Please can someone respond. I need some guidance.

[bermudezalejandro66]

I'm a 17-year-old boy in the foster system. I'm just a bit scared of my future. Not so sure on what I'm going to do once I'm 18. I just want some help or some motivation and some proof of our Fathers existence. The next paragraph is me just telling anyone who will read a bit about myself and how I got here. Not really important to what I'm here for. Last paragraph is my restating my question.

Me, I was born into a catholic family. Lucky for me my parents and siblings aren't very strong Catholics. I can't recall as to why i first took and interest in Satan but I can remember as to why my interest in satanism stayed. I remember me being on stick looking through some girls profile and she had a link to a Myspace profile. I was pretty horny that night so i clicked on it out of curiosity. Once i was redirected to the site, the images and color just caught my interest for some reason. I'm not too positive but my "interest" was probably a rebellion thing towards my parents. Not to make my situation sound bad but I am in the system because of them and it has it's benefits and detriments. Aside from that, the days that follow I was googleing satanic stuff. Most of it being about death gore, the side most people believe satanism to be. Teens4Satan came up on the search results, so I clicked it hoping for find some more dark false crap. I remember first reading it, "Your interest in Satan is a positive thing.", really caught my interest. As i went on to reading into it, this sentence, "Most of what you have probably heard about him from non-Satanic sources are from his enemies and people who hate him for no real reason, other than this is what they were taught to believe." opened my eyes in ways that are just beneficial for oneself. That line, sentence is what kept me in. Years past on and I just want to say the important details that i feel in some way, my prayer was answered. I recall there being days I pray to Father for him to take me away from my family. The purpose of that was so i can feel pain, darkness, and anger, the false side of satanism. Well, sure enough, i was taken away from my family and that was a life saving event. My family was just heading south and so was I. I needed some structure, a healthy environment and relationships. Now it's just me making my situation worse than it has to be. I'm getting a free ride for college. Me being in the system, there were nights i prayed, prayed for saving. The sudden change of being taken away, living styles, and being asked so many questions that had to be heard wasn't too shocking at first. But I got worse over time. Anyway...

I just want to rap this up and say I have my doubts about Satan. I'm sorry but, that sentence I put earlier in the paragraph above about it opening my mind. Well, that sentence makes me have doubts about Satan. I just question Teens4Satan and how factual it is. I really want some help and I'm not trying to put pressure or trying to make someone sound like the bad guy but, Father Satan, if He is our father, can you help me?

 

[the_fire_starter666]

You should read the joyofsatan.org page, and work on advancing yourself. Satanism is not about depending on Satan, nor is Satan a genie, he's our teacher. He gives us spiritual techniques and ways to empower our souls. If you do power meditation every day, and do other workings to solve your problems, you'll be fine. That's it. Now whether Satan will show to you astrally, it's totally dependent on how Spiritually open you are and how much you've been meditating.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "bermudezalejandro66" <bermudeza956@... wrote:

I'm a 17-year-old boy in the foster system. I'm just a bit scared of my future. Not so sure on what I'm going to do once I'm 18. I just want some help or some motivation and some proof of our Fathers existence. The next paragraph is me just telling anyone who will read a bit about myself and how I got here. Not really important to what I'm here for. Last paragraph is my restating my question.

Me, I was born into a catholic family. Lucky for me my parents and siblings aren't very strong Catholics. I can't recall as to why i first took and interest in Satan but I can remember as to why my interest in satanism stayed. I remember me being on stick looking through some girls profile and she had a link to a Myspace profile. I was pretty horny that night so i clicked on it out of curiosity. Once i was redirected to the site, the images and color just caught my interest for some reason. I'm not too positive but my "interest" was probably a rebellion thing towards my parents. Not to make my situation sound bad but I am in the system because of them and it has it's benefits and detriments. Aside from that, the days that follow I was googleing satanic stuff. Most of it being about death gore, the side most people believe satanism to be. Teens4Satan came up on the search results, so I clicked it hoping for find some more dark false crap. I remember first reading it, "Your interest in Satan is a positive thing.", really caught my interest. As i went on to reading into it, this sentence, "Most of what you have probably heard about him from non-Satanic sources are from his enemies and people who hate him for no real reason, other than this is what they were taught to believe." opened my eyes in ways that are just beneficial for oneself. That line, sentence is what kept me in. Years past on and I just want to say the important details that i feel in some way, my prayer was answered. I recall there being days I pray to Father for him to take me away from my family. The purpose of that was so i can feel pain, darkness, and anger, the false side of satanism. Well, sure enough, i was taken away from my family and that was a life saving event. My family was just heading south and so was I. I needed some structure, a healthy environment and relationships. Now it's just me making my situation worse than it has to be. I'm getting a free ride for college. Me being in the system, there were nights i prayed, prayed for saving. The sudden change of being taken away, living styles, and being asked so many questions that had to be heard wasn't too shocking at first. But I got worse over time. Anyway...

I just want to rap this up and say I have my doubts about Satan. I'm sorry but, that sentence I put earlier in the paragraph above about it opening my mind. Well, that sentence makes me have doubts about Satan. I just question Teens4Satan and how factual it is. I really want some help and I'm not trying to put pressure or trying to make someone sound like the bad guy but, Father Satan, if He is our father, can you help me?

 

[the_fire_starter666]

"I'm not trying to put pressure or trying to make someone sound like the bad guy"

Oh but that's what you're doing. Think about it, you're not even dedicated, you are not even a Satanist, and you want Enki to instantly help you in a genie-like way. Why should he do that? I would be offended too if you asked this from me. It's been mentioned that Enki helps his disciples only, not everyone, and that the way he helps people is different than what you think. He doesn't do things for us, but teaches us how to use our powers to improve our lives. He does help us in life and death problems that can get us killed, but he expects us to handle all other problems we can take care of on our own. Depending on Satan to babysit you all the time is XIAN, not Satanic.

Not to mention that you never mentioned what you need help with. You mentioned no real problem.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "the_fire_starter666" <the_fire_starter666@... wrote:

You should read the joyofsatan.org page, and work on advancing yourself. Satanism is not about depending on Satan, nor is Satan a genie, he's our teacher. He gives us spiritual techniques and ways to empower our souls. If you do power meditation every day, and do other workings to solve your problems, you'll be fine. That's it. Now whether Satan will show to you astrally, it's totally dependent on how Spiritually open you are and how much you've been meditating.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "bermudezalejandro66" <bermudeza956@ wrote:

I'm a 17-year-old boy in the foster system. I'm just a bit scared of my future. Not so sure on what I'm going to do once I'm 18. I just want some help or some motivation and some proof of our Fathers existence. The next paragraph is me just telling anyone who will read a bit about myself and how I got here. Not really important to what I'm here for. Last paragraph is my restating my question.

Me, I was born into a catholic family. Lucky for me my parents and siblings aren't very strong Catholics. I can't recall as to why i first took and interest in Satan but I can remember as to why my interest in satanism stayed. I remember me being on stick looking through some girls profile and she had a link to a Myspace profile. I was pretty horny that night so i clicked on it out of curiosity. Once i was redirected to the site, the images and color just caught my interest for some reason. I'm not too positive but my "interest" was probably a rebellion thing towards my parents. Not to make my situation sound bad but I am in the system because of them and it has it's benefits and detriments. Aside from that, the days that follow I was googleing satanic stuff. Most of it being about death gore, the side most people believe satanism to be. Teens4Satan came up on the search results, so I clicked it hoping for find some more dark false crap. I remember first reading it, "Your interest in Satan is a positive thing.", really caught my interest. As i went on to reading into it, this sentence, "Most of what you have probably heard about him from non-Satanic sources are from his enemies and people who hate him for no real reason, other than this is what they were taught to believe." opened my eyes in ways that are just beneficial for oneself. That line, sentence is what kept me in. Years past on and I just want to say the important details that i feel in some way, my prayer was answered. I recall there being days I pray to Father for him to take me away from my family. The purpose of that was so i can feel pain, darkness, and anger, the false side of satanism. Well, sure enough, i was taken away from my family and that was a life saving event. My family was just heading south and so was I. I needed some structure, a healthy environment and relationships. Now it's just me making my situation worse than it has to be. I'm getting a free ride for college. Me being in the system, there were nights i prayed, prayed for saving. The sudden change of being taken away, living styles, and being asked so many questions that had to be heard wasn't too shocking at first. But I got worse over time. Anyway...

I just want to rap this up and say I have my doubts about Satan. I'm sorry but, that sentence I put earlier in the paragraph above about it opening my mind. Well, that sentence makes me have doubts about Satan. I just question Teens4Satan and how factual it is. I really want some help and I'm not trying to put pressure or trying to make someone sound like the bad guy but, Father Satan, if He is our father, can you help me?

 

[bermudezalejandro66]

Appreciate the response. I'm just lost in what to believe.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "the_fire_starter666" <the_fire_starter666@... wrote:

"I'm not trying to put pressure or trying to make someone sound like the bad guy"

Oh but that's what you're doing. Think about it, you're not even dedicated, you are not even a Satanist, and you want Enki to instantly help you in a genie-like way. Why should he do that? I would be offended too if you asked this from me. It's been mentioned that Enki helps his disciples only, not everyone, and that the way he helps people is different than what you think. He doesn't do things for us, but teaches us how to use our powers to improve our lives. He does help us in life and death problems that can get us killed, but he expects us to handle all other problems we can take care of on our own. Depending on Satan to babysit you all the time is XIAN, not Satanic.

Not to mention that you never mentioned what you need help with. You mentioned no real problem.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "the_fire_starter666" <the_fire_starter666@ wrote:

You should read the joyofsatan.org page, and work on advancing yourself. Satanism is not about depending on Satan, nor is Satan a genie, he's our teacher. He gives us spiritual techniques and ways to empower our souls. If you do power meditation every day, and do other workings to solve your problems, you'll be fine. That's it. Now whether Satan will show to you astrally, it's totally dependent on how Spiritually open you are and how much you've been meditating.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "bermudezalejandro66" <bermudeza956@ wrote:

I'm a 17-year-old boy in the foster system. I'm just a bit scared of my future. Not so sure on what I'm going to do once I'm 18. I just want some help or some motivation and some proof of our Fathers existence. The next paragraph is me just telling anyone who will read a bit about myself and how I got here. Not really important to what I'm here for. Last paragraph is my restating my question.

Me, I was born into a catholic family. Lucky for me my parents and siblings aren't very strong Catholics. I can't recall as to why i first took and interest in Satan but I can remember as to why my interest in satanism stayed. I remember me being on stick looking through some girls profile and she had a link to a Myspace profile. I was pretty horny that night so i clicked on it out of curiosity. Once i was redirected to the site, the images and color just caught my interest for some reason. I'm not too positive but my "interest" was probably a rebellion thing towards my parents. Not to make my situation sound bad but I am in the system because of them and it has it's benefits and detriments. Aside from that, the days that follow I was googleing satanic stuff. Most of it being about death gore, the side most people believe satanism to be. Teens4Satan came up on the search results, so I clicked it hoping for find some more dark false crap. I remember first reading it, "Your interest in Satan is a positive thing.", really caught my interest. As i went on to reading into it, this sentence, "Most of what you have probably heard about him from non-Satanic sources are from his enemies and people who hate him for no real reason, other than this is what they were taught to believe." opened my eyes in ways that are just beneficial for oneself. That line, sentence is what kept me in. Years past on and I just want to say the important details that i feel in some way, my prayer was answered. I recall there being days I pray to Father for him to take me away from my family. The purpose of that was so i can feel pain, darkness, and anger, the false side of satanism. Well, sure enough, i was taken away from my family and that was a life saving event. My family was just heading south and so was I. I needed some structure, a healthy environment and relationships. Now it's just me making my situation worse than it has to be. I'm getting a free ride for college. Me being in the system, there were nights i prayed, prayed for saving. The sudden change of being taken away, living styles, and being asked so many questions that had to be heard wasn't too shocking at first. But I got worse over time. Anyway...

I just want to rap this up and say I have my doubts about Satan. I'm sorry but, that sentence I put earlier in the paragraph above about it opening my mind. Well, that sentence makes me have doubts about Satan. I just question Teens4Satan and how factual it is. I really want some help and I'm not trying to put pressure or trying to make someone sound like the bad guy but, Father Satan, if He is our father, can you help me?