centralforce6661
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This post is not for the people who have the occasional beer or wine with dinner... this is for those for whom drugs or alcohol has become a way of life.
I was once a full time alcoholic, who either had to be drunk or high on some kind of drug. Thankfully I never got as far as heroin but I took my fair share of MDMA during that period. I even overdosed on it which caused a whole raft of issues thereafter for a very long time.
One thing I knew the whole time I was in that boat is that someday I would have to stop. That what I was doing wasn't healthy or sustainable. I watched my friends around me who were in the same situation time and time again come up with grand philosophical justifications to give themselves credence to what they were doing and avert their own responsibility to themselves. Some were harmless seeming enough, that pot is natural and thus a medicine for the mind. Others were more obtrusively foolish such as describing LSD as the path to spiritual awakening. But the underlying principle is that these justifications perpetuated the habit of addiction and many years now down the track, some of these friends (with whom I choose not to associate any longer) are still on the same merry go round whilst I have been free from it for a long time.
Granted part of this was Satan's help though I had to ask for it, it wasn't handed down on a silver platter to me. But I stand by the premise that the foremost reason I was able to break free was that I never defaulted on my responsibility to myself by justifying my behaviour. I knew it was bad, I did it anyway but eventually I could no longer reconcile the two and the responsible side won out.
For those who cry responsibility to the responsible after a preamble about the supposed benefits of drugs perhaps you need to understand that when you justify a very long list of negatives by focusing on one positive and ascribe it such great meaning in your mind that it becomes increasingly next to those things you recognise as truth then you have subconsciously averted your responsibility to yourself and thus the responsibility granted to the responsible no longer applies for you need to have been responsible in the first place.
A child who knows stealing is wrong and does it anyway is nowhere near as dangerous to themselves and others as a child who knows stealing is wrong initially but twists their own thinking to suit the practice and thinks stealing is ok, even positive and has the gall to tell others they should accept them.
I was once a full time alcoholic, who either had to be drunk or high on some kind of drug. Thankfully I never got as far as heroin but I took my fair share of MDMA during that period. I even overdosed on it which caused a whole raft of issues thereafter for a very long time.
One thing I knew the whole time I was in that boat is that someday I would have to stop. That what I was doing wasn't healthy or sustainable. I watched my friends around me who were in the same situation time and time again come up with grand philosophical justifications to give themselves credence to what they were doing and avert their own responsibility to themselves. Some were harmless seeming enough, that pot is natural and thus a medicine for the mind. Others were more obtrusively foolish such as describing LSD as the path to spiritual awakening. But the underlying principle is that these justifications perpetuated the habit of addiction and many years now down the track, some of these friends (with whom I choose not to associate any longer) are still on the same merry go round whilst I have been free from it for a long time.
Granted part of this was Satan's help though I had to ask for it, it wasn't handed down on a silver platter to me. But I stand by the premise that the foremost reason I was able to break free was that I never defaulted on my responsibility to myself by justifying my behaviour. I knew it was bad, I did it anyway but eventually I could no longer reconcile the two and the responsible side won out.
For those who cry responsibility to the responsible after a preamble about the supposed benefits of drugs perhaps you need to understand that when you justify a very long list of negatives by focusing on one positive and ascribe it such great meaning in your mind that it becomes increasingly next to those things you recognise as truth then you have subconsciously averted your responsibility to yourself and thus the responsibility granted to the responsible no longer applies for you need to have been responsible in the first place.
A child who knows stealing is wrong and does it anyway is nowhere near as dangerous to themselves and others as a child who knows stealing is wrong initially but twists their own thinking to suit the practice and thinks stealing is ok, even positive and has the gall to tell others they should accept them.
