebuild a routine, a small effort each day growing stronger and stronger.