Mental health issues

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Hello all, I've suffered with mental illness (depression, anxiety, panic attacks, bipolar disorder) all of my life. Even when I was a Christian, training to be a pastor (thankfully I found JOS in time) these issues persisted, but of course being the fools that they are they heavily discouraged any type of professional treatment and told me that prayer would cure it. Obviously, that didn't happen. Fast forward to now, and my doctor put me on a medicine that does help a little bit. The only problem is that when I take it all of my astral senses shut down. I can't do energy work or anything else, and that doesn't sit well with me. I have quit taking the medicine, but even with consistent and constant power meditation, yoga, cleaning the aura and chakras, and attempting healing energy work, it doesn't help my mental issues one bit. I'm even to the point of contemplating suicide. Please, any advice?