Hello,
I am new to this site as well, although only somewhat new to the left hand path. I won't go into detail as to how since that would be way to much information but since I was little I never thought that Christianity was a valid belief and I have always held a lot of hate for that religion in particular. In short, at a young age Christianity showed me what they were truly about and since that time I have never looked back. I have spent a lot of time trying to find my place, and nothing ever seemed to fit. I'd been through Atheism, Agnostic beliefs, as well as LaVeyan Satanism, but as I said nothing really fit. I felt lonely and a part of me severely empty. I had actually completely given up on finding something. But last night the strangest thing happened and now I feel like I have finally found my place.
Last night I was walking home from a walk under last nights beautiful Strawberry Moon and as I reached my building I looked down to my phone to cut off my music, as I did so I noticed in the opening that led to my apartment building a figure standing there, facing me. I was not alarmed but I did look up to see if it was someone I knew. As I looked up I saw the figure dart into the gap between apartment buildings; faster than anything I have ever seen. Instead of being afraid and waiting a bit before heading that way I bolted off trying to catch it, as if it was the most important thing in the world. When I reached the area it was gone and no one was there, no doors were being closed- nothing. I remember feeling incredibly sad and I stayed that way for the better part of the night until I went into the empty room that I have in my apartment. As backstory that seems important to this, I use that room to meditate, to wind down from the day and to build myself up for the next, but as I sat quietly in the darkness of the room I almost instantly felt better, which doesn't usually happen. No one was there with me and I did not feel as if someone that I could not see was in the room with me but all I did feel was incredible comfort.
That was yesterday obviously and I still don't know what it was that I saw or rather what was watching me but to many things have happened since last night for me to ignore the occurrence as a strange happening. Today I just so happened to stumble upon JoS and after consuming over half the site I finally feel at home. If anyone has any feedback for me on what happened please feel free to contact me with your thoughts. I would appreciate them. Other than that, thank you guys for being here and I look forward to sharing my journey with you.