xxdarkbeautyxx
New member
- Joined
- Jan 29, 2007
- Messages
- 33
1. I am a very open person, I day dream constanctly and sometimes for
5-6 hours straight. I lately been having more nightmares then ususal
and seeing things pop up everywhere. When I was 10yrs old I created a
imaginery enemy that only I could see or hear, for 4 years she
tortured me, through fear , eventually she left but the day she left,
I was talking to her trying to be nice, and all of a sudden I felt a
very demonic ( I was chritian then so that is what I called it )
pressure hit me, it felt like I was surround by multiple demons ( I
call them angels now ), I thought my soul would just be completly
destroyed or something like that, well enough with the story, the
point is that I am way to open, I actually started day dreaming
before I even finished this paragraph. Does anyone know a way to
close me off from influences, and thoughts ( I sometimes get
disturbing thoughts as well)? Please and Thank you
2. How do you stop yourself from getting spiritual vampirerised,
without the meditation on JOS site? Also if there is a way to just
completly destroy the Vampire could you tell me about that as well?
Please and Thank you
3. How can I get closer to darkness, or become one with it? When I
say that I don't mean black energy, I mean something closer to a
element. ( I even went to the extend of trying to invoke black energy
and have a black aura, I wanted to empower myself through black
energy, but I later found out that was just stupid ). Please and
Thank you
4. How do I get in contact with my Guardian Demon or at least get a
name without a Ouji board or a penulum? Please and Thank you
5. I am a very confused person and everyone once in a while I will
have random doubts about Father and Spiritual Satanism, how do I stop
this? Please and Thank you
6. Lately I have become a random person, I will cry, laugh, feel like
I'm going to throw up, get angry, become sleepy, loss of energy,
crave blood, feel like killing someone, etc at random times and
places. I have no idea on what is going wrong with me but can someone
help me with this one? Please and Thank you
5-6 hours straight. I lately been having more nightmares then ususal
and seeing things pop up everywhere. When I was 10yrs old I created a
imaginery enemy that only I could see or hear, for 4 years she
tortured me, through fear , eventually she left but the day she left,
I was talking to her trying to be nice, and all of a sudden I felt a
very demonic ( I was chritian then so that is what I called it )
pressure hit me, it felt like I was surround by multiple demons ( I
call them angels now ), I thought my soul would just be completly
destroyed or something like that, well enough with the story, the
point is that I am way to open, I actually started day dreaming
before I even finished this paragraph. Does anyone know a way to
close me off from influences, and thoughts ( I sometimes get
disturbing thoughts as well)? Please and Thank you
2. How do you stop yourself from getting spiritual vampirerised,
without the meditation on JOS site? Also if there is a way to just
completly destroy the Vampire could you tell me about that as well?
Please and Thank you
3. How can I get closer to darkness, or become one with it? When I
say that I don't mean black energy, I mean something closer to a
element. ( I even went to the extend of trying to invoke black energy
and have a black aura, I wanted to empower myself through black
energy, but I later found out that was just stupid ). Please and
Thank you
4. How do I get in contact with my Guardian Demon or at least get a
name without a Ouji board or a penulum? Please and Thank you
5. I am a very confused person and everyone once in a while I will
have random doubts about Father and Spiritual Satanism, how do I stop
this? Please and Thank you
6. Lately I have become a random person, I will cry, laugh, feel like
I'm going to throw up, get angry, become sleepy, loss of energy,
crave blood, feel like killing someone, etc at random times and
places. I have no idea on what is going wrong with me but can someone
help me with this one? Please and Thank you
