need help with self image

[CaspianTheDreamer]

hi guys. so basically, if i wanna cut to the chase, i can say that i consider myself rather unattractive. there are certain qualities my body has that i dont like and i consider them flaws. same with my character. i think more often than not i dont have confidence and cant stand up for myself ( these can be seen in my astrology chart, along with the strong desire for love and sex ). i am doing munka workings but life is hectic... i did get into a relationship with an incubus from father satan once....but it was all so rushed, so many factors were blocking me and i kept fucking up..i didnt want to upset my ex- lover further so i had to end the relationship a few months after... i also used to have crushes on boys from my highschool and i fell in love so hard with one of them that it took me 4 years to detach, yes four entire years you read that right :lol: he didnt even acknowledge me :lol:
but either way im getting very tired from all this, i live in a country that kills homosexuals. i cant date and there doesnt exist one decent person who would even be able to become an SS ( that's one of my personal things i think the person MUST have)...lol its not like im gonna ever have a chance at love in this shithole anyways...so either way i was wondering whether anybody here might have or had the same issue and guide me on how to feel better and to make better decisions....hail satan <3

 

[Blitzkreig [TG]]

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Well, you are already on the right path with Munka. Overall, these sorts of things, being broader problem areas of the chart, do take time to fix. You have to focus on the most important things first, as well as gear your affirmations in that way as well. For example, munka to remove any obstacles (both internal and external) to a healthy relationship, in the best way for you (meaning it works efficiently on the worst problem first).

Such workings, when made decently broad like that, encompass multiple natal placements as well as factors of life, so you should continue the working for a long time.

Beyond Munka, you need to be empowering the deficient aspects of your soul. You are in luck that the Sun just entered Aries, and Mars will be in Aries within a few months as well. By the time that is done, the Sun will soon after return to Leo.
All of these should be used in planetary squares.

Beyond that, working on everything relating to these character aspects, through runes and other energy, should also happen as well, dependent on your time and in regards to proper priorities. Sowilo relates to the Sun, Thurisaz relates to Mars. Uruz can be used as well and is sort of like a mix of Mars and Taurus.

In regards to finding the best person for you to love, this is where a Venus square and Gebo come into play. Being gay may limit your options, but unless you are going to do something drastic, such as moving, I don't think you really have a better option than simply doing a working. Keep in mind, it may take time as well, or multiple workings.

Even if someone is not perfect, such as a case where they are spiritually open but not Satanic, then you could do workings on them to change that, including RTR's to remove curses, Munka to detach them from anything enemy related, Eiwhaz and Othal, possibly Raidho or Mannaz/Dagaz for opening their mind to Satanism.

 

[CaspianTheDreamer]

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Well, you are already on the right path with Munka. Overall, these sorts of things, being broader problem areas of the chart, do take time to fix. You have to focus on the most important things first, as well as gear your affirmations in that way as well. For example, munka to remove any obstacles (both internal and external) to a healthy relationship, in the best way for you (meaning it works efficiently on the worst problem first).

Such workings, when made decently broad like that, encompass multiple natal placements as well as factors of life, so you should continue the working for a long time.

Beyond Munka, you need to be empowering the deficient aspects of your soul. You are in luck that the Sun just entered Aries, and Mars will be in Aries within a few months as well. By the time that is done, the Sun will soon after return to Leo.
All of these should be used in planetary squares.

Beyond that, working on everything relating to these character aspects, through runes and other energy, should also happen as well, dependent on your time and in regards to proper priorities. Sowilo relates to the Sun, Thurisaz relates to Mars. Uruz can be used as well and is sort of like a mix of Mars and Taurus.

In regards to finding the best person for you to love, this is where a Venus square and Gebo come into play. Being gay may limit your options, but unless you are going to do something drastic, such as moving, I don't think you really have a better option than simply doing a working. Keep in mind, it may take time as well, or multiple workings.

Even if someone is not perfect, such as a case where they are spiritually open but not Satanic, then you could do workings on them to change that, including RTR's to remove curses, Munka to detach them from anything enemy related, Eiwhaz and Othal, possibly Raidho or Mannaz/Dagaz for opening their mind to Satanism.

Thank you so much you are a great help