I'm also 25, like you I'm being forced to go to church, pray every morning and night, listen to the made up bullshit they call blieble (lol) messages every morning and night, 5 hours each day. The difference is that they're my family and they're taking good care of me for now. In my family house, living under this conditions I have been able to build my soul, at least to an intermediate level and I've met my guardian demon although we haven't talked. I do quiet meditations and it works wonders (somebody said on one of my posts that Satan is not astral deaf, he doesn't need loud speakers to hear us). When I go to my room after every night section of prayers I clean my aura (my room is my shrine), put on a new one and do all the meditations I mapped out for myself and for months now I have been able to survive under their roof and they have not even a tiny suspicion abt me. I deceive them to the core (they even make me preach sometimes) and this is one of the reasons why I believe xtianity is a lie. Cos a chronic Satanist like me is surviving 100% in a hot xtian home. Their hot sweaty loud prayers don't do shit instead I have noticed that my meditations helps my family a great deal (I can't start listing).
Most times I cry to Satan to show me a safe way to free my family from xtian bondage. The only limitations I have is that I can't shout my vibrations like I would have liked, I just raise my voice a little so they don't hear me. You can do like me (if your condition is too bad, at least till you set your life straight with help from Father and your guardian demon, if you haven't met him, just talk to him, he hears), I told Father that I'll live home when he tells me to and that's when I'm strong enough to survive on my own I.e. when I get my cert and a nice job and a nice house with an extra room for my dream shrine. Anything I think I can't do by myself, I hand over to my guardian demon and Father and suddenly an idea pops into my head, I open the JoS website and I begin to notice things that I've read before but didn't notice and I apply them, case settled. Sometimes when its a sudden case I just do something I remember I read but don't know how to do it but believe it or not how ever I do it it works. When I started putting the aura of protection around my family members esp my dad I didn't know how to do it, I had a bad dream abt him and my guardian demon said through my heart put an aura of protection around your father and I did it how I do mine but with his title as my father in it, I can't type fast enough to tell you what happened. Satanism doesn't mean you're one hell of a low life, or that you're one forgotten, rejected human who has no dignity or honour to protect my dear. It doesn't mean you're now a fatalist. It means that you have more right to live happily and successfully in this planet than any other existing human. So don't go thinking abt the street or resolving to worst situations when you find yourself in a problem. A problem should mean you need to advance or you need to strategize by applying new things to what you've been doing already. I personally believe that as a Satanist my road should be smooth, so when ever I get a hard nut I search for what to do. I was a street kid, and I know the street very well. I used to do a lot of drugs too. When I became a Satanist and I did as a fatalist, as a worthless person going to the god of the worst, but it turned out its not so, its the best decision of my life. first thing Satan did was clean me up in two days and bundle me home. When I got home my mother began trying to chase me away like she always does (trying to get her own kids to inherit my father's wealth), Father did something that till today still surprises me and brought my father back to my side (just recently my father gave me a huge amount of money around 8k in dollars, to solve some of my probs) and I'm still comfortably home, in fact, my father is trying to keep me home.
One day, around when I was a month old in Satanism, I started having the urge to smoke weed, cos home is like rehab to me, I'd missed weed since I left the street. My guardian demon kept saying no, but I insisted. I bought it and I didn't know what came over me and I smoked it in my room's bathroom, I don't know how the smell managed to enter the house and my mom perceived it (she of all people!). She began shouting at me and I ran out of my house and kept running (trying to run away from home again) at a spot I stopped like a car you just stepped on the break and my mind said GO BACK and face the consequences. I was disappointed at what I'd done, I thought my dad was going to jail me etc. After crying (cos I thought I'd spoilt the good relationship I'd built in a short time with my father) I went home. My father was angry but he forgave me and today its not even remembered. One of the things I thought abt before I went back home was how I was going to be a run away forever without a home and believe me if I'd ran, it would have been final. This reminds of the place on JoS that said your guardian demon will do anything to keep you safe and good. So my dear stay put, meditate, read Enochian keys as prayers to Satan etc, don't be lazy and pls don't go to the streets. HAIL SATAN
HAIL MY GUARDIAN DEMON.
On Mar 11, 2014 7:48 PM, <
edwardtgao8@... wrote:
I would not be a street boy in anyway in your place, for its too dangerous and mortal for my health. You might do not know how it is terrible what your talking about - "to go to the street". Xians are very stupid and easy to be fooled up, so if your "pastor" is not brutal or agressive or cause you any other damage except xianity, its ok to endure him like a cockroach in your house. SS are elite, they needn't suffer hard work or brutal life in the street to die because of it just because some cockroach lives in their house. The most important thing here is do you have some spare time when your pastor is out, your alone in home and can meditate, vibrate loudly and do yoga and rituals without being interrupted? Meds are very important, they make your soul strong so that no shitty xian prayers will damage it. Privacy is a real thing to be concerned about, but still you can do meds that are quiet and do them in shower or in toilet or when go to sleep lying in bed or at night (if you can) or even in church when they are praying deeply and don't gaze at you what your doing. Just relax, visualize colours, light, clean chakras, do breath excercise, the only thing you can't - is vibration, but you will do it when alone at home. Sometimes we have to live as in Middle age: to conceal our belief, to meditate in a church, to do rituals at night, don't be ashamed with it. All great mages of Middle Age did so. Leonardo called his picture of Satan "st. John the baptist". My mom is not hard xian, but the kind of homophobic freak she is, is almost alike xian: if I ever tell her about SS, she will just throw me away as a sectarian and outcast. The only possible way for her to exist is "like others do", "personality in her house is unacceptable". So I understand you.
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