I started back on getting into the swing of the spiritual (Satanism), but I only felt good for the 2nd and 3rd days really.
Now I feel sluggish, emotionally volatile, and feel like giving up again... despite not changing my routine at all (Yoga, cleaning, opening, protection), and even going out into the sunlight for once in my life.
(I suppose it doesn't help that physical matters are looking highly bleak. Can't even afford food right now.)