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Smaller Saturn return?

AvatarDarkAries1 min to read

Saturn has given a pretty rough transit for one and a half months now. Good news, only a few days left from it, but its effect match pretty closely to a Saturn return. Is it? Because this period is devastating, horribly. Feels like I lost everything from my oast and have nothing for the future, no matter what I do, or how much I train myself. Im at the point that a small bad news push me to the ground. If saturn have a lesson for me, its that I was delusional and in fact, I am barely nothig. No friends, no loved ones, no strength, no hope, no power, no life. Just a 'bit above avarge' pawn, and never more. Or even less. Its highly unlikely I ever get a relationship, not even a child. I would just make more diabetic and pessimistic, so it might be better like that.
And sorry for ranting. Its just way, way too much. And even if it means I just didnt had strong enough aop and high enough energy level... then the last decade of routhless trainig was for nothing I guess.

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“Out of life's school of war—what doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.”
“Have I been understood?—*Dionysus versus the crucified*.—“

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I have never felt so isolated. That I dont have a future, or any reason to go forth

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“Out of life's school of war—what doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.”
“Have I been understood?—*Dionysus versus the crucified*.—“

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And since it entered just not long ago, I only have about 11 more months to go. Gods, I honestly dont know if I can endure it. Its a smaller miracle I could endure so far

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“Out of life's school of war—what doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.”
“Have I been understood?—*Dionysus versus the crucified*.—“

#3

Just stay strong
You shall make it
Keep your energies high
By doing yoga and breathing exercises
Clean your aura on overtime
Everything shall workout for the best for you

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#4

Please keep your birthchart information a complete secret only to be known by
For your own safety
I have done that mistake before but now I regret saying anything because you can trust anyone
Best of abundant luck for you

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I have never felt so isolated. That I dont have a future, or any reason to go forth

I remember a similar Saturn transit. Lost friends, felt “blocked” regarding my goals.

I am also having a very tough transit to a house that means a lot to me.

I figured the secret to all this out. Basically keep your energies high and you will not only survive, you’ll thrive.

Stick with meditations, hatha yoga, and kundalini yoga was a gift too. (The gym if you can also is so powerful) Daily and with presence, no excuses, life and Saturn do not care if you’re tired or depressed, lonely, you do this and you come out unscathed and you come out on top at the end of it too.

Bit by bit the situation resolves, yesterday I just got something that I couldn’t before due to my “Saturn transit” after a hatha yoga session, it came out of nowhere and with no effort from me despite me trying desperately to get it before. And I have been back on the path for only a couple of weeks.

Work on the world of the inner and the world of the outer falls into place.

The worst you can do is try to waste time, or escapism until the transit passes, the transit is there to teach you something if you escape the lesson you’ll keep suffering Saturn will make sure of it. If you learn, earn, and win, Saturn rewards your discipline and strength with what you want but also in a concrete way.

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Please keep your birthchart information a complete secret only to be known by
For your own safety
I have done that mistake before but now I regret saying anything because you can trust anyone

Best of abundant luck for you

Yeah, and I shared a lot less than I would have wanted to. Sadly, Im not that good at astrology, only started to learn it properly a few years ago, and I have very minimal experiences. And this transit I have now, is shit.

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“Out of life's school of war—what doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.”
“Have I been understood?—*Dionysus versus the crucified*.—“

#7

I am also having a very tough transit to a house that means a lot to me.

I figured the secret to all this out. Basically keep your energies high and you will not only survive, you’ll thrive.

Stick with meditations, hatha yoga, and kundalini yoga was a gift too. (The gym if you can also is so powerful) Daily and with presence, no excuses, life and Saturn do not care if you’re tired or depressed, lonely, you do this and you come out unscathed and you come out on top at the end of it too.

Problem is, I stressed out myself really badly for doing too much, and these times I kept myself lower. I cutted back my meditations to a lot lighter routine, so my body wont break into it and I wont get overstressed(at least from that). Its almost over, and I already did a lot of yoga, gym and meditations, if we dont compare to how much I meditated before.

It feels like I broke my inner world as well, to almost nothing. And it literally almost killed me, at the worst I planned out to how to end my own life, and things wasnt much better after that either. And these times I just realised how many thigs I lost. Even with all the yoga, all that I do, all that I aim to be better and strong enough for it... Im not. If it has a lesson, Im afraid its that. So far, sadly, I dont feel I got any from this nightmarish time.

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“Out of life's school of war—what doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.”
“Have I been understood?—*Dionysus versus the crucified*.—“

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I am also having a very tough transit to a house that means a lot to me.

I figured the secret to all this out. Basically keep your energies high and you will not only survive, you’ll thrive.

Stick with meditations, hatha yoga, and kundalini yoga was a gift too. (The gym if you can also is so powerful) Daily and with presence, no excuses, life and Saturn do not care if you’re tired or depressed, lonely, you do this and you come out unscathed and you come out on top at the end of it too.

Highly unlucky for me, I was hyper disciolined for two months, with a bullet journal and advanced rapidly, making 10-20 things daily for every day. I got burnout and had enough from all just a few weeks before saturn started, so it all went withkut a bigger routine. Guess Im just fucked

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“Out of life's school of war—what doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.”
“Have I been understood?—*Dionysus versus the crucified*.—“

#9

Just stay strong
You shall make it
Keep your energies high
By doing yoga and breathing exercises
Clean your aura on overtime
Everything shall workout for the best for you

I try to believe it. But, loosing my dearest friend to cancer, loosing loves, loosing almost all ambition for the jobbI study for five years now, getting diabetes with very severe side effects if I dont follow a cruel routine... I try to look like that its the best for me. But if its, I dint want to know what the worst is.

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“Out of life's school of war—what doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.”
“Have I been understood?—*Dionysus versus the crucified*.—“

#10

Yeah, and I shared a lot less than I would have wanted to. Sadly, Im not that good at astrology, only started to learn it properly a few years ago, and I have very minimal experiences. And this transit I have now, is shit.

I know very little about astrology
Am sure you understand more than me

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Problem is, I stressed out myself really badly for doing too much, and these times I kept myself lower. I cutted back my meditations to a lot lighter routine, so my body wont break into it and I wont get overstressed(at least from that). Its almost over, and I already did a lot of yoga, gym and meditations, if we dont compare to how much I meditated before.

It feels like I broke my inner world as well, to almost nothing. And it literally almost killed me, at the worst I planned out to how to end my own life, and things wasnt much better after that either. And these times I just realised how many thigs I lost. Even with all the yoga, all that I do, all that I aim to be better and strong enough for it... Im not. If it has a lesson, Im afraid its that. So far, sadly, I dont feel I got any from this nightmarish time.

Just try to be more positive and try not to dwell on negative feelings, suicidal ideation, etc. You attract what you dwell on.

Cliche I know, trust me I know where you’re coming from. I was suicidal as well like a week ago. All it takes is a mindset shift.

Write it all down, feel your feelings then let them go, don’t live in them.

Do stuff that makes you happy for a bit and don’t focus much on the darkness of it all.

Also, trust in the Gods, they are there when you let them in, you let them in by opening yourself up to them (with Astarte’s 8-fold path) and their wisdom and ethics.

Then you start again, step by step, and don’t care if you fall. Why do we fall? So you can rise up again.

You’re a child of the most bright Gods and Goddesses you’re destined for so much even if you can’t see it right now, it unravels with time. So keep at it and do what you have to do.

Also take it easy, sometimes what it takes to fix your life is the 10% better every day you don’t have to do grand routines from the get go.

I have slacked off so much as well and treated myself with no self care.

When I returned I just decided I will do only meditations in the morning, cleaning, protection, nothing crazy and then I can do whatever the rest of the day, this catapulted day by day into an avalanche of other positive habits and practices and then I’m nearing my prime again.

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I try to believe it. But, loosing my dearest friend to cancer, loosing loves, loosing almost all ambition for the jobbI study for five years now, getting diabetes with very severe side effects if I dont follow a cruel routine... I try to look like that its the best for me. But if its, I dint want to know what the worst is.

It’s okay to grieve these are heavy life events.

But what you do with them are what matters.

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I try to believe it. But, loosing my dearest friend to cancer, loosing loves, loosing almost all ambition for the jobbI study for five years now, getting diabetes with very severe side effects if I dont follow a cruel routine... I try to look like that its the best for me. But if its, I dint want to know what the worst is.

These feelings come and go I experience these very often sometimes i wonder when it will end and sometimes am convinced it remain that way
but one cannot simply give up
Am being Hypocritecal right now
But we should keep moving forward no Matter the circumstances
The sun will rise regardless of how we feel or what is going on in our lives
Things move on
So should we

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Just try to be more positive and try not to dwell on negative feelings, suicidal ideation, etc. You attract what you dwell on.

Cliche I know, trust me I know where you’re coming from. I was suicidal as well like a week ago. All it takes is a mindset shift.

Write it all down, feel your feelings then let them go, don’t live in them.

I know, but it seemed like it only worked on negative things, and didnt matter how much I tell myself 'it can get better', I feel like a stupid kid who touch the hot oven, even after burning his hand a dosen times.

I tought for a long time I destined to achive greatness. Then diabetes. Then my friend died. And I dont see the reasons for them. Life just not go as I planned, not by a single bit, and Im way, way too tired already.

I hated myself so much, that it would have been lethal to someone else. At least I treated that out, but if there wouldnt be saturn transit, I wouldnt have selfhate

But yes, focusing on the bright side, this horrible transit wont take long. Saturn will stay in this house for a while yet, but the transit cause most of its problem. At least after it I can continue advancing, but Im still ashamed how I stagnated during this. I could have done more.

And speaking of doing somethig fun... well, I dont have any, or at least barely anything remained. After more than a month, happiness is just a memory.

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“Out of life's school of war—what doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.”
“Have I been understood?—*Dionysus versus the crucified*.—“

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I know, but it seemed like it only worked on negative things, and didnt matter how much I tell myself 'it can get better', I feel like a stupid kid who touch the hot oven, even after burning his hand a dosen times.

I tought for a long time I destined to achive greatness. Then diabetes. Then my friend died. And I dont see the reasons for them. Life just not go as I planned, not by a single bit, and Im way, way too tired already.

I hated myself so much, that it would have been lethal to someone else. At least I treated that out, but if there wouldnt be saturn transit, I wouldnt have selfhate

Im not proud of it, but my only happiness for really, really dark times was porn. And after the near-death lowpoints was gone I get off from it again, and no happiness since. That was also a really shitty halpiness, but still. Gaming, reading, creativity and art, petting dog, yoga, gym, breath exercises, old damn lego toys, nothing. Sometimes a smile on stupid jokes, maybe once a week, and thats basically all.

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“Out of life's school of war—what doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.”
“Have I been understood?—*Dionysus versus the crucified*.—“

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I remember a similar Saturn transit. Lost friends, felt “blocked” regarding my goals.

I am also having a very tough transit to a house that means a lot to me.

I figured the secret to all this out. Basically keep your energies high and you will not only survive, you’ll thrive.

A very good and helpful reply, thank you brother

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#20

My goodness.

I have been feeling similar, myself. Depressed, like there's no hope, lonely, etc.

But you know, I am also going through a similar transit, as it happens.

With this said, despite my suffering, I am somewhat fascinated, lol. Because I was wondering if Saturn has anything to do with the way I'm feeling right now, and it seems that it probably is, and I'm not the only one.

Well, I have to of course say that I am sorry to hear the problems others are going through. I said to myself this morning that I almost feel like the Gods aren't there anymore for me, but I heard somebody say "we are". So there is a reminder, that They are always with us, no matter how bad.

It kinda sucks for me right now, with the Venus retrograde in addition. But we must pull through this, and emerge even better and stronger than we ever were before. Brother MercuryWisdom has given some wonderful advice, here.

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I get where you’re coming from, I had the exact same feelings recently for the longest time, like I’m wasted potential. This is the darkness speaking, when you see the light again and invite it into your life it gets better bit by bit till you’re free of this mindset that limits you.

Remember, reality is what you make out of it. In a sadomasochistic way Saturn can give you this bleak and dark world view and disguise it as “responsibility”, “realism”, “maturity”.

Invite the Sun back into your life use White-Gold light on you daily, bit by bit you see the Gold all around you, how can you invite spiritual Gold, light, feel limitless, brilliant, cleansed when a moment before you were depressed and dark and still think the world is not yours for the taking?

Yes.
You cant save someone who dont want to be saved - I learned that on my friends death. A cruel lesson he left me with, but cruel lessons stays the longest.
Ill just keep up, since not much more to go now. I would be even ahsamed just writing down how much time of this painful transit remained, since I could have just waited it out. Im making a few plans to get better once its done, after that Im sure I could see it in a much more positive way. Afterall, it seems this transit took away a habit from me, one particually bad habit, which I fighted against for so, so damn long. Its too early to say for sure, but it seems promising so far.
And it took away illusions as well. Thats very painful, since I saw myself as something smaller, something weaker what I imagined. But also, something real. That what I achived is true, and truly mine. And maybe my old ideal had to die out. That old ideal I made, of what I want to be seems too stranger now. It was something like an old and all powerful hermit living in the forest and meditating half days. A rather shallow ideal I had.
This also forced me to a much slower, much more mindful way of taking life and advancing. Guess I can no longer can be called impatient, wich I heard as long as I can remember. Its a lot less exciting, doesnt feel as powerful, but this will be the way.

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“Out of life's school of war—what doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.”
“Have I been understood?—*Dionysus versus the crucified*.—“

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Yes.
You cant save someone who dont want to be saved - I learned that on my friends death. A cruel lesson he left me with, but cruel lessons stays the longest.
Ill just keep up, since not much more to go now. I would be even ahsamed just writing down how much time of this painful transit remained, since I could have just waited it out. Im making a few plans to get better once its done, after that Im sure I could see it in a much more positive way. Afterall, it seems this transit took away a habit from me, one particually bad habit, which I fighted against for so, so damn long. Its too early to say for sure, but it seems promising so far.
And it took away illusions as well. Thats very painful, since I saw myself as something smaller, something weaker what I imagined. But also, something real. That what I achived is true, and truly mine. And maybe my old ideal had to die out. That old ideal I made, of what I want to be seems too stranger now. It was something like an old and all powerful hermit living in the forest and meditating half days. A rather shallow ideal I had.
This also forced me to a much slower, much more mindful way of taking life and advancing. Guess I can no longer can be called impatient, wich I heard as long as I can remember. Its a lot less exciting, doesnt feel as powerful, but this will be the way.

This whole time have a strong feeling to the tower card. In fact, in the past few years I had different events, all following the cards of the great arcanum. And now comes the stars, seems fitting to me. After that, the Sun, when I can rebuild myself from the ruins. Because of what remained from this dark time, what it couldnt destroy, is unbreakable

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“Out of life's school of war—what doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.”
“Have I been understood?—*Dionysus versus the crucified*.—“