plague bearer

[hot.shot50]

Hello everyone i am a 19 year old kid who is diagnosed of HIV i was proud of being a dedicated Satanist for nearly 2 years now after i heard the my diagnosis last month i was shocked, and like my whole world is crumbling before me, i even thought about suicide after that day my faith to Father seems to crumble i stopped going to my astral temple, i also stopped communicating with my group here in the philippines. How desolated i am. Days passed by i cant sleep well i cant eat well, my school grades are almost at their failing point then suddenly one night i was meditatting and trying to communicate with Father then something unexpected happen after 10 mins of meditation i suddenly fell asleep i hadthis very weird dream of me drowning on a sea of mud i saw my self slowly dying, i saw my self just lying there waiting for me to be drowned in this sea of mud, then someone just picked me up i couldn't see the person but i felt gigantic hands lifting me from the mud, and just lying me down besides the sea of mud, i was thinking of my diagnosis. Then a voice suddenly spoke sayingsaying as i remebered do not be in despair for i am always with you, i am always with my children, am i not your creator that you are loosing faith in me. Now rise up and wake.from those words i immediatly knew it was Father After that i woke up and all those depressing thoughts and feeling just goes away, i feel so energized and comfortable, after that i took a piss, then opened my copy of the Al jilwah looks like something is guiding my hand through the pages i havent red it i just looked at the pages, after that i a thought on my head appeared the i dea was i am going to use my disease to destroy lives of christians around me much as possible by comtaminating everyevery source of food that they can put their hands on
Still i need the council of those who are much experienced than me so is that idea good or not,  should i do it or not. Thanks Respectfully yours Reynaldo 

 

[Magus Immortalis]

My understanding is that we are waking up Christians and Muslims who are Gentiles (non-jews) from the programs of Christianity and Islam with our group rituals, not contaminate their food.As for your dream, it definitely sounds like it was Lord Satan! Hail Satan!


On Friday, April 17, 2015 5:26 AM, "hot.shot50@... [JoS4adults]" <[email protected] wrote:


  Hello everyone i am a 19 year old kid who is diagnosed of HIV i was proud of being a dedicated Satanist for nearly 2 years now after i heard the my diagnosis last month i was shocked, and like my whole world is crumbling before me, i even thought about suicide after that day my faith to Father seems to crumble i stopped going to my astral temple, i also stopped communicating with my group here in the philippines. How desolated i am. Days passed by i cant sleep well i cant eat well, my school grades are almost at their failing point then suddenly one night i was meditatting and trying to communicate with Father then something unexpected happen after 10 mins of meditation i suddenly fell asleep i hadthis very weird dream of me drowning on a sea of mud i saw my self slowly dying, i saw my self just lying there waiting for me to be drowned in this sea of mud, then someone just picked me up i couldn't see the person but i felt gigantic hands lifting me from the mud, and just lying me down besides the sea of mud, i was thinking of my diagnosis. Then a voice suddenly spoke sayingsaying as i remebered do not be in despair for i am always with you, i am always with my children, am i not your creator that you are loosing faith in me. Now rise up and wake.from those words i immediatly knew it was Father After that i woke up and all those depressing thoughts and feeling just goes away, i feel so energized and comfortable, after that i took a piss, then opened my copy of the Al jilwah looks like something is guiding my hand through the pages i havent red it i just looked at the pages, after that i a thought on my head appeared the i dea was i am going to use my disease to destroy lives of christians around me much as possible by comtaminating everyevery source of food that they can put their hands on
Still i need the council of those who are much experienced than me so is that idea good or not,  should i do it or not. Thanks Respectfully yours Reynaldo 

 

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Hi Reynaldo. Deepest and sincere sympathies to you. And thanks for sharing about your awesome dream.
I must say, I strongly advise against contaminating others' food, etc. Infecting random people will not help matters. And it is against the law. We are law abiding.

 

[Hou ssem]

Father Satan told you to wake.
you must awaken your soul and empower yourself, every disease has a cure.
you need to be powerful and strong to heal yourself,believe in yourself.

I don't think Father Satan wants you to spread disease like that, so
what are you going to achieve when you effect christians? it will pass
on to Gentiles and will do more damage.
in the end those christians are no more but brainwashed gentiles who
sooner or later will join us.

empower yourself and do what you can to heal yourself.
there are Demons who can help you too.
this is just my opinion ,you may choose to ignore it.

Hail Satan!

On 4/17/15, hot.shot50@... [JoS4adults]
<[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

Hello everyone i am a 19 year old kid who is diagnosed of HIV i was proud of
being a dedicated Satanist for nearly 2 years now after i heard the my
diagnosis last month i was shocked, and like my whole world is crumbling
before me, i even thought about suicide after that day my faith to Father
seems to crumble i stopped going to my astral temple, i also stopped
communicating with my group here in the philippines. How desolated i am.
Days passed by i cant sleep well i cant eat well, my school grades are
almost at their failing point then suddenly one night i was meditatting and
trying to communicate with Father then something unexpected happen after 10
mins of meditation i suddenly fell asleep i hadthis very weird dream of me
drowning on a sea of mud i saw my self slowly dying, i saw my self just
lying there waiting for me to be drowned in this sea of mud, then someone
just picked me up i couldn't see the person but i felt gigantic hands
lifting me from the mud, and just lying me down besides the sea of mud, i
was thinking of my diagnosis. Then a voice suddenly spoke sayingsaying as i
remebered do not be in despair for i am always with you, i am always with my
children, am i not your creator that you are loosing faith in me. Now rise
up and wake.from those words i immediatly knew it was Father After that i
woke up and all those depressing thoughts and feeling just goes away, i feel
so energized and comfortable, after that i took a piss, then opened my copy
of the Al jilwah looks like something is guiding my hand through the pages i
havent red it i just looked at the pages, after that i a thought on my head
appeared the i dea was i am going to use my disease to destroy lives of
christians around me much as possible by comtaminating everyevery source of
food that they can put their hands on


Still i need the council of those who are much experienced than me so is
that idea good or not, should i do it or not.
Thanks
Respectfully yours
Reynaldo