Allison Passino
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Just wanted to share this with all my Brothers and Sisters. Jake, feel free to post this on your site if you so desire! I was gonna email it to you, but I didn't wanna have my message come back to me; I tried emailing you one time to ask you something, and I got my message back with some sort of weird error. That may have been my machine, I dunno. Anyways, I thought I'd let everyone else read it, too. Take care, Brothers and Sisters! Hail Satan forever! Testimony of Ceridwen Bloodfang Ave and dark greetings to all! I thought Id write this, and have High Priest Jake post this on his site, as his Testimonials page is so sadly lacking. That, and I love to wax eloquent about our Shining Lord Satan. Well, first, a bit about me. Im blind with a bit of light perception, and have been so from birth due to my being born premature. I love to read; Ive always loved to read. Mostly fiction. Im a fiction junkie! However, during my younger years, I read all kinds of religious texts, including the Bible. Yes, I read the bible, not because I was xian, but just because I was curious, you know. For some bizarre reason, I thought the stories were interesting. Lol. I never took any stock in it, though; never thought there was any religious value in it whatsoever. Thanks be to Satan, I was never raised to a certain religion. My mother told me that I could follow whatever religion I chose, if it made me content. Neither of my parents know Im a Satanist yet, but I know that if I do tell them, they will eventually accept it because they love me and they know that Im still their daughter no matter what, and I am, basically, a good person. And they arent religious really, so that helps immensely. Anyways, back to my point. Ive tried various religions over my lifetime, trying to find one that would give me peace and knowledge. I never was a xian, though; I could sense, even when I was younger, that xianity was *never* a way to true peace. I tried Buddhism for a while, and it was cool, but I just found it too ascetic and mind-boggling after a while. All that life is an illusion stuff, and detachment and whatever. I tried, though. I actually meditated whilst I was in that phase, and it helped! Yknow, I wasnt following a program or whatever, or even doing specific exercises. I was just, you know, making my mind blank and letting stuff go. And it worked. When I get to that point in the spiritual warfare training program, I think Ill actually be good at the void meditation. Its easy for me to make my mind blank, for some reason. I ramble again. Sorry. So, I tried being a Wiccan for a while too, but that never really got off the ground. I liked the pagan stuff, but I always thought it was just too fluffy, and it just never rang true. I never felt any kind of real connection with their goddess. I thought I did for a while, but it wasnt really there. Well, at last, I come to the point of this testimony. Finally! you all say. Lol. I was trying to write a novel about Satanists. Now, I had no real concept of what Satanism was truly about, so I have no clue why I even wanted to write a book about it. I think, in retrospect, it was father Satan kinda, well, putting the suggestion in my head. I cant think of any other reason, truly, for my sudden interest in Satanism. Id never actually given much thought to Father Satan before, I hate to say. And when I did, I thought that he didnt exist, that he was just a ploy by the xians to keep people in line. I feel sorry for that now, but thats just how it was. Anyways, when I was in the process of thinking about writing this book, I was wondering what kind of music Satanists might listen to specifically; yes I know, the obvious, black metal, but my brain just wasnt there that day. And I know there are some Satanists who hate metal, but there are some who love it, me among them. When I found Satan, I became very interested in black/death metal, where Id absolutely no interest in it before. Go figure. Anyways, I typed Satanic music into Google, just to see what I might find about it. And what do you think was the first site that came up? The Joy of Satan! I looked at the Satanic music stuff, and the name of the site intrigued me so I looked at the home page. Then I read the Al-Jilwah. I was hooked. Utterly. I read and read and read, just kind of soaking it all in. The philosophy and practices of the Jos just seemed to click inside my head. It all made so much sense! I loved it. Well, eventually, after Id read almost all that was there on the site (took a few months, too)!, I decided to make my formal commitment to Satan. Ill confess, I didnt really feel much when I did it, and that probably had to do with several factors; the rite was sort of interrupted when I accidentally extinguished the candle, and I hardly bled at all when I pierced my finger, and so on. I did feel a sense of peace when Id completed the ritual though, when I sat before my candle and meditated. I finally felt the sense that I was home, that I was at last in my rightful place by my Fathers side. I am not as much of a spiritual warrior as I would like to be right now, but Im wholly aware that its by my own doing. I just didnt wanna start doing any of the major meditations till I was sure I wanted to be with Satan. I am certain now, beyond all doubt, that this is where I belong, and I made a promise both to Father and myself that I shall become a warrior for Hell. It might take me years to do this, I dont know, but it shall be done. I want to aid Father in this war against our common enemies, and though Im not spiritually proficient yet, I can do things in the physical realm that will help Satan just as much. I have, and especially during the past few months or so, felt the intense love of our Father Satan, and he has blessed me beyond what I had ever imagined he could. Its really the little things, inconsequential though they might seem, that prove his love and caring for us. I really fail to see how the xians can babble on about their nazarene when he never does anything whatsoever for them! Those occasional things that do happen are out of luck, not out of any sense of care by those non-entities. I am eternally grateful to my Shining Lord for all that he has done for me. I talk to him when I am sad or unsure, and I know he hears me, though we cannot speak directly as of now. I always feel a sense of peace and comfort when I speak to him. I know his infernal protection is over me wherever I go, and I do not worry. I shall end this far too long testimonial by thanking the Joy of Satan Ministries, in particular High Priestess Maxine Dietrich and High priest Jake Carlson. Their inspirational sermons about Satan, as well as the many meditations Maxine has both provided, have given me no end of help. Thank you both, and indeed all who are doing the Fathers glorious work here on this earth. It most appreciated. Keep up the good fight, my Brothers and Sisters in Satan! WE shall prevail. Ave Satanas en aeternum! Ceridwen
