New to spiritual satanism.... On the edge of the precipice!

[kingsman.moyes]

Hello group JoS!

I have today discovered the web page "Joy of Satan" completely by accident.
I have been brought up as a Christian and have always been (until recently) a devoted one.
I'm not sure what first rocked my faith, well I do and I don't.
It's when I first looked into conspiracy theories i.e. 9/11, NWO, Masonic groups etc...
I then stumbled on a group of people called the Nephilim... I had a very strange feeling. Why had'nt I been told or taught about these people before by vicars/priests?
I then did some more digging and came across the "illuminati", who believe Satan to be the "good guy" because he directed eve to eat from the tree of knowledge, without this push we would still be the mindless puppets of god....

WOW!!! I thought. What an amazing concept! It's then I found myself thinking "well yes I suppose we should be kind of thankful for this"
Whoa!! Hang on, aren't I a Christian? Why am I thinking like this???!!!

Ok, a bit about me. I'm 26, male, I'm married and from the UK. And currently serving in the army.
I'm also receiving treatment for severe PTSD and I'm an in patient at a hospital.. I'm not crazy ok people! Well at least I don't think I am.
Well while I'm here I've got A LOT of time on my hands so apart from keeping my cardio fitness up in the gym (I'm still getting paid so I should still stay fit right!)
I've also been doing what I do best and digging on the Internet.

I have agreed with absolutely everything I have read on the site and I'm teetering on the edge to devote the rest of my life to spiritual Satanism.... But it's a scary thing when it's something I've been told to fear all my life... But haven't I also been taught to fear "god" too? My so called "creator".
This also scares me, is on the site.

"Satanism is also very different from other religions in that once you open a door to him in your mind, it will be permanent. Satanism is analogous to a one-way street where you can only go foreward; there is no turning back"

A very sound and just warning I think. But I have always had respect for the unknown.

So to wrap it up, all I'm asking for is... Answers? Comfort from other Satanists? To be told its ok I guess. Almost metorphorically be taken into Father Satans breast as a father would do to a child and be comforted and accepted I guess...

Thank you for reading and possibly answering

L

 

[spencerlfa]

Zevism is all about empowering yourself. We do not believe in Christianity, or any other religions, Zevism predates all other religions and we only believe in the Gods of the Old. Buddha/Jesus/Allah whatever are only thoughtforms used by the enemy.
Zevism is about ascending yourself and becoming a God. This takes alot , alot of time and effort, we are talking about many lives. ( Reincarnation - why so many people discover Satanism at a young age; have already opened chakras ; feel already linked to Satan ; feel like a female stuck in a man's body ; etc).
However, we do respect all the gods of Duat ,who along with Satan, help and collaborate with us so we can reach the desired ultimate
objective - Becoming a God.
This is not Anton Lavey's theory, for we acknowledge the so called " supernatural", that btw, can be explained by science if it was more advanced. Many, many people have felt, spoken and even SEEN Satan and other Demons. They are real beings that preside in another dimension.

read the website http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/ for more, im still new as well can't get into details, good luck

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