Elizabeth Remy
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It's been a long time since I've posted to the group, and for that, I apologize.I am in a bit of trouble with my fiance's family.. but it's a decent length of a story.
We've been engaged since April, and his family is extremely distrusting of us. My fiance's name is Ben, and his family consists of his mother, and his older brother and sister, Sam and Tori. Things have been very bad, and it got to the point that I couldn't see or talk to him at all because his controlling mother wouldn't let him. Recently, though, the situation has improved. I can talk to him on the phone for 45 minutes a day and I get to go over to his house every Friday from about 3PM until sometime after dinner, which usually ends up being 8 or 9. They have deemed it inappropriate for us to lay next to each other, for us to ''cuddle'', and for us to talk to each other in a way that they can't hear every word we say. I'm going back to his house this week, and we've decided that since the past two weeks seem to have failed, all we will try to do is hold hands and give each other small kisses. This is extremely hard for us, because we are very much in love and plan to spend our lives together. We are both very affectionate people and the restraint that they have out on us is suffocating, to me at least. His mom has also restrained his electronic devices. She blocked him from being able to call anyone on his cell phone except her and her boyfriend, Travis. However he can receive calls from anybody except from my cell phone, my dad's cell phone, and my house phone. She has also taken away his ability to use the internet. This is all because she doesn't trust us, and doesn't exactly approve of us being together. In the past she has threatened to get a restraining order against me, and has threatened to not pay for him to go to college, which is very important to him. There is a good part, though. Ben's brother, Sam, and his mom are very close.. and it appears that Sam likes me and has had yet to say anything bad about me. We believe this to be a good sign. I think as long as we can get Sam to think I am alright, and get him to trust us, then his mother's trust will soon follow. Ben is also a satanist, but since his mom doesn't understand he has told her that he has given it up, and if it comes up I plan to say the same thing. We both remain loyal to Satan in our hearts and we understand that we have to hide this from them. I hope Satan understands as well.
I have prayed to Father outside of a ritual a couple times and I hope he can hear me even though I'm not really that open yet since I am a pretty new satanist and have not yet been able to do rituals regularly. I have my altar set up, I just have not found the time. But I am fixing it as soon as I can. What I mean is that I hope he still hears me, and I hope Father knows I am trying my best to make these people trust both Ben and I. It doesn't seem to be working all that well and I was hoping maybe Father's influence could help. I find myself running out of the emotional strength to deal with this, as his mother as treated us this way for pretty much the duration of our relationship. I think the whole time it's mostly been an issue of trust and of disapproval of me being with her son. She thinks I'm a bad influence, and I think it's possible that the siblings do as well. This could be coming from my past of emotional instability, and bad things happening to me. I'm recovering though, and doing much better, and it's very frustrating that she still sees me as somebody who is not good enough. Do you think Father will help me? I am trying so very hard and I am trying to be the person they want me to be because I love him with all my heart and soul and I don't want to be without him... ever. I hate that I have to lie to them about who I am just to win their trust, but I know Ben loves me for who I am and he hates it just as much as I do.
So I guess my question is this. Does Father hear my prayers despite the fact that they are not during ritual? Will he try to help me? Also, if anyone has any suggestion at all as to how I can win these people over, please don't hesitate to say something. Anything helps and I will most likely try it unless I think it would make the situation worse. I mean, I do know them better than those of you who I am just asking for help. But any suggestions are appreciated. I'd also like to thank anyone who read this, because it's a long post. Thank you so much for caring about one person's life, if only a small amount.
Elizabeth.
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